TheHappieHippies said:

So, hi everybody!!

Well, we aren't even married. We tell people we are married to give him that little extra sense of security. We've only been together for about two years.

For over a year now he has been checked out. I don't know what or where his thoughts and feelings are, but they aren't shared with me.

I want to have sex more frequently then is probably humanly possible. And we do have an active sex-life. However, it is boring. He never shows any interest, other then the random grunting out of an orgasm. I happen to be very tantric, and this type of sex doesn't do much for me. I need some raw passion to work with every now and then.

He has such little interest in the amazing things that I want to do to him, that he'll turn me down, and the next moment he has free, jack off to some woman online who wouldn't spit on his dick in real life.

I asked him if we could get rid of the internet all together the day before he made this post, and then claimed he was leaving me because of the shroomery.

In reality he started this little drama because he sees me losing interest. It is hard to remain interested in a person as uninterested as he is.

He refuses to change himself to make it better, he expects me to not get what I am looking for, and then to not talk about it, or bitch about it, and now finally the moment has come where I am not allowed to seek it out innocently elsewhere.

We went without internet for the last 24 hrs, and instead of sitting on the internet, I first attempted to reach him again. He zoned out into his own little world once again, so I head to the computer, and play solitaire. He got mad because I am not sitting next to him begging for attention that I can never have.

I think he wants me to beg, and that he is with holding affection in order to GET me to beg. At least when I am begging he is assured of my love for him. But now that I have stopped, he realizes that something is seriously wrong. If I don't beg anymore I must not love him right?

You know, the saddest thing about it all? Our kids are gone to the grandparents for 2 WHOLE FUCKING weeks. The first time ever without kids I have had in 4 years! We could be out going on mushroom hunts, or wildflower picking. We could have romantic naked evenings in our living room. We could have crazy kinky sex in every room of the house for Christ's sake!!

What the fuck ever is all I have to say.

I will be here, waiting and loving him, hoping for his return from Selfish Land. But I WILL NOT ever let go of what tiny comfort I have in this world, and the only thing left that is just for me, and makes me happy in this sad state, is the shroomery.

I enjoy this place because when I say something about a topic which interests me, somebody reflects, something which helps me become more self aware, or they let me know something about themselves in relation to the topic.
So I will not be leaving because it makes him uncomfortable to see me happy with something that he refuses to supply.

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to me, it sounds like youve got it all figured out, and i can say that i agree with what youve said. now that you know the deal, you need to figure out what youre going to do about it, if he wont change for the better, or you dont change for the worse, then i think you know what needs to be done.

MushroomTrip said:

Honestly, I think the dude's a douche.
You seem to know what you want and I am sure that you'll be able to take the optimum decisions whatever would come along. Nice to have you here.

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douche with a capital BAG. 



notice how quickly he went into defense mode when he didnt get the responses here that he was looking for??   

Quote:

I said:
give the guy a break

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ok, I take it back. I was hoping you were fucking each other's brains out by now
and I agree you're a very helpful and positive member here. it's good to see you back

My boyfriend hacked my account and said:

::edit::

Wow this was the coldest, most unfair post I've ever made on a website, and you guys jumped on it just like every other mean thing we've said to each other on here, and tried your hardest to make it worse, good show gentlemen.  Maybe it was unfair of him to ask me not to come here anymore, but this has definitely gone too far, and I'm as much to blame as anyone.

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leftysurprise said:

TheHappieHippies said:

So, hi everybody!!

Well, we aren't even married. We tell people we are married to give him that little extra sense of security. We've only been together for about two years.

For over a year now he has been checked out. I don't know what or where his thoughts and feelings are, but they aren't shared with me.

I want to have sex more frequently then is probably humanly possible. And we do have an active sex-life. However, it is boring. He never shows any interest, other then the random grunting out of an orgasm. I happen to be very tantric, and this type of sex doesn't do much for me. I need some raw passion to work with every now and then.

He has such little interest in the amazing things that I want to do to him, that he'll turn me down, and the next moment he has free, jack off to some woman online who wouldn't spit on his dick in real life.

I asked him if we could get rid of the internet all together the day before he made this post, and then claimed he was leaving me because of the shroomery.

In reality he started this little drama because he sees me losing interest. It is hard to remain interested in a person as uninterested as he is.

He refuses to change himself to make it better, he expects me to not get what I am looking for, and then to not talk about it, or bitch about it, and now finally the moment has come where I am not allowed to seek it out innocently elsewhere.

