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Moonshoe
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Finally doing it
#2863699 - 07/07/04 01:56 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Many of us are 'armchair philosophers', who sit around reading and preaching about our ideas but never really acting on them. I know i am.
For along time ive felt that the way im living my life is wastefull, and is seperating me from the true potential of my conciousness. I spend far to much energy watching tv, rotting in pointless classes, jerking off and getting stoned. I also spend far too much time devouring books on shamanism, philosophy, buddhism etc, and i say that because invariably i dont act on any of the knowledge i so hungrily consume.
What drives my search is the desire for a transcendent, sublime and awe inspiring connection with the tao, the eternal creative essence that i intellectually know to be everywhere, especially within me, but am usually unable to percieve.
At rare times i have 'broken through' some of the illusions that i know absorb my daily life. I count myself blessed to have had all the bizarre and magnificent expereinces i have, and that keeps me going, as i now know that the potential is indeed within me.
The problem is that my routines, and those imposed on me by society, are keeping me locked in this lower state of mind, proccupied with fashion, television, gluttony and sloth. The nature of my surroundings is perpetuating this prison of the mind.
ENOUGH!
im finally doing it, what i know must be done. Im cutting the cord. Im taking castaneda's advice and "losing personal history"
forget the moonshoe as he is defined by his friends and family. Forget moonshoe as he is defined by his school and society. Forget moonshoe , the name itself, and all the labels i foolishly apply to myself and my world.
This summer im going back to nature. Im going to live at my cabin in the forest, with a huge bag of shrooms. Im going to fast for days, hike deep into the wilderness, sit exposed on the cliff face and drop 7 grams of shrooms while gazing at a moonlit lake.
I am seperating myself from the dogmatic language, the droning sleaze and brainwashing that drips in from every tv, radio and billboard, clearing that shit from my enviroment and replacing it with clean air, fresh food, green trees, solid rock and blue skies and lakes.
I am ripping away the mental illusions and the excuses and the lies and meditating in pure silence and soaring to mind tearing hieghts with the flesh of the gods.
I will adhere to a strick routine of rising and sleeping with the sun, meditating, excersising, healthy eating, and shamanic practice.
After this, ill return briefly to society to earn money for my next big trip... costa rica, to mexico, to asia.
I feel this month long break from the lie will forever clarify my vision, and prepare me for the experiences awaiting me in the mexican rainforests and temples of tibet.
And before i leave, i get to go to folk fest, a kick ass hippy party concert rave to say goodbye to all the people i love here in babylon.
Wish me lucK! i love you all even though i dont know you much, and i hope your summer is fun, enlightening and generally kick ass.
PEACE
i hope ill see you at folk fest!
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BleaK
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2863709 - 07/07/04 02:01 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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*applauds*
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
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Moonshoe
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: BleaK]
#2863722 - 07/07/04 02:08 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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seriously though im pumped, but also kinda scared. I mean ive had mushroom trips that were heaven on earth and sublime knowledge, and ive had mushroom trips that were sheer terror. Im planning to push the limits of dosage and preperation, and do it alone in wilderness settings where the spirits are potent and the trees speak. The potential for mind-breakage seems very real, but such is the risk of the proffesion.
It will be difficult putting these experiences into a working framework, as i have such a mismash of studying under my belt. Im essentially trying to teach myself shamanism, a dangerous proposition. Thats why i cant wait to get to mexico and seek out some real shamans to trip with and learn from.
Ack, just venting my excitement, its like everything ive been planning and dreaming of for years is finally right in front of me, and its both terrifying and exciting.
"i'm useless, but not for long, my future is coming on..."
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eve69
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2864370 - 07/07/04 09:55 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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This is just more bookishness, the only difference being that you're reading hallucinations.
After 9/11 I knew the government was creating the stage for WW3. I went out with signs saying, "Just say no to WW3!" People thought I was a crazy asshole.
But at least I got off my ass and did what I believed in.
Worse yet, on one occasion this friend of mine dressed like an Arab and went around with me. I must say that the experience felt like entering a beehive. I was mainly scared of being profiled. Still am.
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Archemetis
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2866028 - 07/07/04 05:27 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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nice...im doing the same thing actually, this october im going to Kalalou valley in Hawaii to live on the beach for much the same reasons as you mentioned...should be quite the learning expireince
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MOTH
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2866067 - 07/07/04 05:39 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
Moonshoe said: seriously though im pumped, but also kinda scared. I mean ive had mushroom trips that were heaven on earth and sublime knowledge, and ive had mushroom trips that were sheer terror. Im planning to push the limits of dosage and preperation, and do it alone in wilderness settings where the spirits are potent and the trees speak. The potential for mind-breakage seems very real, but such is the risk of the proffesion.
It will be difficult putting these experiences into a working framework, as i have such a mismash of studying under my belt. Im essentially trying to teach myself shamanism, a dangerous proposition. Thats why i cant wait to get to mexico and seek out some real shamans to trip with and learn from.
