Everything written here is serious, I do not mock or use sarcasm in anything I say. Especially with religion, what I say is true, it is really how I feel
I don?t know why I?m writing this, I think about this kind of stuff sometimes, and figured I?d share it, I?m interested in learning different perspectives, I?m just beginning to change, I was pretty concrete throughout my life, but now everything is different. Im just beginning to think differently, I don?t know what caused it.
If you agree with or understand anything I?m trying to say, even just the struggle I?m having, let me know, I?m trying to understand this madness, and if any of you have had any ideals, and I don?t know who I can talk to about it, this seems like the most appropriate place. At the moment, this is just some negative criticism that?s been troubling me, I find an equal amount of wonder in my life, I?m not depressed, and I enjoy this turmoil which won?t let me free, life would be so boring without it.
Ignorance
How shallow we have become in our ignorance. We have neglected most things magical, special, and enlightening about us. We have attempted to prove everything through science, giving our complete 100% confidence in its factuality and truth. We neglect ourselves through this, how can I honestly tell myself that every emotion, gasping for breaths while laughing, every tear that I cry is reduced to the sad accepted truth which is just chemicals and impulses. Maybe it is, but how sad does that this make existence? Methinks we spend too much time explaining and not enough time enjoying. How ignorant the most of the world is that we reject other people?s points of view because they?re different, honestly how much does this happen? Sometimes I feel like most of the world doesn?t get it? In our rejection of accepting other thought as valid, we reject part of ourselves. Of course I can disagree, there are endless amounts of lifestyles which I don?t understand or agree with, but wait?we?re all alike aren?t we? That makes our actions related, we live every lifestyle, and most of us ignore that which we don?t understand. Part of accepting and knowing yourself is knowing that sometimes you won?t be able to understand. Not understanding is a part of knowing. If any of my roommates here at school read this, they?d think I was crazy or just too stoned to know what I?m talking about. Could be?though it doesn?t seem that way. I am not the flawed; those which refuse to recognize me and anything I say are flawed. I don?t even agree with what I say, so I?m not trying to provide any belief system, I?m not trying to convert anyone. I?m just pointing out problems that I see. I?ve spoken with some people and this hits a familiar note. Maybe one of my goals is to try to understand and accept everything about myself. I know this can never be reached, but I pray I?ll have the courage to try.
Religion
I envy the pious. Idolatry?devotion?makes life so much easier to cope with. More than anything I wish I could truly believe, deep down that there is God looking over all of us, and that as long as I follow his teachings or whatnot I will end up in paradise. That all of this just is just temporary suffering for eternal bliss. How wonderful a feeling that must be, weather it be ignorance or not, I wish I believed. Weather or not I went on to paradise doesn?t even matter in the end. What matters is that you enjoy your life. If a religion gets in the way of enjoying my life, and I haven?t been taught it from day one, how can I, or anyone for that matter be expected to give up the only thing I know?is that I am living right now, and I don?t know what?s next. How can I tell myself that this life doesn?t really mean much when it means so much already. That as long as I?m good in the eyes of God, that I?m going to heaven. What a great sales pitch, heaven forever?doesn?t get much better than that.. But the one flaw of it is the 100% devotion and not having a shred of doubt, how can you achieve this? Are our lives just preludes to something? Why is this all so difficult.
Philosophy
I don?t have the bravery to enter this, I?m having difficulty enough trying to keep my frame of thinking and being together from just being my philosophy class here at school, I cant even come up with my own thoughts without questioning who I am, and I don?t even know that yet.
Death
When I think about it, I get sick to my stomach, my mind becomes a tempest, It keeps me awake at night, the thought and idea of death is like a candle in my mind that will never go out. I have to temporarily snuff out this candle sometimes to return to rational thought, bring be back to earth so I can go on with my everyday life without my mind tearing me apart, It?s easy to get swept away in it, and I hate it because it always comes back. Fuck you death.
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