I know the following is long, but I am sure some of you will find it poetic amazing and inspiring for your own relationships... I would love to hear feedback about it... btw, my girl loves the letter and reads it every once and a while...
Here is a picture of us
Dear Elise,
Happy Birthday my sunshine flower I love to think of you every hour Although I think of God and other things Although I may be caught up in doing Although I may be into this and that There is always a part of me Thinking of you Because even though all is one This small part has a favorite That favortie is Elise And since we have an ego and even if we didn't Let's embrace our romantic love Let's embrace that specialness we see in each other Let's embrace touch and being near each other Let's embrace missing each other Let's embrace attachment to each other Let's embrace needing in each other And in tantra, we don't just stop there We use all that, go through all that To find the true love The one love that is all there is And even if all duality faded away And one was fully realized Within that Oneness Eric would still play most with Elise Because that is how God made Eric And that is how God made Elise And Eric is Elise and Elise is Eric It's almost like in our tantra We first become one with our tantric partner Even though God is there we are mostly seperate from God First focusing on merging our minds and bodies. And through that process of merging We become more of the oneness It's like in bed when we play When we roll in the hay Our body just tunes in, and it is one body But we can't get lost in that one body That Light body we share Because is is all one body And the illussion in the clothes we wear Although in the past other girls might have caught my fancy They were just a preview for the real thing It's like if there was no Sam how could I real understand Elise It's like if there was no experience of "thinking" I found my
twinflame and being wrong How could I real understand what it's like to find my twinflame When I first feel in love, it was so powerful I was afraid It was so everything I dreamed that I was afraid I had been so hurt by the Sam experience, I was afraid But I then saw, as the years past more and more That I need not be afraid Because this is what it's like to find your twinflame You may ask, why brings these things up On your birthday of all times Because of that phonecall the other night When you were in plight You might have had some doubtful thoughts And thought I wanted a different twinflame That is why I explain That is why I express Because I am not afraid or ashamed My past was a preparation for you You are my life's goal Because you are my doorway to the One Even though I have a guru Amma or Neem Karoli Baba... In tantra... You are my higest guru My spiritual wife My twinflame And by embracing that intense personal romantic human love We can touch the divine and touch oneness And together year after year I know we will last And one that day when one of us past And the other one is left on earth As happens to most lifelong couples We will be ready And our missing and longing for reunion Will fuel our love of the oneness... Will fuel our merging into One Through our strong almost obessive attachment Through our destined and promised lifelong love Through that needful, that personal, that romantic, that human
love Attachments and Desires will fade more and more Suffering will become less and less Drama will become more comedy But that is a while off Right now, we are not near each other physically On that plane of reality, we are relatively far apart Don't be afraid to miss, don't be afraid to feel that all too human attachment But do not ever doubt our love, sweet angel Do not doubt our positive future Do not doubt the perrenial inherant connection Do not doubt God's grace Because doubts won't break us, but they will shake us And we had enough shakin' And I don't mean when the bed is quakin I have had so many things to express to you over the years in
writing. But sometimes, it is hard to get it out through these words Because in the illussion, there only is an Elise, because there is what is not Elise. the uniqueness of you as an individual And I was afraid, if I compared you to others, compare you to
things, you might get upset about what comes out Because when I write Elise, I wANT TO POUR IT OUT I want to not think, will this bother Elise Will bringing this up, upset her And right now, I am not afraid to do that. All of what I said, is really what my thought process is like That was a lot about your mind, your soul, your personality, our
actions, our lives and so on... But you know... what about your body? You may look in the mirror naked, and then look at TV and compare
yourself... you may think, maybe Eric would want to be with a girl
with a body like that... NO> Not that those bodies aren't beautiful or attractive or whatever But your body, is THE BODY I want to play with, to look at to
worship most of all, in the light of oneness of course... thus
tantra being what it is... I want to really get into some details with you Because I love your body Let's start with your toes, They are small and petite, very feminine I love to suck on them, they taste sweeter then any candy Then moving up, your foot Now Neem Karol Baba's feet are amazing, they are so much energy
and all that... But I would rather kiss your little feet Your legs They are thick and curvy, smooth and baby soft The little hairs or shaven, doesn't matter to me I love to kiss and lick them, every spot Sometimes I grab your leg, and kiss from the bottom up They are like two heavenly pathways to the gate of pleasure I love climbing up them with the lips With each kiss, my heart opens, to the One flowing through this
