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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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Sometimes under periods of extreme anger i've cut myself or put out cigarettes on my hand or arms. Very rarely though.

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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I've cut myself for many years. People who say that "it's all for attention," are just ignorant. Cutting is a symptom of a more complex issue within the person, and is rarely "just for attention." I'm not saying people never cut for attention, but trust me, most people who are disturbed enough to multilate themselves don't want the attention it causes. But they know of no other method to get relief for something that troubles their mind. It's like a distraction from your mind that gives you a rush of calm and a feeling of ultimate control. It's not something most people do "to get attention." People do it because it WORKS.

I pretty much regret damaging my body like I did. Your body is a temple, dude. NOBODY ELSE can be as good of a friend to you as you can for *yourself,* including some girl you had feelings for. If anything, you should be gentle to yourself during this stressful time, not waging war on yourself!

Anyway, I'm bad at giving advice to people who cut themselves. That's because honestly...I don't think it's that big of a deal. It's a symptom. It IS a sign that you need to be careful and seek out someone to talk to, because kicking your own ass and cutting yourself when you feel low is not going to help you feel better in the long run. It's only going to wear you down and make you an enemy of yourself. And trust me...nobody wants that.

Just relax dude...next time you feel like cutting yourself, punch the wall. Project outwards instead of in.

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: ShroomOmatic]
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ShroomOmatic said:
I think if you were emo you would be doing it for attention. I'm not sure whats going on Bro but you should maby look into anti-depressants. Talk to some friends Bro, I have lots of depression problems normally at night when I'm not around my friends as much. Just get on the phone and talk with some friends it helps. Take care. Also... smart move not putting this in OTD.


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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: MOTH]
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i've been cutting for over three years too.
for most of the three years i'd wear a jacket everyday.. a light one.. since i lived in florida.
and who the fuck wears jackets in florida? well i did. i didn't want the attention, didn't want people to know.
anyway. i'm in oregon now. and it's easy to wear a jacket everyday because it's chilly enough for it.

but sometimes i'm scared to try a certain drug because i'm scared i'll want to see how it feels, or doesn't feel to cut myself while on the drug.
therefore. it will probably only be safe to do certain drugs with someone else, that way they can stop me if i start ripping myself open.

and for these three years.. i've been always wanting to find a 'secret cutter' like me.
but it's hard to do that because if they're like me, they're not going to be showing it off.
and by that i mean someone that goes to my school.
i'm sure there has got to be, now that i'm at a school with 20,000 or 40,000 people.. i forget which one is the correct amount..

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: wearejellyfish]
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wearejellyfish said:
but sometimes i'm scared to try a certain drug because i'm scared i'll want to see how it feels, or doesn't feel to cut myself while on the drug.


I know what you mean. I have wondered while tripping on shrooms before would it would be like to harm myself while under the influence. HOWEVER, I made a promise a long time ago that I would never anything like that while tripping. It could just spiral too far down too fast.

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: MOTH]
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i don't think i can promise myself that.. :\

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: badreligion2good]
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OKay.
normally im very kind spoke, but for you. i shall change,.
For all those who are putting thout into my time of stress thank you.
The person im talking to knows who they are.
FIrst off, If i wanted attention, I would call a Pshyciatrist.
What i wanted, was to talk to real life people, Who know and understand The way i feel.
first off emo is a stereotype., And youre fucking crazy if you think i slitt my wrist to listen to peoeple bitch about how i want fucking attention.
If i Fucking wanted attention ide join the god dam Circus.

As well, its fairly cold here. i wrapped it up and havnt told anyone., other than those who i trust, The shroomery, and all its shroomerites. So, I will continure to speak my mind, wiether it be about bleeding my blood, Or Politics., Real life has different circumstances, and you can not judge anyone,
See, People like you, make people like me, waste my time writing to people like you, so you Realise people like me Awe willing to waste our time talking about random bullshit.
1 week ago, i knever knew that i would do what i did,.
Today is the day after, i dont have an appetite, i cant eat. all i can feel is the luke warm feelinf that my blood made, im discusted. If you want to speak youre mind,, like you did. I will, and have listened. To every response,. I see many kindhearted people with a steady life and a good view. Then i see others who merely exist on this solitary confide that we call earth,, to make Those who are miserable, More miserable. And you get off to it. you do.


At the moment i cant view who Said what..
let me say this.
Whoever told me to disinfect it.. Thank you :frown: I have.