Ack, just venting my excitement, its like everything ive been planning and dreaming of for years is finally right in front of me, and its both terrifying and exciting.
"i'm useless, but not for long, my future is coming on..."
That sounds awesome! I would recommend you take a trusted companion with you though, on that high of a dose. They could sit some way off from you and you'll be so wrapped up in your own mind that you won't even notice him/her. That way you can go into the trip secure.
Just a suggestion...take care of yourself.
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Huehuecoyotl
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2866596 - 07/07/04 08:16 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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"rotting in pointless classes"
You in college? Even Castaneda finished his degree...but by all means have a great time.
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KthxBye
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2866709 - 07/07/04 08:54 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
This summer im going back to nature. Im going to live at my cabin in the forest, with a huge bag of shrooms. Im going to fast for days, hike deep into the wilderness, sit exposed on the cliff face and drop 7 grams of shrooms while gazing at a moonlit lake.
Hell yea, me too. I'm going to an island in maine with a knife, a lighter, some water and not much else.
Right after Aqua Teen Hunger Force.
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Huehuecoyotl
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: KthxBye]
#2866884 - 07/07/04 09:33 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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" I would recommend you take a trusted companion with you though, on that high of a dose." Negative. Just tell someone where you are, and when you will return. The rewards will be greater alone. I took just such a vision quest a few years back, and I ensured my safety by choosing a safe location before ingesting anything.
Edited by Huehuecoyotl (07/08/04 12:48 AM)
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Positronius
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2867262 - 07/07/04 11:23 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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"rotting in pointless classes" -you only get what you give If you really wanted to "go for it" you would leave the mushrooms behind. Thats just my opinion though. It seems you are trying abandon all of your sensory pleasures that clutter your mind....and yet you are going to bring a big bag of shrooms so you can get really high all the time whilst on your meditative escapade? I dunno....seems half-baked to me, cut the shrooms and -bring a - plant/species identification book instead, would be my advice. but thats me. If I was going to isolate myself from the rest of the world for months on end, and I had to bring something to keep me entertained, it would be books, but then again, Im not an aspiring shaman.
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Edited by Positronius (07/08/04 01:12 AM)
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psikooz
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you will have an exerience.
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psikooz
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: psikooz]
#2867408 - 07/08/04 12:26 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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And this is WW3.
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Huehuecoyotl
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2867421 - 07/08/04 12:34 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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After reading Positronius' response I feel the need to clarify my previous statement. When Castaneda spoke of losing one's personal history I believe he was refering to making one's self unnavailable to the manipulations of others; to have the power to make decisions without others deciding for you. Personal history gives others a grip on our emotions...they know the right buttons to push based on their previous experience with us. To do this one does not have to run away, one only has only to break emotional bonds with their personal history and drop all preconcieved notions about self. The idea of going off into the wilderness with the intent of having a spiritual experience is a good one indeed, but do not let this longing cause you to destroy what you have previously built. If you are attending classes this is not a waste of time. It will lead to certain opportunity later. Just make sure that what you are studying is what you want to be in life. To drop your life to go off on a spiritual quest may be foolish in light of the fact that when you return with your new found peace of mind reality will still be waiting for you. If you cast all totally aside you will merely set yourself up for failure and none of your other dreams of travel will ever have a chance. I am NOT saying such a quest is not good, but do it when the proper time presents itself and not as a means of running away from stress. While I thoroughly approve of the spirit of what you want to do; use your interest in the spirit and entheogens to enhance your life not waste it.
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Fliquid
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Moonshoe]
#2868262 - 07/08/04 09:28 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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If your mind is strong enough, you will return unharmed. Be glad you have the option to do it, many of us do not have that choice.
I am energy, I am light, I will help you, and keep you safe during your psychedelic flight.
Be safe.
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Mixomatosis
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Fliquid]
#2868304 - 07/08/04 09:37 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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many of us do not have that choice. lame excuse..
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Fliquid
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Quote:
Mixomatosis said: lame excuse..
Think before you judge.
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Mixomatosis
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Fliquid]
#2868333 - 07/08/04 09:42 AM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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why don't you?
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Fliquid
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Because I have two kids to take care off. Should you want to respond, make it long
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BleaK
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: Fliquid]
#2869167 - 07/08/04 03:01 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
Fliquid said: Because I have two kids to take care off. Should you want to respond, make it long
i dunno if id call that an excuse, there are kids all over the place that need taking care of.
-------------------- "You cannot trust in law, unless you can trust in people. If you can trust in people, you don't need law." -J. Mumma
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NariusFractal
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Re: Finally doing it [Re: BleaK]
#2870235 - 07/08/04 08:11 PM (19 years, 9 months ago) |
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Yah it's obviously not an excuse, it's a damn good reason why he can't abandon his personal life that he has built thus far... How spiritually rewarding would that be?? He's on his mission now, which is to raise those kids in a manner that will be beneficial to the human race and to all life on earth in the future when they control things.
-------------------- You are the microcosm of the macrocosm.
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