experience, Because I am kissing my own leg Oh, next, the end of the trails, the yoni, the gateway of pleasure The little bump, I call it the love bump, with a forest of
beautiful brown hair I love to kiss the hair, when your yoni needs a lick lick break and you pull my head away Just gentle, so the yoni can recharge I love to stare at it, on the video I made The upside down triangel And beautiful curverture Then moving down to the clit That ringed wonder of a body part It has no biological evolutionary use except for pleasure The ring may have once symbologizes virginity But now is symbolizes the ring of our love Oh sweet little clit, your don't get enough attention from Elise You give her such sweet physical orgasms But she ignores you most of the time Oh how I need to kiss you Oh how I need to give you the attention you deserve I like to tickle you with my tounge, little curl of the tounge,
little flik, little side to side, perhaps a little suck, a finger
our two to play with Your pleasure is grace of the divine Oh clit, you catch me not up in duality But help me see beyond the heavy drama of duality To the divine comedy of oneness, to the compassion Your lips are so sweet and pink, Not too big, not to petite Just the right size for me, Sliding my finger right down between those lips Rubbing all up in thier as pussy juice drips on my finger Oh how I love that taste That divine nectar, that honey that makes the bee's honey seem
like stale dried up ketchup, no offense to the bees Oh the sweet yoni A gusher, a dripper, a bubbler, and little squirts I can almost see a sign on one of the lips A little tatoo Only Eric can play with this Not to change the subject But our monogamy is engrained in our DNA It is important to US It is safe to US It is special to US It is a promise A trust And even in the past, we both made mistakes Our monogamy holds strong Because in tantra The sex part of tantra is for two Even though it leads to ONE Thanks for being my spiritual wife But every day, we must take those vows And not just about mongamy But the vows, to use our relationship tantrically and to trust And to love Now after that short private service annoucement Back to your pussy I mean yoni Opps I was being dirty Just kidding, no dirty only pure Even though I never thought sex was dirty It feels pure with you If you know what I mean So down the lips to the vagina A tunnel of love And yes, I know God put an egg at the end of the tunnel But that Egg must pass on And your eggs don't crave my sperm Because in our DNA IS that protection, along with a condom and self control And even the egg knows that But let the egg be Vaginas arn't just tunnels for sperm Like they say in biology class They are tunnels of divine pleasure The senstive skin and juices The feeling of my cock inside you In this tunnel Like they were made for each other My cock, My linga, fits like a key into a keyhole Opening the door of divine pleasure Of primal ecstasy, opening the chakras Rising to the heavens on oneness above and deep within Oh how the linga slides in the tunnel That rubber isn't blocking touch It enhances touch With safety and trust and responcibily That makes the pleasure sure And the anxiety cease Kinsey, the scientific sex expert, claims 25% percent of women
have vaginal orgasms, he claims these orgasms are harder to get
and less powerful to many women Maybe he is right But your vagina sures knows how to cum And about that silly orgasm The physical one that is Sometimes you cum twice Sometimes once Sometimes even not at all Physically that is And although I try to count And be proud And be insecure And so on I get it now Just like physical cumming is not the sole focus and pleasure for
me It isn't for you either THe mental emotional orgasm combined with the pleasure of the body It's like music, is it about the big finales Or is the big finale the whole song In the moment, we go along Finding the present centered orgasm Finding the kundlini serpert Finding the orgasm of Oneness Wow We both get that Now let's flip you around Your butt What can I say about that big round butt? It curves are more beautiful and magnificant to me, that the
curves of the earth or the sun Your ass shines bright then the stars to me It is more beautiful then any face I have ever seen Even the face of a guru That crack is my crack, I am addicted to it It is nice and soft and squishy I see the goddess in it And when you fart, it seems to smell sweet stinky And it whisper, "all is one... all is one..." It is the confiest pillow I love to squeeze it when you ride me Or give it a love spank it when it's up in the air, doggy kitty It is not too big, and not too flat It is just right for me They may say Jenny Lopez or whoever has a nice ass But compared to yours It falls way short Even though I think it silly, I love seeing that little crack
sneak out of your jeans Or you pull down your pants and moon me in play Now, we will stay on your back and move up Your back Oh how it aches and hurts Oh how I long to ease it Whenever you need a massage and I can provide I love to do it I love when you tell me how, for how long, and which spots Your back is like an encyclopedia, I want to learn all I can So I can heal it And it's beauty Incredible Let's flip you over Now since I have known you, your stomach has grown and shrank a