Whoever told me to find A hobby. Youre very kind, and i respect youre mindset, you probrally have many goals for life.
Whoever told me That * people like me want attention*..
You posted why? To offer insight? .. no!! FOR ATTENTION
God bless All of you. I feel a little better,


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When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
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GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

Edited by I8thesh400m (02/07/07 06:34 PM)

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: wearejellyfish]
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wearejellyfish said:
i don't think i can promise myself that.. :\


Please don't make the shrooms look bad.  It would be horrible if you went too far while tripping, people found out, and then it's the "drugs" who are to blame.  Psychedelics are powerful tools of the mind...we have to use them responsibly.  I would suggest you not cut  while you are tripping, for their sake if not for your own.  They don't deserve the rep they get from people using them stupidly.

Sorry to be blunt, but cutting yourself while tripping on shrooms = ugh.  Bad idea in every direction... if you don't think you can hold back from cutting while tripping, don't trip, man! :tongue:

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: MOTH]
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i don't think it would be shrooms that i would cut on anyway.
i want shrooms to make me feel good with where i am, and if i cut while tripping, then that's just the opposite.

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: wearejellyfish]
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Well, Ive had a bad trip when i took enough to pass my comfort zone, And had stremas of blood that didnt exist racing thru my eyes, It was a horrible overtrip.
But, man ill say, I woouldnt think about cutting myselve on mushrroms. Its a waste of a perfectly good trip.
As for whoever told me to hit the wall..
i was going to.. me left fist was swollen from 3 days before when i punched the stud on the wall.
I cut myselve, As a instinct of agony, And it was all so fast. and honestly. after the initial pain, i was painless. i didnt feel anything..
Life is complicated with many roads to follow.


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When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: wearejellyfish]
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wearejellyfish said:
i don't think it would be shrooms that i would cut on anyway.
i want shrooms to make me feel good with where i am, and if i cut while tripping, then that's just the opposite.


oh, okay...I tend to think shrooms on this site...

please be gentle.

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: MOTH]
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Thanks for those who are willing To offer advice.
now that i can see....
Moth, you rock, thank you for youre advice.
jellyfish, Youre twisted in the mind.
But hey, I say that with the upmost respect.
I came here to talk  to people dealing with the same lifestyle as me.
when i cut myselve, i was really high, But i smoke every day, and do not assosiate that with it, i do however think thats why it didnt hurt much.
I, altho am fine from my cut now. Would like to try to make this stick, ANYONE who needs some EMOtional advice., please post here and know that you are in good company. So far, i can simply smile at youre replys, and know you took the time out ofyoure day to send it.
Thank you guys, or girls :crazy2:
Also,, for the fuck of it, any of yall with shroom knowhow..
Here, is a pic of some birdseed i baught, for some birdy regulars,.
I know grains can be used as a substrate.
WHat about this?
Any comments would be appreciated, And keep in mind, come hell or high water, if you are willing to give input. i will give every effort to reply to averyone.
yet again, I feel like shit right now, and want everyone who has spent the time, to reply even more than once,, Thank you,
you will never know how sincere i am when i say, you are a lifesaver, and you  Deserve alot more Than what i can give you,
Gob bless. ( pic next,).


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sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:
When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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Im aware that this Photo is off topic for this section, so ill say this.
In my very depressed mind, I would very much like to get more mushies growing soon, i have cambodian spore on the way.
So..Answering my question will mentally make me sound, with the fact that soon, if i care for it correctly, I will get to see what ive missed for soo long, the truth.
thats what i need. becuase despite of all the stories, of tripping in a bad mood, so you have a bad trip, I normally only trip when im in a bad mood, And the trip brings out why im angry. I then simply remove the bad vibe from my life,.
Im my last case,, it was my love of my life. Ive known this girl since childhood and even lost my boyhood to her, This girl is a freak, but for lack of better word,, ill say.. shese very,, open about who she sleeps with., If you have a penis, She has Something for that,, 24/7.

It pisses me off. she called today and asked me how i was, i told her i felt like shit, and when i got off the phone with her ide feel 100% better,
She hung up, i feel like shit.
haha life sucks,, sorry im rambling, but fuck,,, life sucks.. what else is there to do? i know.. ill live,, ill live till i die then ill be dead.
Anyone, know if this seed will work? or got some problems,
This sounds fucked up, but anyone who feels like they have a problem, let me know by all means, I am trying to work thru my pain by helping others deal with thiers.

today,, i went on a long walk, put the keys down,, slowed down, and just walked., I notice things in my block i dont notice driving by.


