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Thanatos10
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To be honest I've really only known lust which I guess I confused with love. I have never been in love before and when people told me they were with me it just felt weird. Like I didn't love them but they were into me. But I have known desire and lust.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22248360 - 09/16/15 09:16 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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I totally sympathize with your confusion on this. However, I'll bet that you'll fall in love at some point. The real issue is whether that will go at all well, or not.
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CosmicJoke said: ugh, maybe i should take some kratom now too, really getting sick of toss and washing this shit 
Mix it with yoghurt brother! I'm literally right about to do that myself. It's 10x less disgusting than toss & wash.
What's an applecare appointment? And why get so high beforehand?
yikes, meant to post this one in the ODD WCA thread.... apple computers are for mostly urban people who can take their computer directly into the store when it needs to be fixed. MY 512gb PCI-E SSD died on me, would have cost $900 if I hadn't had their extended "applecare" warranty... Meanwhile M-Sata ones cost maybe $160 right now? Anyways, I tend to be nicer and more sociable and less likely to rage on an innocent person when high... I have good reason to be mad, i think my $3200 computer was in their shop at least 5 weeks last year until they replaced it with this one, which hasn't even survived a year without problems... and they don't have the most replaceable part of their newest, highest end macbook in stock, so I have to wait until Friday or Saturday to get the thing back .
oh, plus i hate the yogurt method, it's like kratom powder envelops the yogurt rather than the yogurt hiding the kratom..... unless you are using way, way more yogurt, blech. i mean, i got the idea of yogurt on my own, but i think i stirred it in which wasn't the greatest idea, more like you want a little layer of yogurt on the bottom, pour kratom in, put another big glop on top and then let it slide down your throat..... the way i was doing it was making it so the kratom was like a shell around the yogurt making me gag
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: CosmicJoke]
#22249933 - 09/17/15 08:29 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: Mandibular Symphysis. [Re: cez]
#22250470 - 09/17/15 10:34 AM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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try not to explode with rapture
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22256528 - 09/18/15 02:45 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanatos10 said: Does anyone else seem to find human life....boring and dull?
It just seems like everything I found fulfilling and great before in my life just seems so petty, so small, so dull. I often find myself watching all the people around me, scurrying about, wondering...why. I see myself studying them and their reactions like some sort of scientist, cold and objective.
They run around in a world of their own creation, so enraptured by everything. I just can't seem to get into it anymore. Love, positivity, relationships, they seems so pointless. Their beliefs in destiny, fate, god, they all seem so foolish. As if they truly believe there is a plan meant for them. Definitions of good and bad seem so gray.
I find myself existing outside the "human world", the things I do now are more out of autopilot it seems. There is the occasional joy in them, but the feeling is diminished and feels vestigial. The more days pass, the further the disconnect from "my own kind".
It's weird, surreal, and interesting. Has anyone felt like this? Am I going crazy? Is this something I should stop? I'm not sure what to make of it.
sounds like you have become numb/lost your feelings/soul/empathy
I am not only thinking but knowing that how you feel is pretty common for many people now and getting worse because this culture. civilization BREEDS that feeling. It wants you to feel like that!
many moons ago when i was 8/9 till 15, I realize just how dulled I had gotten, and I see now that it was the result of the culture I was being affected by which was a combination of ignorant guardians who were also being affected, school (enforced 'education'), mass media, the news, friends, etc. I was not only dulled, I was getting a sadistic streak. It was only when 15, getting turned onto LSD is when these stagnant dull place this kid/me was in was washed away like some whitewater river, and I saw dramatically that matter, nature was very ALIVE and full of wonder and magic. I saw and felt it.
Does this mean that you begin seeing people live fulfilled lives. No. I am still human like everyone and I see this world as freakin insane and many people are dull and made to think of themselves as robot consumers. They are not only denied ecstasy via inspiration from psychedelics, they are denied the memory of our species' ancient primordial relationship with them. I bet you a lot of people, young and old, you stopped on the street and asked about what they knew of psychedelics would think they began with the hippies in the 1960s and that they make you go crazy!
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Thanatos10
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: zzripz]
#22256859 - 09/18/15 04:05 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Be serious, this was because of my brush with nihilism. Not the culture.
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: Thanatos10]
#22260024 - 09/19/15 12:28 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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Oh...this materialistic culture is nihilistic
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Thanatos10
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Re: Disconnected from Human Life [Re: zzripz]
#22260230 - 09/19/15 01:18 PM (8 years, 4 months ago) |
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No it's not
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