Yesterday I was unexpectedly called to trance, to complete my fourth Ego Death sequence. I went into the Spirit World, and the spirits from my immediate surroundings gathered around me, sprawled out in my chair, and sang to me and bestowed their blessings upon me as I peacefully and gracefullt descended into Ego Death, on my brother's birthday.
Notably, as often happens with my spirit world trances, the plants from my very modest garden invaded my living room, covering it wall to wall with foliage, ivy crawling all over the walls and ceiling, before my spirit eye (eyes open) converting my candle-lit room into a kind of natural forest grotto.
They sang a particular Wiccan chant to me, that I know from Starhawk's truly Magical book "The Spiral Dance", a chant that's been spiral dancing through my life since the 1980s.
The Earth, The Air, The Fire, The Water Returns, Returns, Returns, Returns
Surrounded by spirit allies my Ego died a Magical Ego Death, which is to say that it both Did, and Didn't. At that moment, I and the whole situation were in superposition. We WERE the Magic, and therefore we were and weren't, and it happened and didnt happen at the same time.
THAT is Magic friends, THAT is Magic, and that is what I want to share with you.
Our reality consists of fixed states, either yes or no, and their outcomes are determined by us, the observer. But, equally so, behind the reality we perceive to be as solid as the screen of your phone or computer, reading this, is a state of Superposition where everything is both So and Not so, hidden from our perception. This Superposition, where everything Is and Isn't - is the realm of Magic, and it is a placve where we, you guessed it, both are and aren't - and which we can gain a level of access to.
Have you the faith the size of a mustard seed in the reality of this, required for you to work with it?
OM ALAIPSI !

EDIT: I've been going back and forth whether to tell this or not tell it, but I'll report it anyhow and let those who disbelieve, disbelieve and those who believe, believe.
As you imagined, the trance was facilitated by MXE a friend (strictly not a dealer, no money changes hands between us ever for anything) brought in a surprise visit. He brought a small vial of 500mg, a common fare for me, I asked my spirit guide and he advised me to take of it 300mg, so I went to fetch a lab vial and scales.

I have 2 lab vials for MXE in use, both empty, so picked one off a shelf, put it on the table, went to get the scales and.. the vial was gone. Not on the table. The friend shrugged it off, I thought A-ha! in regards to antics pulled earlier by my Nkondi.
I got the other empty vial, weighed 300mg, put it in the vial, we socialized, lubricated with weed for him and 20mg MXE for me, he left, and the aforementioned session unfolded.
After the session I slept a night, the next morning I woke up, :blahblah: at one point I asked my Nkondi where he put the vial.
He asked me "Where did I put the first MXE vial I translocated?" (several years ago) I looked there and lo! behold! there was the MXE vial.. but it was not empty. A small amount of powder was in there.
"MXE? For me?" "You got it. Just to make the deniability of the first time I translocated a MXE vial, years ago, less plausible. I did it again, a gift from me to you after a session that was all about Magic being Superposition."
I wanted to get the scales. "Stop right there!" he said. "How much MXE do you eyeball?" "Uh, a very low dose, maybe 5 or 10mg." "But you don't know. Quantum physics Asante. If you weigh it, you quantify it and if it weighs in at 5mg it wont do much of anything will it? Right now its unquantified and therefore, an unknown quantity. It might well be 30mg you are misperceiving. Eyeballing error, you warn people for this.. Now it will work in your favor. Add water and briskly shake it to potentiate it with the ntent to make it stronger, like they do in homeopathy. Let's make the most of this."
I did so, collected the liquid, did an ingestion ritual and plugged it.
I sat down, closed my eyes and said thanks to all spirit allies and Divinity for the wonderful session, I decided to accompanying it with this Gratitude Nasheed playing on my phone.
Is it was done, *I* was done! I got beautiful closed eye visions that completed biographic and ego death gestalts of the night before, gabve me lots of insight and peace. It was easily as strong as 20mg, 4x as much as I had eyeballed.
Now, hours later, I'm still high on it.
MAKE OF THIS WHAT YOU WILL!
If it comforts you that I was deluded or am telling a fable to entertain you, let it be that. If you somehow believe what I believe, which is that to the best of my knowledge this happened as it happened (how certain can we be of anything?) then you might ponder this over perhaps a joint, a shroom or some quiet reflection.
In any case, enjoy.
I love you all
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Edited by Asante (03/05/18 06:27 AM)
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