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jonathanseagull
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LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety
#5261997 - 02/04/06 09:20 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Hey guys. Friday I took on hit of LSD and had a great time. Sunday I took the other hit I had, and in not thinking clearly ended up smoking 3 bowls of marijuana. I am very sensitive to pot and had my first ego death experience, followed by about 16 hours of extreme panic/anxiety/nervousness until I finally fell asleep.
The next morning I felt strange still until later in that afternoon. Then 3 days passed, and yesterday I was in my college class reading the notes for the class, and suffered a small 2 second flashback. That was no big deal, but the problem was that the extreme anxiety and nervousness came back. My body temperature increased, and all of it. The visual effects went away in like 2 seconds, but I suffered the rest of the feelings for the rest of the day, until last night I fell asleep.
Today I'm scared. I'm scared of having to feel it AGAIN. I had a friend who mentioned he did LSD and had lingering effects like this for 2 weeks, but he only took one hit. I took one hit, then let a day go by, then did another one with ego death.
How long do you guys think I'll have to deal with this? I hope to God I don't have HPPD or anything. But the anxiety is way too much. Way too intense. I don't feel like a part of this world any more, you know. Probably how all people who have the ego death experience feel.
Can anyone who has gone through this process please let me know what they went through, any words of advice to help me through it, anything to make me feel better and more confident about it. I can't stress how serious this is. So if you know what I'm feeling, and know that it will pass, or anything like that, please let me know
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5262060 - 02/04/06 09:51 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Just calm down...dont do drugs for a while , everything will come in place. But maybe you have hppd im afraid, if it doesnt go away.
After my ego death experience, I never did any harder drugs than pot beside lsd, which I do like every 2 months. It has lead me the way to cure a part of my drug addiction. It has given me the power to think globally, to take distance on my personal interpretations of lsd. It was one of the most incredible experience ever, though the comedown was kinda harsh , due to impure lsd prolly.
how was the experience of ego death for you?
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: Grapefruity]
#5262132 - 02/04/06 10:36 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I'd really rather not comment on the ego death part just yet, but I definitely will come back and let you know.
It's been about 8 days since the first dose and 6 since the second dose. I've tripped shrooms many times before this, and even have tripped from pot. I've never had this problem. My friend seemed to think it was normal, as he had these lingering effects for 2 weeks or so he said. I hope that I don't have HPPD. I'm not hallucinating constantly, it was just a little teeny flashback that left me feeling anxious for the rest of the day. Today I still feel a little anxious because I don't want it to happen again.
I'm wondering how much of this is in my head that I'm creating, you know. By sitting here thinking and worrying about it. I agree with you though, that if it doesn't go away that it is definitely HPPD, but it's only been about a week, that's probably too early to decide, you know?
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5262160 - 02/04/06 10:50 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Overcome your fear of the trip,egodeath or wotever you get anxious about, but i dont quite know what your anxious about so i cant suggest more, it wont be easy. Goodluck:)
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: Mushy_face]
#5262189 - 02/04/06 11:01 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Mushy_face said: Overcome your fear of the trip,egodeath or wotever you get anxious about, but i dont quite know what your anxious about so i cant suggest more, it wont be easy. Goodluck:)
Thanks, I totally agree with you. I feel a little bit better right now. I felt good for the few days after the day after the trip. I just had that little flashback and it kind of shook me up. Hopefully it will all subside and I'll get back to feeling normal again.
I think its mostly me feeling really alien to this world, and just really being aware of whats going on. We move in 3d, I have 5 senses, you know. I'm overaware of things I'm normally not thinking about. That has me freaked, but I think I'll get over it. I think if anything, I'm just going through the "recovery" type period after the first ego-death experience.
I'd appreciate more replies if anyone has anything to say.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5262245 - 02/04/06 11:38 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I think its mostly me feeling really alien to this world, and just really being aware of whats going on. We move in 3d, I have 5 senses, you know. I'm overaware of things I'm normally not thinking about. That has me freaked, but I think I'll get over it. I think if anything, I'm just going through the "recovery" type period after the first ego-death experience.
Yeah, sounds like lsd :p
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: Grapefruity]
#5262381 - 02/04/06 12:23 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Its normal to feel wierd after a strong trip, it does get better:D Just go on day by day as you normaly would, and soon enough youl be feeling great again:D
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: Mushy_face]
#5262826 - 02/04/06 02:35 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Thanks guys, I really appreciate every single reply.
When you guys say I'll feel better in time, you know, what kind of time period are you talking about, if you've had it from personal experience?
