O.K.... this may turn out to be long post so bear with me. I'll warn you now, my typing typing/writing skills are pretty bad, and to make matters worse, I'm completley out of it right now. So again please bear with me.
Anyway, I have been blessed/cursed with SP since I was very young, my first 'episode' I can remember, was when I was around 5 years old, it's pretty vauge, but I remember the buzzing 'elecric feeling' followed by me walking around the room with extreme difficulty (imagine being underwater with 10x the gravity while being elecricuted) and not being able to scream, open doors, or turn on lights... very scary for a 5 year old to say the least. All of a sudden I was floating about 3 feet in the air, if you could of seen the way my body felt, I would of looked like a 'stereotypical ghost', I had no feet!. with no effort at all. the fear kind of subsided, and I 'floated' back to the bed (the only thing I could think of doing for some reason) and woke up, back to normal again. Of course, the first thing I did was try to tell my mom about what happened, and of course she looked at me like I was crazy or something mixed with a bit of fear. It didn't happen again for a few years, as far as I can remember anyway, (kids brains are very good at blocking fucked up memorys) but as I grew a little older, it came back with a fucking vengeance, 3-4 nights a week at least, while I never left my body, I almost always felt or seen an EXTREMLEY disturbing presence right beside me, usualy I couldn't see it, it was always 'just outside' of vision and I couldn't roll over, scream, anything... I felt like I was at the mercy of what a christian would think of as the devil (or a close relative at least)if I could see it, wich was extremeley rare but most memorable, It would usualy be in the form of a black cloud that radiated pure fucking evil (I am a firm believer in the phrase "evil is in the eye of the beholder", and this is what this entity is ,anything your mind has been programmed to think of as "evil or scary".) The most memorable/terrifying SP memory I have had until just recently, happened when I was ...10-11 maybe... I was at my grandparents house sleeping in the usual bed I slept in when I visited them, I was fatigued from lack of sleep (for reasons I can't remember) and trying to sleep when the SP kicked in full force, the usual buzzing, vibrating, electrocution and paralyzed feelings were there, followed very shortly by the entity, it was a pitch black cloud, looked like a mix of black electricity and black vapour, about the size of a baseball (if you've ever seen the black squiggly/gelatinis/electricty stuff you see on tropane containing plants, or diphenhydramine/diphenhydranate, that sometimes forms itself into hallucinations, imagine all that superconcentrated into a little ball of energy that crackels with the most evil vibes you could imagine) it was about 5 feet in front of me at a 45 degree angle, I was lying on my back and couldn't move/scream to wake my grandparents up, and felt completley vulnerable to whatever this entity was up to, I was scared fucking shitless, I somehow managed to roll over (don't know if my body actualy did or not, but it felt like it anyway) and the cloud was now hovering a few inches above the pillow right beside my head! the feeling was unbearable, much worse than normal SP for me at the time, I finaly snapped out of it, and turned on the bedside lamp, I tried not to fall asleep again to avoid it from happening again, but to no avail, althogh the entity never returned that night/morning I had many more short SP episodeds.
That was before I learned dream control and read 'Lucid Dreaming' by Stephen Le Barge (or done any psychedelics) and found out the experiences I was having were actulay somewhat common in the average folk, and even had a name "sleep Paralysis", HUGE relief, it described everything I was experiencing, plus a few tips on how to stop it, until then I had pretty much kept it a secrect for fear of ridicule/disbelief. After that point in time though, I was learning to either stop the process or riiiiiiiiiiiiide it out and see what I could do while in that state
I soon realized I could start a lucid dream/astral travel quite easily from the SP state by simply floating out of my body and spinning (easier done than typed).
I am 25 now, and SP is still a common occurance (15-25% of sleep)It can sometimes be a terrifying/draining pain in the ass (like when you have to work in the morning), But sometimes I induce it purposely, through concious breathing exercises, alcohol hangovers, afternoon naps, sleep deprivation and more, for exploration of the mind/astral/aetheric planes. It also seems to happen when sleeping in a unusual place.
As for trying to stop it, I find wiggeling my toes/fingers can work, and so can just relaxing and trying not to fight it (I know that can be almost impossible sometimes.) If you sleep with a 'signifacant other' try breathing as heavily/fast as you can, they will hear you if they are awake trust me (the only fool proof method I know), as soon as they touch or shake you, you'll almost always snap out of it/wakeup.
as for preventing it, I am glad someone said something about dehydration, that might explain the alcohol hangover effect, I thought it might be from the temporary alcohol withdrawl that causes a hangover in the first place, not dehydration. It seems as though sleep depravation, especialy rem sleep, is a big fator. I've also noticed that taking meletonin to sleep is A VERY BAD IDEA if you are susebtable to SP, at least for me it was (unless I smoke a doobie 20 mins or so after melatonin strip, pot seems to lesson REM for me) emotional stress and unusual sleep location/pattern also seem to be a large factor.
As for the most memorable SP experience I now currently hold, I was trying to sleep (had to work in the morning so it was unintentional) I had taken a 'dissolve under your tounge meletonin strip' and went to bed like normal, but 10 mins or so I felt the familiar vibration of SP
followed by the common but wierd 'esp' feeling of someone/something being there, this time it was aliens. I decided to riiiide it out this time and see if I could bring myself somewhere useful... instead I got the undeniable feeling of a multitude of presences kind of 'scanning my brain' making slight adjustmets and such ( i lack a better description) all I could think was "so... you guys fixin me up or what?" then BOOM, I could see was right ahead of me, facing the dooer, I honestly was convinced that there were aliens standing in my doorway, completly invivible, but something could most definetley be felt.) I have never read 'Psychic Self Defense' by Dion Fortune , but to combat the evil presence she/he(I'm really not sure) says to envision the figure would most be able to help YOU through this ordeal at hand.
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Me too, only for me, I noticed a connection between it and dehydration so I get up to pound water.
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