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The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience 1
#24038089 - 01/25/17 09:03 AM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Just a random story i had stuck in the vault waiting to see the light of day. This was during the last psychosis i experienced.
I was at the bus stop in this town outside of Boston. Theres this platform you wait for this bus that you need to walk 3 stairs up to get on and its this long sidewalk with a bench everyone sits on to wait for the bus..
So i see this bow-legged homeless black dude who can barely walk try to climb the 3 stairs to get up the platform. I noticed it wasnt happening so im the only one who gets up and walks over..i extend out my arm for him and he takes it and i sort of pull him up. He didnt stop thanking me and blah blah..now in my head im feeling that i just did something metaphorically very important. I felt in my schizo mind that i just helped this man "onto the next level" so to speak.
So i sit back on the bench and right away starts thess black clouds coming in. 2 minutes later the clouds open back up and this rain starts to fall with this warm sunshine shining down. I have never seen any rain like this before. It was GREEN rain like you see in tropical islands. The smell of the rain hitting the tar on the ground made that classic distinct smell we all know and love. So this miraculous teal-colored tropical rain is pouring down and my consciousness starts to squint down. I now feel like i am on this highest level i never felt before..ever. it was the most beautiful feeling and sight to behold. The only way to describe it was that my whole vision was now in HD after being in regular mode. I felt as though i was a Peruvian child in the rain Forrest on ayahuasca or something evolving in front of his own eyes.
I look behind me and everyone else is just sitting on their phones waiting while i am standing in front of them facing out in the street with this rain just hitting me while in this "higher detailed squinted down" consciousness like i said. The rain storm stopped and i felt reborn.
I start crying thanking God and all that lovely stuff that i was able to experience that.
Well there you have it.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
Edited by Bill_Oreilly (01/25/17 09:08 AM)
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24038124 - 01/25/17 09:22 AM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Does not seem psychotic per-say.
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Morel Guy]
#24038128 - 01/25/17 09:23 AM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Morel Guy said: Does not seem psychotic per-say.
Well it was during a psychosis is what i meant. I go weeks in a psychotic state of mind and this was just another day during that period
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039052 - 01/25/17 03:57 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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A beautiful story Bill, thanks for sharing. 
As u imagine, i have a bunch of questions cause i find Shizophrenia super interesting....
Sounds like classic Shizophernia. Is that your diagnosis?
Did these instances start shortly after taking large amounts of 5-aco-dmt? or was it the shrooms?
And when u have these episodes, are u lucid? do u realize that your mind-tripping or are u lost within the psychosis?
For many Shizophrenics, they go thru a manic phase (usually pleasant) then an affect depressed phase afterwords. Does that happen to you?
hope that aint too much questions
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#24039128 - 01/25/17 04:12 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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LogicaL Chaos said: A beautiful story Bill, thanks for sharing. 
As u imagine, i have a bunch of questions cause i find Shizophrenia super interesting....
Sounds like classic Shizophernia. Is that your diagnosis?
Did these instances start shortly after taking large amounts of 5-aco-dmt? or was it the shrooms?
And when u have these episodes, are u lucid? do u realize that your mind-tripping or are u lost within the psychosis?
For many Shizophrenics, they go thru a manic phase (usually pleasant) then an affect depressed phase afterwords. Does that happen to you?
hope that aint too much questions 
Glad you enjoyed it brother...i wish i could use better words but as you all know, words cant describe these experiences.
I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 times, and once was "psychotic delusions." So 3 all together. I dont know which it is and apparently the docs dont know either.
This occurred recently...i havent dosed 4-aco-dmt or dmt and even shrooms for years.
It was caused..and is always caused by Butane Gash oil binges. For some reason when i go to smoking all day..after about 2 or 3 months of this, i end up "schizophrenic" and i have psychotic episodes until someone throws me in a psych ward.
See..theres a difference between psychotic experiences and "psychotic breaks." The "trip report" was a psychotic experience. During those, i am totally lucid and myself. Its just as if i am at the peak of an LSD trip or something along the lines of that. At the time i know i am not tripping on a drug but i refuse to accept that its part of mental illness.
and the last question..i dont really experience phases. Right when i get psychotic i remain that way until i go on meds. It gets worse and worse until i get on the meds.
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039152 - 01/25/17 04:17 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Very interesting....
So u say butane hash oil is the trigger? Wow. 
Sounds like u have some unique type of Shizophernia that is conditional and comes and goes with psychoic episodes.
One more question: do u have family members that have this too? Mental conditions are typically genetic.
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#24039176 - 01/25/17 04:24 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Quincy
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
#24039180 - 01/25/17 04:26 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Hash oil was 100% the trigger in all of the times i "caught schizophrenia" its like the fku for me i swear
And nope..no family members have it. For some reason the hash oil fucks my head up when i go hard with it. And boy do i go nuts..
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: 5150]
#24039182 - 01/25/17 04:27 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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5150 said: Quincy
Umm how the fuck did you know!?!?
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039199 - 01/25/17 04:34 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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huh, no family huh? wow.
and whats Quincy
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039202 - 01/25/17 04:35 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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What a kind gesture.
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039206 - 01/25/17 04:36 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Description of the platform I use to run wild in beantown way back Got my first novelty Id in the combat zone ,there was a great video game Arcade there,Boston was awesome in the 90,s
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: 5150]
#24039211 - 01/25/17 04:37 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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5150 said: Description of the platform I use to run wild in beantown way back Got my first novelty Id in the combat zone ,there was a great video game Arcade there,Boston was awesome in the 90,s
Fucking impressive man
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#24039213 - 01/25/17 04:38 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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LogicaL Chaos said: huh, no family huh? wow.
and whats Quincy 
Its the town in which the bus station where all this happened is located
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039224 - 01/25/17 04:42 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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ah, gotcha 
so do u still do the hash oil despite the aftermath?
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#24039227 - 01/25/17 04:44 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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LogicaL Chaos said: ah, gotcha 
so do u still do the hash oil despite the aftermath?
Nah i decided it was too embarrassing to be going to psych wards just to smoke.
But i might go back to smoking regular weed. I dont see that having the same effect
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039235 - 01/25/17 04:46 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Im really curious to know if it would.
Just for Gods sake, stay away from dabs!
Hopefully flower does the trick. Im growing to baby plants now. Very excited to harvest in summer
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#24039262 - 01/25/17 04:53 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed, Existing before Heaven and Earth, Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging, All-pervading, unfailing, I do not know its name; I call it tao. If forced to give it a name, I call it Great (ta). Being great, it flows out; Flowing out means far-reaching; Being far-reaching, it is said to return. It's just a shot away..
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Re: The vault: another Oreilly psychotic experience [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#24039344 - 01/25/17 05:26 PM (7 years, 5 days ago) |
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Mental illness can tap into different parts of the mind. It can have all that you never dreamed of. That's the good and bad part. There are things that when I experienced, that pulled on me. Some drugs numbed my susceptibility to those forces. Some drugs outright put me well above any negative impact. Other times drugs pulled me down into the depths of my life.
It's the exploring that is dangerous. If exploring was safe, and it surely is not, everyone would do it.
Once the wiring is there it's too easy to get back to it. Right now I'm more wiring for skeptical. Super man died.
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