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yeah...I know the feeling mang

but it seems to me that that's only because I have no friends 

I, for one, actually like hanging out with people
I like going to parties
I love shooting pool
hell - even kareoke is a blast with the right people

my problem isn't so much that I don't want to be with people...people just don't want to be with me



my only 'friend' is someone I used to work with that still tolerates me from time to time
she won't ever call, or answer my e-mails...and half the time I go over there - she's always in the middle of something, or about to leave
but every once in a while she'll give me a few moments of her time, cause she's learned that I always got stories to tell

I am her fool...and she is my queen

she allows me in her prescence on occassion, so I can brighten her day with stories of my stupidity
and I, in return, worship the ground she walks on...because even this is more then I'm getting from anyone else



and I don't know if it's because I'm down-an-out a lot of the time
or if maybe people just start veering away from me once they learn a little more about my past
or if it's just something simple, like the way I sometimes gaze at people without really saying anything
(which, saddly, is mainly due to an innate fear that they're gonna up an leave once I open my mouth)

but whatever the case may be - people don't generally stick around too long when it comes to me





so yeah

I know all about being alone

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this was meant to be a response to another thread, but I was so disgusted with what I had to say that I had to spare the rest of you from having to hear it

of course...then I lectured myself abou how shit like this is important because it gives those wanna-be psychologist types a chance to better understand the innerworkings of the bipolar psyche

so yeah - I moved it here so I can burden you all with shit you don't want to hear, in hopes that people who don't exist will better understand crap that nobody cares about











don't ask me to explain the logic in that one...cause there is none