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5262981 - 02/04/06 03:16 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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personal experience, id say 2 weeks is when its significantly gone down, and after a month its gone down alot again and after 2 monthes itl be barely noticalble at all. This of course depends on lots of things but thats how iv found ti personaly, i wish you the best of luck.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: Mushy_face]
#5263150 - 02/04/06 04:04 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I have never done acid but I've been doing mushrooms pretty regularly lately. I have had some type of 2 second kind of flashback thing where it seems like visually and emotionally and even all my senses are under a magnifying glass, like on mushies. It only lasts around 2 seconds but I'm not really sure what it is. It might just be from recovering like you guys said, but I have noticed that I have not had it in a week or so and I think that it will diminish. Good luck, maybe we can get some information out of this experience. After all, life is only an experience.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5264599 - 02/04/06 10:45 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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yeah Ive gone through the same exact thing 2 times both recent. First time was from salvia which i used to do all the time but now i go wayyyyy to far and scares the shit out of me. well anyways after i did trip for the next about 2 and a half weeks i felt no connection to anyone and felt as though i didn't belong in this body/world. That really tore me apart those 2 weeks cause it also caused some sort of bipolar depression where id be really happy one second and then in a few minutes id feel like complete shit and have no care to do anything then id be back to normal again. It would happen all day everyday. Well after i did that i had some DOB where i went way to far again and ever since then Ive had extreme anxiety and some pretty crazy ass thoughts. i just coming off this and today i feel the most normal Ive been in quite awhile(been 2 weeks)
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: DeathCompany]
#5264954 - 02/05/06 12:41 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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DeathCompany said: yeah Ive gone through the same exact thing 2 times both recent. First time was from salvia which i used to do all the time but now i go wayyyyy to far and scares the shit out of me.
yea, same here. Salvia brought me back to an ego loss flashback. (also my first try with salvia extract)
ego loss is definitely a life changing experience.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5264970 - 02/05/06 12:49 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Honestly, you can bring back those powerful experiences by thinking about them. The thing is, after reflecting on those experiences, you should learn that nothing is a powerful as having gone through them already. The hard part is done with. You must just accept what it is you experienced, as usually it will just make your life better and more whole, more complete, if you implement changes suggested by the mushroom and yourself as a syngerstic future, from which you can speak to yourself; you maybe able to control and gain more of things you seek in your own life. Kind of like a weird time travel, that is if you let it be...
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: mecreateme]
#5265426 - 02/05/06 08:03 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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So the consensus is about 2 weeks. Good, because today is the 1 week mark.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5265726 - 02/05/06 10:48 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Last night at someone elses place, as I laid there on a bed super anxious with all the feelings of an lsd trip (6 days later), my body temperature had increased, I had a body buzz, I had the mental effects, all of it.
I laid there and decided I was going to confront the fear, and I sat there and fully felt all the things I was feeling, and confronted it. I asked God to help me, Jesus to help me, I sang some hymns in my head, and was brave. I felt that I had confronted the fear, and that should vanquish it. And it did for the most part. I still felt strange, you know, but I was able to get my mind off of it for a few. I rode home to my place with someone else, and finally fell asleep. I woke up this morning feeling a lot better. There is still some anxiety, but I think that is more from me worried about going through another wave of the feelings (it does seem to come in waves). I think I might be through with most of the anxiety though. I faced it. I conquered it.
Do you think I'll have to go through any more waves in the coming week? Any more flashbacks? I know that they mostly occur when a person focuses on one thing for too long. By shifting my focus every once in a while, do you think that I could avoid another flashback? That ultimately is what brought on the feelings of the anxiety.
Any more replies would be awesome, and I wouldn't mind some of the more veteran users to reply, especially if they've gone through this experience themselves. Maybe some words of encouragement too 
Thanks friends
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: DeathCompany]
#5270107 - 02/06/06 04:16 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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DeathCompany said: and felt as though i didn't belong in this body/world.
That's exactly how I feel now, but at least most of the anxiety is gone.
Did you guys find that these feelings tapered off and got less as time went by, or did it just drop off at around the 2 week mark?
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: jonathanseagull]
#5270147 - 02/06/06 04:24 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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Everyone is different. It takes some people longer to feel 100% "normal" again than others. You will be fine. Just try to stop thinking about it. You don't have to analyze everything right away.
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Re: LSD...EgoDeath...Flashbacks with Extreme Anxiety [Re: FunkyLoFi]
#5270672 - 02/06/06 06:07 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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some good advice so far here.
i completely sympathize with what your feeling,i had a similar experience after dropping 4 hits. My healing process however took around 5 months. you really have to take a step back and see the cycle of anxiety. worrying about worrying and so forth. for myself i found i had to take the iniative to "disengage" myself when anxious/paranoid thoughts start popping up,to just remain unresponsive,not denying the thoughts,not rationalizing,not doing anything,just letting them run thier coarse and continuing with what i was doing
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