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Thanatos10
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Disconnected from Human Life 2
#22167192 - 08/30/15 11:18 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Does anyone else seem to find human life....boring and dull?
It just seems like everything I found fulfilling and great before in my life just seems so petty, so small, so dull. I often find myself watching all the people around me, scurrying about, wondering...why. I see myself studying them and their reactions like some sort of scientist, cold and objective.
They run around in a world of their own creation, so enraptured by everything. I just can't seem to get into it anymore. Love, positivity, relationships, they seems so pointless. Their beliefs in destiny, fate, god, they all seem so foolish. As if they truly believe there is a plan meant for them. Definitions of good and bad seem so gray.
I find myself existing outside the "human world", the things I do now are more out of autopilot it seems. There is the occasional joy in them, but the feeling is diminished and feels vestigial. The more days pass, the further the disconnect from "my own kind".
It's weird, surreal, and interesting. Has anyone felt like this? Am I going crazy? Is this something I should stop? I'm not sure what to make of it.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22167226 - 08/30/15 11:31 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm guessing you're around the age of 18-22 and what your experiencing is the drop of dopamine that accpurs after puberty All is well though you will shake it off and find other things to be proud of and motivate you but yes life is rather monotonous, repetitive, drab, at times and it may see like at all times and its definatly the majority of times but every once in awhile your life is good so just be happy your not in some parts of Africa or the ghetto and embrace life to the fullest cause that's your only option now buddy you have just joined the club called life
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: dpomalia]
#22167285 - 08/30/15 11:59 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well said.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22167303 - 08/31/15 12:09 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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it's a necessary realization OP. but alas, quite depressing also. this is the moment you realize, you ought to find something that makes you genuinely happy by yourself .it could be art, physical exercises,traveling,etc...
everything seems so pointless at times, until you get diagnosed with an uncurable disease 
it is the irony of the human condition : it is a miracle, yet pointless.
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My experience of disconnect includes all my communications make very little sense to most people. Though I know what I am saying. Contradicting myself and mixing everything up makes perfect sense to me.
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Thanatos10
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: dpomalia]
#22167849 - 08/31/15 06:22 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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dpomalia said: I'm guessing you're around the age of 18-22 and what your experiencing is the drop of dopamine that accpurs after puberty All is well though you will shake it off and find other things to be proud of and motivate you but yes life is rather monotonous, repetitive, drab, at times and it may see like at all times and its definatly the majority of times but every once in awhile your life is good so just be happy your not in some parts of Africa or the ghetto and embrace life to the fullest cause that's your only option now buddy you have just joined the club called life
This is not something I'll just get over, this is after thinking over what I have observed. Pride, joy, love? They feel like wasted emotions. What is embracing life to the fullest? How can I when everything around me feels so small and limited? I would have liked to be born in those places, I wouldn't have time to think about things like this. Life would go back to being simple. But when I look at humans from a cosmic perspective, everything seems dull. Spirituality just seems like nonsense for people to feel better about their place in a sea of darkness. I don't see the point in caring or loving these creatures, let alone falling in love. Sex is no longer a thing for me. Like I said, I feel disconnected from humans. Everything they do bores me, their entertainment is smal and their concerns petty. It's like I don't belong on this planet.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22168246 - 08/31/15 09:34 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why don't you stop watching people and start doing things that interest you? I think you're not going crazy, you just have too much time and comfort on your hands.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: cez]
#22168290 - 08/31/15 09:47 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It is easy to come disconnected from the monotonous thing we have turned human life into. All the seemingly meaningless interpersonal actions that seem so vainly dictated by ill concieved emotions. I can totally see where your coming from.
It is times like this when i try to get back in touch with my natural instincts and not let the get crushed by societys machine. Get out take some risks, experience the unfamiliar learn to adapt and reason. Im just rambling but seriously get outside as many opportunities you have take them. What kinda of life is it to sit around and stare at an idiot box all day. You must have somethings you enjoy doing OP?
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22168403 - 08/31/15 10:25 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Smoke weed and do drugs. That should fuck your shit up nicely.
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Life certainly does feel utterly pointless when you really take it for what it is. You have one life, as far as we know, and in that one life you are expected to work and sleep for more then half of it.
You hear people say all of the time that life is what you make of it, that it is up to you to choose your own destiny. Others believe in something called fate. That everyone born is already predestined, but I am not one that believes in this logic, because that would imply we have no control over our lives. That what is going to happen is going to happen regardless of what you or anyone else in your life may or may not do.
I have been down the road you seem to be headed down, and can tell you that it only leads to depression. That is pretty much where I am at with it right now at least. Going through the motions, auto-pilot as you put it. Lack of feeling.
