Also, got you down a full shroom on your ratings Gorlax

The point of forums are to be helpful and constructive. You, however, have posited yourself as a squabbling cyst on the interwebz.


Tired of flaming back though. My kind of peeps shouldn't resort to hater kind of peeps levels.



EPILOGUE: Whoever said that this is less about drugs and more about parent dynamics is perfectly spot on. Anyone that thinks I'm a junkie clearly hasn't bothered to get to know me or asked questions and frankly are probably just jealous that after all this shit, my parents still support me and will do whatever it takes to succeed. Frankly, if I read about a kid who gets everything handed to him so that he can use the "getting by" exertion to "get ahead", I'd probably be petty and butthurt too.


But the reality is this: I'm going to go through the rest of college not paying a dime, I'm getting a car again as soon as we find insurance that will take me--also to be paid for by my parents--and I'm going to be starting an internship with a nice company making nice money on my own when I get back to college this fall and then NONE OF THE DRUG STUFF will be causing my family problems because I can keep it completely isolated from them.

And again this junkie thing... please lol. That was more amusing than offensive

millzy said:

st1llnox said:

millzy said:

let me ask you though nox, if you were certain that laying off everything for the time being would make things better for you all around, would you?

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I can and have tried that. I don't want to and shouldn't have to long-term though.

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i know you can. i asked if you would. i'm not suggesting that you're an addict. how would i, or really anyone else in this thread for that matter, really know that? the fact that you won't might need to be more closely examined though. be that as it may, i still maintain that everyone in that house needs to do some growing up.

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^^ Such good points


Thanks especially Masked, Repoitiorre, Millzy, and especially Envix... you remind me of buest you're such a beacon of positivity

woodstock shaman said:

N0x, you should really let the thread die like you said and stop thriving off this drama. Maybe that's your whole problem. There's no reason why you need to tell everyone a million times about every single interaction you have with your Father. And it's just your damn thumb homie! You could cut that shit off and be no worse for wear!

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st1llnox said:

woodstock shaman said:

N0x, you should really let the thread die like you said and stop thriving off this drama. Maybe that's your whole problem. There's no reason why you need to tell everyone a million times about every single interaction you have with your Father. And it's just your damn thumb homie! You could cut that shit off and be no worse for wear!

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I'm not thriving off it. And I didn't, I just like to share big things that happen with the community. I'm not disagreeing with you about the drama thing... at first I got too defensive when I really should ignore anyone who thinks they know who and how I am and obviously doesn't, so I got into a quagmire of defensiveness and then when it got more ad hominem I started feeling vengeful and decided to be obnoxious to the haters while also feeling gratitude to those who were helpful.

Bottom line: if my parents didn't ahve a problem with drugs, there would be no drug problem.

Now rest in peace thread, as well as rest in peace the respect I had for a lot of you. Others of you though, I know are truly men and women of character and integrity, not to mention compassion, and I did feel like I needed to thank you.

Nighty night.

P.s. I'm gonna plug a vicodin for every stupid reply after this, especially Led Zeppllin :p lol

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woodstock shaman said:

st1llnox said:

woodstock shaman said:

N0x, you should really let the thread die like you said and stop thriving off this drama. Maybe that's your whole problem. There's no reason why you need to tell everyone a million times about every single interaction you have with your Father. And it's just your damn thumb homie! You could cut that shit off and be no worse for wear!

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I'm not thriving off it. And I didn't, I just like to share big things that happen with the community. I'm not disagreeing with you about the drama thing... at first I got too defensive when I really should ignore anyone who thinks they know who and how I am and obviously doesn't, so I got into a quagmire of defensiveness and then when it got more ad hominem I started feeling vengeful and decided to be obnoxious to the haters while also feeling gratitude to those who were helpful.

Bottom line: if my parents didn't ahve a problem with drugs, there would be no drug problem.

Now rest in peace thread, as well as rest in peace the respect I had for a lot of you. Others of you though, I know are truly men and women of character and integrity, not to mention compassion, and I did feel like I needed to thank you.

Nighty night.

P.s. I'm gonna plug a vicodin for every stupid reply after this, especially Led Zeppllin :p lol

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Except for your drug problem. That would still be a problem. Because you have a drug problem. You can't let that shit become so important to you.

