psyka said:

No, currently I hate myself and surroundings.

I need to break out of these chains of comfort without emotionally hurting anyone else (mainly, my broke-ass, in-debt, cant-afford-shit, leaching mom [yet, I still love her too much ]). And that cant be done. I feel trapped because my earnings go to others and I feel unappreciated. It hurts to live with people who are oblivious to any sort of inner truth or inner strength. I feel engulfed in in a water of weakness. And what is worse? My job consumes my time, but I need the money and job benefits.

I want to cry, and then I want to fly before I die. Instead I wait for nothing. I am placing myself in the infinite loop of death, with full awareness of what I am doing.

What the hell should I do?

Does acceptance require you to like it? If not, how can one NOT accept oneself?

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