Auto-SummaryThis forum post shares the author's personal journey into mysticism and its impact on their life. Initially drawn to mysticism through friends and teachers, the author discovered that many influential figures were suspected of being mystics. After finding an old alchemy book in a library, the author started experimenting with various methods to alter their brain's chemistry, leading to altered states of euphoria and altered brain structure. The author developed intricate rituals involving music, symbols, incense, and even psychedelic drugs to achieve desired emotional and mental states. They also addressed potential pitfalls, such as encountering "evil spirits" within themselves, by constructing psychological safety measures. The author attributes newfound positivity, creativity, and self-confidence to their mystical practices, which have led to significant personal growth and recognition from others.
Well basically it's simple.
As a kid I had been very interested in these things and my entire life I had bumped into mystics. Even close friends of mine have become involved with mysticism at an early age and it was interesting to just keep quiet about my own passion for it and listen to them. However, it was not before I once asked my teacher why the Pythagorean did things that made them seem mystic before I really got into studying actual, non-pseudo-mysticism. Not this Cthulhu cult shit, but actual mystic practise, practiced by serious people. I learned that many people we are very proud of and had benefitted for society were either identified as or had been suspected of being mystics. I tried to understand how it is their mystic system functioned by looking at the tendencies of all these mystical schools throughout history. After getting my hands on an authentic Alchemy book in the library (very old and dusty btw, looked so cliche), I found things that led me to believe in one simple truth. It's weird to tell things like this to people idk because people I do know do not know about this part of my life. Coupled with the sudden achievement of literally altered states of euphoria/bliss during meditation, I realised that it's all in my head. But that was the whole point!
There were no gods or external magical energies- I realised that it was about altering my chemical structure in the brain via emotional discharge, stimulated by one of 6 methods such as visual, audio, cognitive etc. I did research into wether people had studied the brains of those who meditated or did rituals only to find that there has been a few and they found that their brains had been changed in the way I suspected these things change them. I realised that meant that I could practise mysticism without having to follow traditional practises, as long as I did it with clear intentions and using the principle I described just before.
So I began doing rituals. I would compose them in various ways and do various things. For example in one ritual, I would put on a custom made low e frequency on FLAC format and epic speakers. I would have painted (I'm an artist) symbols that had an effect on my emotions and direct my intension, these symbols would be painted on objects I had made of clay or on canvas or on my own body in the process of the ritual. I would chant words of my own and meditate for hours within a ring of incense that reminded me of my childhood. Many other little fine elements of detail were done. It was usually quite spontaneous, even the planning itself. With all this I had amassed strong amounts of emotional energy within my mind and I directed them at a single point in my brain via intentions in order to affect it, stimulate it and change it. Allowing the experience to leave a deep emotional imprint on me.
My rituals became more and more 'sophisticated' over time. I would come to sacrifice my own drawings, because one can only sacrifice what one loves. The good ones too, the ones I felt most proud of, if no one had seen them yet but myself it would bee even better. This, I noticed, would arouse STRONG emotional storms and is a very potent agent of action in mysticism. Adding various meditations, dances, chants and so on and so forth, I also decided to add psychedelic drugs sometimes. What they did for me was allowed my emotions to run their course and even magnified their impact, so you could say psychedelic drugs are like a "buff" when doing rituals, which is why many consumed them during such events. There came a time were I understood that I could adress deities, but that these 'deities' were not actual external horned gods, they were aspects of my own mind ruling a specific mode, put into a symbolical body and frame so that it would be easier for my mind to adress it and affect it.
It's all a sort of mind game within your head. SOmetimes, especially while tripping during a ritual, whilst trying to enhance a specific aspect of yourself you come to notice, whilst in deep meditation, how many complexes you have concerning that topic. And this is were a ritual can "go wrong" so to speak. This is what is meant by "evil spirits" or "loosing control", things that can have the opposite effect that you wanted. In order to be effective against such trials of my own mind I constructed psychological 'safety items' or actions that would affect my mind in a positive way to do away with these things easier. When you beat these 'evil spirits' you are greatly rewarded by strong emotional boosts and whatnot.
When you're deep into the whole process you really feel like you're on some adventure through the cosmos of your mind. After these rituals and spending time on meditating by the same principles people have actually told me I have become different. That I've become more happy, more radiant and seemingly full of potential. I speak and I can see how I inspire, I take actions and do things in a creative way, I find solutions were I would usually be stuck- there has been a general sense of people noticing some sort of changes in me that are positive. I even recently got a few personal messages on facebook from individuals curios if I am the way I am only because I meditate and how I achieve this mindset. Also, In my own fields of what I do I start seeing immense potential in myself, genius even. The changes have led this year to be probably my most insightful and creative in terms of art I've ever experienced. And I honestly think these changes have been applied by the subtle art of brain-alchemy, as I call it. Very subtle.
That's my own experience with it and I would not undermine it, although I don't really care because I have the results and nothing to prove. Not really. The post is a little too short for my liking, I left out things that would have added depth to what i was trying to convey, such as the parts were I implemented lucid dreaming (which, is the art I've practised the longest, albeit until now- strictly for amusement purposes) into my rituals. Those, alongside tripping rituals, would be the most mind-blowing and effective of them all. But to hell with it, lol I'm sure many will tl;dr this too.
Cheers, Ice
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Excerpts of inner dialogue III-V-VIII:
"Im no saint, but I do have genuine intentions."
"So you believe in intensions?"
"No. I believe in being genuine."
"The goal is to become more child-like, and less child-ish."
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