Mr. Mushrooms said:

Thankfully at the Shroomery you can post something like that and know you're not alone.  I think many of us have been there.  Some never left.

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SpencerGNobleman said:

remember to time is a cycle not a line, and our ideas about linear time are an illusion the romans are using to prevent the inevitable and eminent return of christ consciousness to all beings...

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As Dick later recounted it – possibly in mythologised form – a laser-like pink beam shot from the fish to Dick’s third eye. It had an extraordinary effect:

"I suddenly experienced what I later learned is called anamnesis – a Greek word meaning, literally, ‘loss of forgetfulness.’ I remembered who I was and where I was. In an instant, in the twinkling of an eye, it all came back to me. And not only could I remember it but I could see it. The girl was a secret Christian and so was I. We lived in fear of detection by the Romans. We had to communicate in cryptic signs. She had just told me all this, and it was true.7

There was plenty more to follow. For the next year or so, Dick felt his psyche invaded by a “transcendentally rational mind, as if I had been insane all my life, and suddenly had become sane.”8 He experienced hypnagogic visions, auditions, tutelary dreams, and an eight hour all night vision of thousands of coloured graphics resembling “the nonobjective paintings of Kandinsky and Klee.”9

Dick came to nickname the invasive rational mind as VALIS (for Vast Active Living Intelligence System), which became the name of his 1981 novel recounting his mind-boggling experience in fictional form."

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You'd like VALIS, that was what I was referring too.

I slipped you some Dick (  ) because you have to be that crazy/sane to see the world the way I was talking about.  His experiences are an example of seeing time as a cycle instead of a line.