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st1llnox said:

EPILOGUE: Whoever said that this is less about drugs and more about parent dynamics is perfectly spot on. Anyone that thinks I'm a junkie clearly hasn't bothered to get to know me or asked questions and frankly are probably just jealous that after all this shit, my parents still support me and will do whatever it takes to succeed. Frankly, if I read about a kid who gets everything handed to him so that he can use the "getting by" exertion to "get ahead", I'd probably be petty and butthurt too.


But the reality is this: I'm going to go through the rest of college not paying a dime, I'm getting a car again as soon as we find insurance that will take me--also to be paid for by my parents--and I'm going to be starting an internship with a nice company making nice money on my own when I get back to college this fall and then NONE OF THE DRUG STUFF will be causing my family problems because I can keep it completely isolated from them.

And again this junkie thing... please lol. That was more amusing than offensive

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Every time you rage about people's responses to this thread you try to insult people with "haha you're just mad I'm spoiled."

Midnight_Toker said:

I'd just like to point out that weekly use of DXM is not healthy or safe..  Is it not a pretty potent 5-HT releasing agent?  It may not be as bad as doing something like MDMA weekly, but I can guarantee that it will wear on your mental health over time.

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Midnight_Toker said:

I'd just like to point out that weekly use of DXM is not healthy or safe..  Is it not a pretty potent 5-HT releasing agent?  It may not be as bad as doing something like MDMA weekly, but I can guarantee that it will wear on your serotonin receptors (and therefore your mental health) over time.

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This is a really good point. In my breakup letter to DXM I mentioned maybe once every 6-8 weeks and there've been a couple posters on here lamenting the health problems they've had from DXM and hoping they go away.

Maybe MXE would be a better choice but frankly I just need to back off drugs. Not use them less, but fill up my time with more to do so I just don't want to use them so often.

Thanks for being helpful mang!

Everlong said:

st1llnox said:

EPILOGUE: Whoever said that this is less about drugs and more about parent dynamics is perfectly spot on. Anyone that thinks I'm a junkie clearly hasn't bothered to get to know me or asked questions and frankly are probably just jealous that after all this shit, my parents still support me and will do whatever it takes to succeed. Frankly, if I read about a kid who gets everything handed to him so that he can use the "getting by" exertion to "get ahead", I'd probably be petty and butthurt too.


But the reality is this: I'm going to go through the rest of college not paying a dime, I'm getting a car again as soon as we find insurance that will take me--also to be paid for by my parents--and I'm going to be starting an internship with a nice company making nice money on my own when I get back to college this fall and then NONE OF THE DRUG STUFF will be causing my family problems because I can keep it completely isolated from them.

And again this junkie thing... please lol. That was more amusing than offensive

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Every time you rage about people's responses to this thread you try to insult people with "haha you're just mad I'm spoiled."

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Dystopia said:

Yep, yep and yep... Liver enzymes still aint right and neither is the ol' noggen.



One helluva drug. Going thru SS was downright horrifying that I still get a pit in my stomach and it was 14 or so years ago by now. Jesus christ it took me 3-4 years to get my head on straight and that still didn't work quite right. I'd never recommend this drug to anyone. I kinda wanna vomit even remembering that episode. I don't think my chainsmoking has caused as much damage to my body as dxm did.

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Acaterpillar said:

SS=Seretonin Syndrome

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Serotonin Syndrom makes me a scared looking awesome smiley.

Everlong said:

I can't possible see how that thumb injury hurts you more than fracturing your leg in three spots, but I can't argue your pain.

I know when I broke my ankle in two spots, and leg in one (required two pins and a metal ankle wrap that's there for life ) it was the most painful experience in my life.

They gave me perc 10s. When I took them I just felt high and still had tremendous pain..

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The fractures actually stayed in place, so I feel like I got off at like 70% of how much a broken leg normally hurts.

Someone earlier was telling me how they believed me cause the fingers have similar nerves as the penis to be more sensitive/feel in higher resolution.

Thanks for respectin' my pain

I can only imagine how much that would hurt and yeah, thats how I felt when I had perc 10s for a chest surgery. I got dope sick when I ran out too even though I wasn't abusing them at all the month I was on them, so I'm stupidly scared of opiate addiction (maybe this explains a little why I was annoyed at being called an [opiate] junkie).

I thought the vikes were only getting me high until I woke up the day after they had cut open my thumb and I was just crying it hurt so bad. It wasn't a stinging ache like the broken bones, it was like a pulsating electric stringing pressurized fire and lightning of pain pulsating from my thumb into my hand and even part of my arm felt weird from it. (The infection definitely started playing with the nerves though).