Well, There Is an old Worn house at my corner, And as far as i knew noone lived there. while walking by i saw a car there for the first time, theres never a car there. In the front yard is a very old black woman, picking up trash, that was quite obviousally thrown in her yard., I was smoking a small joint at the time. and i was going to keep walking, so i didnt have to put it out. something in me said,, no... do right, so i helped her clean the rest of the litter from her yard, the lady was holdign a small plastic bag that she was picking up the garbage in, When i added a handfull of garbage, i could obviousally see her hands trembling.
I said, my names thomas, or tommy, by the way, im sorry i should have introdiced myselve., I very tinderly shook her hand and told her it was nice to meet her, and Walked on my way.
i got 3 steps and she says.. thomas,.
I stopped and said, yes maam, and i turned around,
She had tears in her eyes and said, god bless you I wont forget that ever.
I wanted to cry The rest of my walk, But instead i smiled and thout to myselve, I didnt Just think i would help, I didnt just Say i would. , i did. And becuase i did, i am.
If this in any way doesnt make sense, i apologise, it dont make sense to me iether.


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sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:
When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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first of all, ppl have been cutting since long b4 the word emo was thought of. i am sorry that u felt the need to do so, but i understand, being a person who has delt with that in the past. usually cutting can be traced back to a feeling of not having control. and from what ive seen cutting is in the same league as eating disorders. its a control thing. all i can tell u is, u need to find something else to get yourself feeling in control of your life. having feelings for the girl u spoke of seemed to have triggered your episode. take control of your feelings (i know, easier said than done) and you'll find yourself in a better place. i dunno if it works the same 4 u, but once i started smoking pot, the urge to cut went away. now, if i ever get the urge (very very rarely), i light up the herb. good luck to u!

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: vano420]
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I used to cut, and yes I tried going along the tracks, that's painful.

But I always hid it, most people don't know I used to try to commit suicide. I was always focused on using a razor to cut the vein deep rather than lots of shallow scratchmarks.

I got so bad I locked myself in the bathroom around 2am and sat in the tub hoping to bleed to death.


I'm not emo, I'm far from emo, you look at me and you see hippie boy. But I was depressed, I had a lot of emotional issues go down, things like family dying, girlfriend leaving, financial issues and personal insecurities that lead to it.

Just an example on how cutting can mean many things, from just a way to relieve stress to a hope of leaving it all. I think most people who seriously cut try to hide it and don't do it for attention at all.

I remember those kids in highschool who used to use a paperclip to scratch themselves and sat around w/ black fingernail polish acting emo and shit. Always wanted to spit on them.



Oh, yours are superficial, so that's either attention or a cry for help. If it's for attention maybe you are emo... :o


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Edited by DRTMaverick (02/07/07 09:36 PM)

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: Maverick]
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well spoken, and since you were well spoken, ill kindly respond,
Im the last person anyone would expect to see cutmarks on, i do feel like it was a cry for help, the only problem was, it didnt help.
But, Whats made me feel the most secure so far is people who speak thier mind and are willing to help me understand why i did it.
The honest truth is, i Know i did NOT do it for attention,
yet again, if i wanted attention ide join the circus.
thats like saying anyone seen on the street, needs a cab.
Self mutilation, indeed has been around long enough to outlive the *emo* stereotype. My wounds are flesh, they will heal.
however the thout of what i did to my temple, makes me cringe.
I swear, it must have hurt, when i did it i was soo upset i felt viens bulging in my head, and dont remember any pain at all,
i also have 2 smaller cut to the right of it, im left handed and appaerntly the first 2 were tests, and the third i added some gumption too,.
I wasnt aiming to cut a vien, i wasnt aiming to cut myselve.
I Wanted to hurt something, and i happened to be the most vonerable at the time.
Goodnight :smile: thank you for youre opinion, im gonna sleep ,but rest assured, ill be here tomorrow morning, 1 day further from what i did.


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sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:
When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

Edited by I8thesh400m (02/07/07 10:07 PM)

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: badreligion2good]
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badreligion2good said:
No, you're not emo, you're just stupid. You did it so you could tell people about how you cut yourself over this girl that you really like. Do you want to be "emo?" If so, this may be one step towards future effort to create this "emo" self image.