We went without internet for the last 24 hrs, and instead of sitting on the internet, I first attempted to reach him again. He zoned out into his own little world once again, so I head to the computer, and play solitaire. He got mad because I am not sitting next to him begging for attention that I can never have.

I think he wants me to beg, and that he is with holding affection in order to GET me to beg. At least when I am begging he is assured of my love for him. But now that I have stopped, he realizes that something is seriously wrong. If I don't beg anymore I must not love him right?

You know, the saddest thing about it all? Our kids are gone to the grandparents for 2 WHOLE FUCKING weeks. The first time ever without kids I have had in 4 years! We could be out going on mushroom hunts, or wildflower picking. We could have romantic naked evenings in our living room. We could have crazy kinky sex in every room of the house for Christ's sake!!

What the fuck ever is all I have to say.

I will be here, waiting and loving him, hoping for his return from Selfish Land. But I WILL NOT ever let go of what tiny comfort I have in this world, and the only thing left that is just for me, and makes me happy in this sad state, is the shroomery.

I enjoy this place because when I say something about a topic which interests me, somebody reflects, something which helps me become more self aware, or they let me know something about themselves in relation to the topic.
So I will not be leaving because it makes him uncomfortable to see me happy with something that he refuses to supply.

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to me, it sounds like youve got it all figured out, and i can say that i agree with what youve said. now that you know the deal, you need to figure out what youre going to do about it, if he wont change for the better, or you dont change for the worse, then i think you know what needs to be done.

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xshadowmage666x said:

leftysurprise said:

TheHappieHippies said:

So, hi everybody!!

Well, we aren't even married. We tell people we are married to give him that little extra sense of security. We've only been together for about two years.

For over a year now he has been checked out. I don't know what or where his thoughts and feelings are, but they aren't shared with me.

I want to have sex more frequently then is probably humanly possible. And we do have an active sex-life. However, it is boring. He never shows any interest, other then the random grunting out of an orgasm. I happen to be very tantric, and this type of sex doesn't do much for me. I need some raw passion to work with every now and then.

He has such little interest in the amazing things that I want to do to him, that he'll turn me down, and the next moment he has free, jack off to some woman online who wouldn't spit on his dick in real life.

I asked him if we could get rid of the internet all together the day before he made this post, and then claimed he was leaving me because of the shroomery.

In reality he started this little drama because he sees me losing interest. It is hard to remain interested in a person as uninterested as he is.

He refuses to change himself to make it better, he expects me to not get what I am looking for, and then to not talk about it, or bitch about it, and now finally the moment has come where I am not allowed to seek it out innocently elsewhere.

We went without internet for the last 24 hrs, and instead of sitting on the internet, I first attempted to reach him again. He zoned out into his own little world once again, so I head to the computer, and play solitaire. He got mad because I am not sitting next to him begging for attention that I can never have.

I think he wants me to beg, and that he is with holding affection in order to GET me to beg. At least when I am begging he is assured of my love for him. But now that I have stopped, he realizes that something is seriously wrong. If I don't beg anymore I must not love him right?

You know, the saddest thing about it all? Our kids are gone to the grandparents for 2 WHOLE FUCKING weeks. The first time ever without kids I have had in 4 years! We could be out going on mushroom hunts, or wildflower picking. We could have romantic naked evenings in our living room. We could have crazy kinky sex in every room of the house for Christ's sake!!

What the fuck ever is all I have to say.

I will be here, waiting and loving him, hoping for his return from Selfish Land. But I WILL NOT ever let go of what tiny comfort I have in this world, and the only thing left that is just for me, and makes me happy in this sad state, is the shroomery.

I enjoy this place because when I say something about a topic which interests me, somebody reflects, something which helps me become more self aware, or they let me know something about themselves in relation to the topic.
So I will not be leaving because it makes him uncomfortable to see me happy with something that he refuses to supply.

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to me, it sounds like youve got it all figured out, and i can say that i agree with what youve said. now that you know the deal, you need to figure out what youre going to do about it, if he wont change for the better, or you dont change for the worse, then i think you know what needs to be done.

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she sounds like the perfect woman to me

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well take away the soon to be 4 kids and yeah. 

TheHappieHippies said:

Hey now!! If anything my children make me a better person dammit!

And thanks by the way, it's nice to hear nice things sometimes.

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