little But it's always there, hanging around The little belly button is like a bowl of sweet sugar I want to build a house in it and live there forever The lotus breasts The titties Your boobies Now some guys may think of thier girl I wish they were bigger But I like a mouthful The perfect shaped carved by God Titties that pop up to say hello to me They beg for water They beg to be sucked It is some of the greatest experiences in my life sucking on those titties, boobies shaking Whispering in my ear As I touch myself to physically release that cum They may say, a baby is at peace when it breast feeds but I have thought back to childhood and this is way better This is more pure Purer then a mother son love Purer then any other human love Oh how it helps me feel the divine mother's unconditional love It's like she flies into your body and feeds me through you Stuffs that breast into my mouth As I cum, you cum with me, and the gods and goddess all cum in
oneness When covered by a shirt, your breasts cannot hide thier beauty I have thier shape so burned into my brain, that I can see through
that shirt with X ray eyes See through that bra, when you occassionally wear one They are more beautiful then lotus flowers coming out of buddha's
head And they remind me to see that beauty in everything Now your neck Well first of all I am glad you have one What to say about it Well, it is does a good job holding up that heads of yours And it is a enjoyable pathway to the head Ahhh, your head Let's move across the beautiful face That little stub of a chin, like a beautiful himiayan mountain,
when I look close enough, I can see babji meditating there Your lips, so sweet to kiss Our first kiss was the second time we met We went out to lake fred And I was chatting to you about the channels of reality, while you
straddeled my hard cock When our lips touches for the first time I knew our bodies synched up like two old shoes I tasted lips sweeter then any before So sweet it was literally scary Because those lips were a lot to lose A lot to miss A lot to want A lot to be attached too But now I am not scared of that sweetness I know those lips are a doorway to that infinite one being I know the One kisses itself through us Our kiss is totally unique One of a kind Like how every snowflake is different so soft, never needed lip stick ever It would hide the beauty of them They open up, to the inner mouth A garden of delights all of my body, as you have tasted every part
of me, even dared to kiss and feel with that tounge, my brown
star... and even with that earth taste, in the heat of love, in
the heat of passion, it is giving, it is beautiful, dare I say,
tasty And what about the romance between your mouth and my cock Not to bring up bad stuff but when that mouth tasted brains, it knew it wasn't right,
because that mouth was made for my cock. I mean the only thing that gets you to shut up is my cock in your
mouth, and even then you hummm And you know I love it! I can a read your mind a little sometimes, but it is nice you have
that mouth, because so much poetry and music comes out it Even when the vile mean yelling negativity comes out, even when
you spit on me I am still feeling blessed to have you be there with me I am hurt, but I am grateful The sweet pain of having you yell is far better then not being
able to talk to you Your nose It's the doorway to a good marriage as a psychology professor once
told me Noses fall in love in good marriage, and when a nose falls in love
with morning breath... I sneak up your nose through my odors, and find our deep spiritual
wifey center of connection Speaking of smell How I love yours There is no much I can say about your smell except this When I smell perfume, or good food, or whatever, these small burn
up in the atmosphere of your smell planet I want to live on that planet where everything smells like Elise Just thinking about it, I want to bury my nose in you... Anyway, back to your body itself Your eyes Now, they are blue, right? That is my best guess You may wonder after all these years, why I am not a 100% sure
what color your eyes are The truth? The truth is, your eyes are sooo beautful, that I can't
concentrate on something as trivial as the color They are a doorway to the soul, to the oneness deep inside, to the
higher power So forgive me, if I get so lost in them all the time, that I am
not sure about the color I look deep in those eyes And I see that soul That soul that was with me through many earth lives, in different
forms That soul that was birthed with me on the astral angel planes deep
in heaven I see that soul that is my doorway to the one, to the universal
soul I see in those eyes, not only a destiny of good life on earth Not only a destiny of peace and prosperity on earth But a great destiny in the afterlife, a great destiny of us giving
up the addiction to reincarnating on the physical plane, our
destiny of being bodhisattvas and holding back from final merging
with the one, our destiny of being helper angels... our destiny of
true love Our destiny of complete oneness, and everything realized Our destiny of moving beyond suffering forever and letting the memory fuled our ever new bliss Leaving behind the addiction to reincarnation I see all that in your eyes So forgive me if I got the color wrong And the third eye How I wish to pry it open And we do with our every day, every moment, tantric love One day at a time One moment at a time And least but not least when it comes to your body Your hair I love it in it's numerous incarnations When I met it, it was dreddy and I love to tug at it during sex I love to have you whip me with it I love to carress it When you choppse it all off, and had the short cut It was just as beautiful if not more so... It is a rainbow of colors to me shining in the glory of oneness It is so soft, and fun to play with Even when you haven't brushed it, and my hands get caught in your
hair I am not disgusted I am delighted So summing it up There are those beautiful stars beautiful gurus beautiful things all over this many levels of reality But the most beatiful thing is your body in this physical universe It is the most beautiful astounding mind blowing thing And it doesn't limit or demote the beauty in everything else IT HELPS ME SEE the beauty in everything else Before I end this stream of consciousness I want to speak of your personality Elise the character THe spunky hormonal funny talkative silly Poem god wrote through