Something I noticed about kids that cut themselves in highschool, they always wanted EVERYONE to know about it. They advertised it. This leads me to believe that this is all about getting attention.

You wanted our attention, you probably want the girl you likes attention, and this is your attempt to get our attention.



Listen up dipshit, I say this for everyone who does what i did,
If you fucking did it, youde find out really fast.,.
you dont want anyone to know, its youre little secret
Why do i want to get sent to the looney bin?
I did come here for attention, Just like you...
Well i know you didnt come here and reply,, to keep quiet... so you obviousally wanted youre voice to be heard???

*(SO YOU OBVIOUSLY WANTED YOURE VOICE HEARD)*

you see, we both have 1 common ground, we yearn to speak, and be heard, That never constitutes me the ability to make the world suddenly revolve around me.
while im angry at you writing this right now..
kids are dying of hunger.
Take youre 1 tracked mind, and get the fuck out of my way.,
I very openly show everyone respect.
so i say this with all DUE respect, fuck you.


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sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:
When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: Maverick]
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YO, YOURE 2 COOL, STOP THE BATHTUB ROUTINE.
I dont know you, but from what little ive picked up, youre very kind, and not fast to come to an opinon. thanks:thumbup:


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sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:  :sunny:
When i cut the stem, it turned blue fast. Is this normal?
..........................
GET DOWN WITH THE NOOB TEK!
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=6607835&page=0&vc=&PHPSESSID=#Post6607835

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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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I'd say get help. I spent 3 weeks at West Hills mental institute on suicide watch. It's more than just sitting around and being observed, it's got active groups and such. And it's not drug rehab where they preach to you about how wrong you are. They generally want to try to keep you from hurting yourself.

Of course it's not for everyone, I just had OK luck with it. It didn't solve my depression but pulled me out of those suicidal tendencies.


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Re: Cutting, Am i emo!? [Re: I8thesh400m]
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I8thesh400m said:

Im aware that this Photo is off topic for this section, so ill say this.
In my very depressed mind, I would very much like to get more mushies growing soon, i have cambodian spore on the way.
So..Answering my question will mentally make me sound, with the fact that soon, if i care for it correctly, I will get to see what ive missed for soo long, the truth.
thats what i need. becuase despite of all the stories, of tripping in a bad mood, so you have a bad trip, I normally only trip when im in a bad mood, And the trip brings out why im angry. I then simply remove the bad vibe from my life,.
Im my last case,, it was my love of my life. Ive known this girl since childhood and even lost my boyhood to her, This girl is a freak, but for lack of better word,, ill say.. shese very,, open about who she sleeps with., If you have a penis, She has Something for that,, 24/7.

It pisses me off. she called today and asked me how i was, i told her i felt like shit, and when i got off the phone with her ide feel 100% better,
She hung up, i feel like shit.
haha life sucks,, sorry im rambling, but fuck,,, life sucks.. what else is there to do? i know.. ill  live,, ill live till i die then ill be dead.
Anyone, know if this seed will work? or got some problems,
This sounds fucked up, but anyone who feels like they have a problem, let me know by all means, I am trying to work thru my pain by helping others deal with thiers.

today,, i went on a long walk, put the keys down,, slowed down, and just walked., I notice things in my block i dont notice driving by.


Well, There Is an old Worn house at my corner, And as far as i knew noone lived there. while walking by i saw a car there for the first time, theres never a car there. In the front yard is a very old black woman, picking up trash, that was quite obviousally thrown in her yard., I was smoking a small joint at the time. and i was going to keep walking, so i didnt have to put it out. something in me said,, no... do right, so i helped her clean the rest of the litter from her yard, the lady was holdign a small plastic bag that she was picking up the garbage in, When i added a handfull of garbage, i could obviousally see her hands trembling.
I said, my names thomas, or tommy, by the way, im sorry i should have introdiced myselve., I very tinderly shook her hand and told her it was nice to meet her, and Walked on my way.
i got 3 steps and she says.. thomas,.
I stopped and said, yes maam, and i turned around,
She had tears in her eyes and said, god bless you I wont forget that ever.
I wanted to cry The rest of my walk, But instead i smiled and thout to myselve, I didnt Just think i would help, I didnt just Say i would. , i did. And becuase i did, i am.
If this in any way doesnt make sense, i apologise, it dont make sense to me iether.



I got a flashback from this beautiful post.


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