Mistakes said:

Klarn, in what ways do you feel that you are in your own way? Could you define that, maybe give an example or two?

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Rasmodius said:
Soooo in the course of doing a teasingly uncool thing, I may have inadvertently done an actually uncool thing and now, after making a catnip themed avatar, people might actually think i am catnip? Some people feel a way, the whole thing got very serious very fast.

I tried to update my confession along the lines of "I am 100% doing a bit here, but fear it may have been in unintentionally poor taste, and if so, I apologize", but hit submit to find I caught a ban (which is fine). I worry that what I tried to do was wear the face of a shitposter and what I may have actually done is wear the face of a lost friend with a much more tender and personal history on the board than I realized.

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That about sums it up on my end. Boy was I surprised!!! When I set my tagline to "unbannable" I fully expected to catch a temp ban just because that's the natural way to tease back. But I'll admit that what actually happened did not occur to me for a single moment.

I'm sorry for not doing the homework, misreading the room, and making light of a situation that clearly has some history I don't fully understand, but there's no need to further derail explaining it. Whatever happened here was not my goal.

Hip, fiddle, I apologize for any distress caused as a result. My bad. Please know that the deceit, and not the earnestness, was a ruse.

Beef, mods, I'm sorry for dragging you into this mess, and thank you for your kindness.

In other words.

Anyway I confess that I also don't know how legos work and am stubbornly not yet willing to believe it isn't the first thing where the answer is "like it looks like they do"

KlarnEvil9 said:

A great question

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KlarnEvil9 said:

...how much I could accomplish if I could get out of my own way for just 5 minutes.

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How do I get out of my own way??? Musically, emotionally, or otherwise? If I could figure it out, I could apply it to the rest of my shitpile of a life. All I've been able to do lately is try to repair the holes in the sinking ship with a drill and hammer. That doesn't work well, and usually I just see my own face laughing at me from the new hole I made.

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Rasmodius said:

First, let's set the mood with a lil' diddy ditty:

It would seem I owe some of yall an apology.

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Rasmodius said:
Soooo in the course of doing a teasingly uncool thing, I may have inadvertently done an actually uncool thing and now, after making a catnip themed avatar, people might actually think i am catnip? Some people feel a way, the whole thing got very serious very fast.

I tried to update my confession along the lines of "I am 100% doing a bit here, but fear it may have been in unintentionally poor taste, and if so, I apologize", but hit submit to find I caught a ban (which is fine). I worry that what I tried to do was wear the face of a shitposter and what I may have actually done is wear the face of a lost friend with a much more tender and personal history on the board than I realized.

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That about sums it up on my end. Boy was I surprised!!! When I set my tagline to "unbannable" I fully expected to catch a temp ban just because that's the natural way to tease back. But I'll admit that what actually happened did not occur to me for a single moment.

I'm sorry for not doing the homework, misreading the room, and making light of a situation that clearly has some history I don't fully understand, but there's no need to further derail explaining it. Whatever happened here was not my goal.

Hip, fiddle, I apologize for any distress caused as a result. My bad. Please know that the deceit, and not the earnestness, was a ruse.

Beef, mods, I'm sorry for dragging you into this mess, and thank you for your kindness.

In other words.

Anyway I confess that I also don't know how legos work and am stubbornly not yet willing to believe it isn't the first thing where the answer is "like it looks like they do"

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You're good by me man.  I deleted my offending post in my journal, feel free to grab a couch!


Also:




Got a new batch going.  The habaneros looked like shit so I grabbed some manzanos and serranos.


-Kingboomer

KlarnEvil9 said:

I'm watching a video of Dizzy Gillespie from about 1962 rt now and I realized how much I could accomplish if I could get out of my own way for just 5 minutes.

So how the fuck do I even begin to do that??? I could be up there with those guys playing jazz like a mafacka, even though I can't read music. I can barely play the guitar most of the time, but I've been able improvise at very high levels. Often with people I just met. I'm self aware of these factual inconsistencies, but I remain largely incapable of acting on this knowledge. I have several memories of being on stage or whatever and realizing that the music was playing me, and it was the most joyful and spectacular thing I could ever imagine. I'm literally in tears thinking about it, writing this.

How do I get out of my own way??? Musically, emotionally, or otherwise? If I could figure it out, I could apply it to the rest of my shitpile of a life. All I've been able to do lately is try to repair the holes in the sinking ship with a drill and hammer. That doesn't work well, and usually I just see my own face laughing at me from the new hole I made.

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