It is up to you and only you to accept life for what it is and make the best of the things, knowing that the possibilities are infinite.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22168513 - 08/31/15 10:50 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanatos10 said: This is not something I'll just get over
I see you have an ability to look into the future! Congratulations sir, use it wisely.
In all seriousness though man, I was exactly where you are a few years ago. It's a state, and all states are fleeting. IMO, you just gotta ride out the shit storm and you'll come out the other side a better person for it. That doesn't mean that your observations on humanity as a whole will change (mine certainly haven't, as I can see they haven't for most of the other posters on this thread), just that they'll likely bother you a lot less in time.
As has been said already, the more you focus on your inner self, the less the outer bullshit going on around you will bother you.
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Thanatos10
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My inner self? What do you mean by that?
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22169845 - 08/31/15 04:07 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanatos10 said: My inner self? What do you mean by that?
Urrr.. I wish I could put it into words. I've gone a bit blank trying to conceptualise it.
How about this; you know the many masks we must wear to get through this life? And you know that, for the most part, they ain't real right? Well, your inner self would be the inner core, the part of you that is inherently unchangeable. The part of you that is only really accessible to you when you are fully in the present moment. It is still, unlike the mind, which is a constant flurry of (for the most part IMO) useless thoughts. I feel like I'm waffling here, so I'm gonna fall back to some quotes that might help:
It is our normal waking consciousness, rational consciousness as we call it, is but one special type of consciousness, whilst all about it, parted from it by the filmiest of screens, there lie potential forms of consciousness entirely different. We may go through life without suspecting their existence; but apply the requisite stimulus, and at a touch they are there in all their completeness, definite types of mentality which probably somewhere have their field of application and adaptation. No account of the universe in its totality can be final which leaves these other forms of consciousness quite discarded. How to regard them is the question, for they are so discontinuous with ordinary consciousness. --William James
Truthfully you can't improve yourself, because your true self is everything, it is all there is. Your true self is prior to thought, it cannot be improved upon or changed it can only be. You can improve your body, and change your habits, you just have to want it, but you are neither your body or your habits, that's like being a tree and saying that "I am the leaves, but not the branches, the roots, the bark, or the trunk." --Tmethyl
And whilst not quite in the same vein, I feel this might be good for you to read:
Begin the morning by saying to thyself, I shall meet with the busy-body, the ungrateful, arrogant, deceitful, envious, unsocial. All these things happen to them by reason of their ignorance of what is good and evil. But I who have seen the nature of the good that it is beautiful, and of the bad that it is ugly, and the nature of him who does wrong, that it is akin to me, not only of the same blood or seed, but that it participates in the same intelligence and the same portion of the divinity, I can neither be injured by any of them, for no one can fix on me what is ugly, nor can I be angry with my kinsman, nor hate him, For we are made for co-operation, like feet, like hands, like eyelids, like the rows of the upper and lower teeth. To act against one another then is contrary to nature; and it is acting against one another to be vexed and to turn away. --Marcus Aurelius
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Thanatos10
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That sounds awfully vague.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22170285 - 08/31/15 05:48 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanatos10 said: That sounds awfully vague.
And you can sound really ungrateful.
If you want to discuss it further, just say so. I am happy to share all that I know.
Life is pretty vague for the most part though ain't it?
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Dullness, morbid fascination, naseau and aversion (clap hands) and dullness and morbid fascination and squeamishness and aversion...
Maybe six feet under is Marcus Aurelius's mandibular symphysis.
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Re: Mandibular Symphysis. [Re: Kurt]
#22170738 - 08/31/15 07:14 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm with these two^^. I'm a bit bemused that you've come on here, composing what is perhaps a desperate plea for sympathy and instruction, and then fine persons give you excellent information, and you won't accept any of it. You've been dismissive of everyone in both of these recent threads. Do you want to try to make an effort, or just get attention?
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Thanatos10
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But it was vague though. I'm more confused about what they mean by inner self than ever now.
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Re: Mandibular Symphysis. [Re: Thanatos10] 1
#22170995 - 08/31/15 08:05 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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It strikes me that you say you are only willing to accept things with proof, but then you reject everything. And you don't seem in the least bit interested in turning inwards to seek answers (which is the only place your gonna find the real ones). That, mate, is just gonna have you running round in circles. You seem to be doing a pretty good job of it from what I've seen in your time here.
How about sitting down one night, relaxing, focusing on your breathing, and take a trip inside for some of the answers you seek. Shit, whatever, take some acid or some shrooms or DMT if it makes life easier.
But please, stop endlessly asking questions of all of us here only to then respond with absolutely and entirely non-committal answers. Put in a bit of bloody work will ya!!
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Thanatos10
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Because i have not gotten proof. I have tried all the things people are suggesting, I've done that before. Otherwise I would not be in this mess. This is about having the thought creep up every time I try to change, and then ending up worse than when I began. HOw can I be sure that the answer lies within?
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