your genetics, all your experiences, our culture, our karma... How you will laugh at the meer mention of poop How even though you are so talkative... you will always take the
time to listen to me Or how we make each other laugh like it is always the beginning of
a mushroom trip How you get sensitive sometimes and jealous sometimes and possessive sometimes Like all us semi realized beings do but you have a unique way of doing it that is music to my ears you flaws still taste good You help me see that unconditional love is possible Even if it manifests in an all too human way You help me love others more through this THrough understanding you uniqueness my compassion for all grows I love that you still have stuffed animals and know they are alive I love how you can watch the same tv or movies, listen to the same
music, and read the same books as me... I love your stories, and no matter how many times you tell them,
it feels like the first time I am hearing them, and you tell them
with the excitment of that first time And all the other varied aspects of your personality By getting to so intimately know them and love them It is like finding a door... I don't know why God made that a door But he did But liking and liking your personality and getting so and so into
it The doorway becomes more clear And together, unafraid and with entusiam We open to the door the door leads to oneness, leads to beyond the personality, where
we see all duality was an illussion... But we know that without having been Eric and Elise seperate from
each other and the one, we couldn't truly understand who we are,
which is God. Because Eric and Elise are parts of God... And this
helps me see the beauty and purpose of creation, see that without
Eric, there could be no Elise and without Elise there could be no
Eric... because it wouldn't make sense, that would be like making
a up without a down, or a left without a right... We needed the
duality and the suffering to know WHO WE ARE, and now we know
enough me and you, we must journey deep into our relationship, to
that doorway, opening it and going into the one, never looking
back... it will only help our realtiship, help eric, help elise,
help it all! And then there is your storyline your past present and future as Elise all that happened to you the good and bad It's the most exciting and gripping and enthalling story, I ever
heard... and I have seen a lot of movie stories... and they still
haven't made a hollywood story that is interesting and captivating
as your story IMagine this I know this is simplistic and cartoonish compared to what the
beauty of heaven is really like, but it is a story to help us
understand So it is after this life, and Eric and Elise have died, and we
went deep into the Oneness, only to turn back as bodhisattvas,
reincarnating on the astral angel planes There we are glowing in white light, flying around, always around
us shines the unconditional love and light of God with only a thin
viel of subjectivity We can be in many places we want, so within the limits of karma,
some of astral bodies interact with physical planes like earth to
help, be angelic guides and so on... even guided ourselves where
we are right now... because in heaven the future present and past
are more clearly and obviously mixed together, and of course we
can travel backward in time But while some of our astral bodies fly off to help other planes,
some of our astral bodies, stick around in heaven just to play
around...
On one particular timeless day in heaven
We fly to a beutiful crystal movie house Beause in this heaven with these bodies... we play with our
personalities, astral bodies like toys... and we decide to have
the Eric and Elise personalities remain together in these heavens,
always by each other sides, as our costumes in this particular
astral heaven
So we fly in this movie house and guess what movie is playing
The story of Elise entitled spunky sunshine
We had watched the story of Eric last week, entitled cosmic
jokester
We sit down in the movie house... and it turns out that in this
heaven... God took our lives and made it into to a hollywood like
movie, 3 hours long, edited for time.. with music and a movie
score, and actors playing us, and cool camera angels and
editing...
And we sit down in the theater and look around
and all the people that touched us deeply in our earthly existence
are there. Family, friends, gurus, teachers, heroes, villians
And everyone is talking amonst thereselves, excited...
The movie opens up
A film by GOd
Spunky Sunshine
And it is delightful as everything in heaven is We sit munching on endless popcorn As we laugh and cry and sit at the edge of our seats watching the life of Elise And then when the movie is over, we make funky lovely sweaty angel
sex for a thousand years, while flying through rainbow tunnels,
and diving in rainbow oceans
When I listen to your stories, I get a little taste of that
future...
A little taste
Thank you for sharing that
So I have reached the end of this letter
And I want to say
I love you
What do I mean when I say I love you
All the above I wrote, that is like the definition of what "I love
you" means when Eric says it to Elise
Yours forever,
Eric
-------------------- http://www.youtube.com/user/Cosmicjokester1 Check out my channel and if you want to explore further into my point of view, my website is linked on some of my videos depending on which one you watch... The channel is called "THE COSMIC JOKE (ONENESS)
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