FrenchSocialist said: It sounds like you are just making up your own definitions at this point, and that makes it difficult to have a meaningful conversation with you.
However based on what you said the ego still sounds like something supernatural. What do you mean by "true self" exactly? And how exactly do people just get rid of it? A lot of that sounds like magical thinking. And given some of the traits you ascribe to the concept of ego, why exactly would I want to get rid of it--memories, emotions, judgments and perceptions are what make an individual unique. Such things are the basis for our history, our relationships, and our ability to feel empathy. You shouldn't sacrifice real things for spiritual concepts.
Well, the question at hand was "What is your view [of the ego]?" I feel I answered that question, but to answer you.
I do not know exactly how to get rid of it. It happened to me accidentally. It was nothing I was looking for. I ate some mushrooms if you want to know the truth and the whole story is in my signature.
Now, I do think that the experience is valid even if I was on drugs. What happened still happened and I remember it quite vividly as if I were not on any drugs at all. I woke up fairly sober. I went and researched if anyone else had had similar experiences, and what I found astonished me. I found tons of experiences, I found tons of things that surrounded certain goals in religions, and I found my true self. I am undoubtedly going to end up there at some point. When? I don't know.
When you see your true self, you realize that none of those things(memories, emotions, judgments and perceptions) make you unique at all. They anchor you to "I" when you are in fact something greater. Might sound like magical thinking, and it is, but it is real for me. We could go on and on about "real things." But, let's just stick to this experience.
Letting go of your attachments allows you to experience what religions call God. I don't know exactly how to do this. I had it happen, because I thought I was dieing, and I let myself. Well, obviously this is not going to be the path people seek as death is feared immensely. I learned that death is not something to fear though. It is too bad that Western culture has such a negative view on death. It causes so much fear and distance from "real things."
I don't blame your stance. I understand completely. I am just trying to tell you without the experience it is a very hard thing to describe and it is a very very hard concept for anyone without the experience to fathom. It is ineffable, which is also ineffable in itself. Can you imagine something you can't truly imagine? No, that just doesn't make sense. Well, neither does this and I am sorry it is not concrete and factual, but it is all up in my head and it has happened to me. If we had some sort of device where you could experience my thoughts and memories, maybe you could see it. You will face it when you die though, and if you are lucky before hand.
People are frightened of true spirituality. You want to know why? Because it requires giving up all the things you think you love and need and your desires and your every part of the "ego" or whatever it is that makes you, you. What makes you, you though is not those things. It might be what is considered you in this culture. Within "real things" you are no thing. You are everything. When you attach yourself you latch on to something and don't allow yourself to be free. Doubts and fear. That is all it causes. When you are free you have complete confidence.
I want to call it confidence, but it has a general connotation of smugness to it. You just know. You know that things are as they are. It isn't even a knowing though! It is just, ughhh this is so hard to describe, it is just infinity in the brain. You connect to the cosmic consciousness or whatever your term for it is, the oneness, the void, the nothingness, the everythingness, God. When you are this you are free.
The true self is you, when you are a part of everything! This concept just seems ridiculous to anyone who hasn't experienced it. I didn't believe in anything like this before it had happened. Now, if I wouldn't have found other people with similar experiences I may have just cast it out as psychotic hallucinations. Yet, here I am surrounded by people who understand where I am coming from. I really love these forums because of the diversity in opinions as well as people that share my own. It is very well rounded I think, and I wish there was a bit more diversity as I think some people scare off people with differing opinions.
So yeah man no one wants to die, but death is something you have to be at ease with. That's what it is. You have to be at ease. Nothing stirs you. You are wholly other. You are free and you mean the world to me.
Giving up things is not easy, and that is the understatement of understatements. We find it hard to share when we are young children. Our toys, our food, our clothes. And why? Because we feel we truly need these things. These material things that don't really have any meaning at all. This is just a very general thing too. Our greed has a seed rooted much deeper. We cannot even give our true love to anyone else. I don't really expect people to give up their "real things" and selves! No, this just sounds like crazy talk huh? That's all it takes to find your "true self," the self of selves! You must give up all that you associate with you, and when you do you realize something much greater. It is a relinquishing of impurity. You will find ultimate love, unity, and connectedness with the "true self." You are illuminated with it all. You will find every thing here, and it is all experienced at the sametime. It is all the same here. I want to say the rewards are reaped when you caress this sameness, but is it truly a reward? Sure, I guess. It seems like something so much more important than that though.
You are in touch with life. Life as its grandest scale. Life in its utmost glory. Life that is unfathomable. Life like you have never seen before! Life you make up. Life that is infinite and touching. Life that makes you feel all the emotions you think you have and infinite more simultaneously. Life that gives you memories but gives you all memories that have ever been, are, and will be. Life that has no judgments as everything is understood and at ease with. Life where there are no perceptions because every perception is seen. Life that is you while being life of all life. Life that is death and death that is life. Life of "real things." And Life of you as a sacrifice to become something that IS!
You are jaded me. And I am jaded you. When I see you will see. When you see I will see. When we see we will see.
-------------------- "You must be the change you want to see in the world." - The trip of a Life Time.
Indra's Net - There is an endless net of threads throughout the universe. The horizontal threads are in space. The vertical threads in time. At every crossing of threads there is an individual. And every individual is a crystal bead. The great light of absolute being illuminates and penetrates every crystal being, And every crystal being reflects not only the light from every other crystal in the net, But also every reflection of every reflection throughout the universe.
-cK
Edited by ck10n3 (01/31/07 04:18 AM)
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