Haven't had a chance to rant about my feelings or thoughts in quite a while.. Gonna keep this one to a minimum FOREALZ this time.
1st of all... I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK..
2nd of all... I LOVE ADDERALL... OKAYYYYYYYYYYYY
3rd of all... GODDAM controlling ass bitches that want to run a continuous track of controlling egotistical selfish inconsiderate actions, Then blame you for "Pushing them away"
My fucking girl man.. She says I'm constantly acting "like a dick" and being inconsiderate.. Despite the fact that I'm CONSTANTLY catering to her needs and emotions.. Making sure she doesn't fall apart at the seems. I give her cash, I drive her EVERYWHERE, Even if I don't feel like doing it.. I'm on her schedule 24/7.. I'm polite and respectful.. I'm constantly going out of my way to please her and keep her "happy" or TRY to keep her "happy".. Even to the point where, EVERYONE around us realizes that I'm practically her shofer, they all realize, And even comment on the fact that I'm being AMAZING to her, and to be quite honest, OVER ACHIEVING for this fucking girl.. On EVERYTHING she's asked of me out of this relationship.. As far as being good to her, Getting on my feet financially (which is working out great, Got my Diploma and have a journeyman painter apprenticeship interview at 9am tomorrow morning) And just being a good boyfriend in general.. Which I pull off easily.. She just doesn't see it and refuses to appreciate it..
My Mom tell's me today.. "Where's Kait?" I'm like.. "On her way home from Daytona"... "Oh Wow I didn't expect that, You two are usually attached at the hip" I'm like.. Facepalm... "Yeah I fuckin know, Thankfully I broke it for the day.."
Which I almost didn't pull off cause she was trying to get me to go on a fucking 4 hour mission with her and her mom to Daytona to go buy HER some pants.. Yeah okay, I'll accompany you so I can sit in your moms tiny back seat for 2 hours worth of car travel, Then walk around a fuckin store full of shit I Can't buy.. And doodle on my phone in the meantime.. YEAH FUCK THAT.. I broke off with the "Gotta put job applications in" line... Worked great despite the fact that she bitched and complained about it and threw as much shit in my face as she could "Oh My Mom INVITED YOU to come with us and your going to disrespect her!?" Despite the fact that I clearly heard her Mom saying over the phone "DO YOU WANT TO GO WITH ME TO BURLINGTON CLOTHES TO GET YOU SOME PANTS?" Nothing mentioned about me.
AND ALL OF THIS ON TOP OF THE FACT THAT, DESPITE CONSTANT JOB HUNTING AND FILLING OUT APPLICATIONS, SHE THROWS THE NOT HAVING A JOB THING IN MY FACE FOR 2 DAYS STRAIGHT PRIOR TO HER PRACTICALLY DEMANDING I BLOW OFF A JOB INTERVIEW TO GO BUY PANTS WITH HER.. LOL!!!!!!!!
Despite the FACT that I've been handing her 20-30$ cash at a time as often as I can which to be quite honest, is pretty fucking often.. What's she do? Give me the "I don't appreciate shit you do" attitude then spend half the money I give her on scratch off's and lose it all. Then what's she do? COUNT OUT THE MONEY I GAVE HER WITH A PISSY ATTITUDE ABOUT HOW SHE'S ONLY GOT 12 DOLLARS OUT OF THE 30 LEFT CAUSE SHE BLEW IT ON BULLSHIT. Then after that she tells me about all this shit that's my fault, and wrong with me, and why I'm pushing her away.. Which usually consists of well.. Being me.. Her buying me a Black and Mild here and there, "Doing EVERYTHING" for me.. "Supporting me" she calls it.. LOL!!! I think it's a fair trade to ask for a black n mild here and there and RARELY a 3pack of beer which costs 5$ flat, In return for me being an amazing fucking guy to her 24/7 and constantly catering to her EVERY need, Whether it be DO THIS, DO THAT.. DRIVE ME HERE, DRIVE ME THERE, DRIVE AND GET ME THIS, DRIVE AND GET ME THAT.. SIT NEXT TO ME FOR 3 HOURS WHILE I DO MY STAY AT HOME JOB IN SILENCE FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT. Not to mention the fact that I've been giving her money in return for example.. Black n Milds here and there (1.27$ per) Beer very rarely (5.00$) She's probably bought me beer 4 times in the last month.
She doesn't even give a fuck if I'm bored as fuck with nothing to do or not while she's "working".. And I can't even speak 90% of the time or do ANYTHING that causes a slight sound because she does phone call quality control for a company in town. She just "doesn't want to be alone" AT ALL COSTS.. And If I'm not there the entire time, Or HINT at the idea of wanting to do something besides doodle on my phone or stare at the wall.. She breaks out the "Your being a dick" bullshit and threatens to break up with me or get her mom to come pick her up.
AND HER FAVORITE!!!! "I PUT GAS IN YOUR CAR ALL THE TIME" YEAH BITCH, SO I CAN FUCKING DRIVE YOUR ASS ALL AROUND TOWN TO DO WHAT "YOU" WANT TO DO!!!! LOL!!!! WHAT'S YOUR GODDAM POINT?! I absolutely NEVER get a priority of mine squeezed in between her fucking schedule of priorities that she thinks favor us both... LOL. Literally 90% of the time, And I could probably do a fucking census on this point.. Literally 90% of the time It's shit she needs to do or WANTS to do for that matter.. And in the 10% of the time that I DO finally speak up and mention "Hey, Mind if I stop at this place and ask if they are hiring and get an app to fill out LATER" She give's me a pissy, Ughh yeah go ahead.. Then complains about how she hates being in a rush and the fact that she's on a time schedule whether she is or NOT.
And if I fall behind on her schedule of tasks and whatever other bullshit she has set out for me in her mind.. I catch MAJOR shit and attitude about it..
Like as a PRIME example.. Tonight.. I go out of my way to make sure I'm at her house on time to run her around to get shit done for her.. Which turned into nothing more than a trip to the bank to get denied cashing a check because she overdrew her bank account she just set up 3 days ago in order to buy an xmas present online.. INTENTIONALLY OVERDRAWING and coming to the conclusion that she'd pay it off later.. Well, She ended up canceling the order, And having her Mom pay for the presents... Bank still overdrew.. Wasted the gas I PAID FOR in order to job hunt earlier in the day, And she was expecting it as a possibility that the bank wouldn't cash her check or would try to take the money. Then we go to my house so I can setup an area and cater to her every need as far as making sure she's happy while she works.. So I bring up.. Hey, Either before or after your break so we can chill together while your on break.. I have to go run an errand for my mom, Then go talk to my buddy about a possible job opportunity in the next couple days.. SURPRISINGLY she's calm and cool about it "Okay cool" Well, After I get some shit done at the house, she's been working for like 45min.. She's Hungry.. Okay what can I do about it? "Go get me some Subway".. Okay cool, I'll throw all my priorities to the side until I get you fed, No prob.. So I take care of that and drop her sub off, SALL GOOD!! Okay babe, Gimme a kiss, Goin do the Buddy Thing, And see if I can't conjure up some work.. I leave.. Less than an hour later while talking to my buddy and bullshitting with him, working on gettin in good with him again, I'm gettin blown up, "WHERE YOU AT?" UMM REALLY ?? WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU THINK..... "WHY'S IT TAKING SO LONG"... Then when I tell her, Sorry it's taking so long, My buddy had me ride with him to the parts store and help him out for a minute... "Ughh Whatever, I'm sick of you giving me attitude" Like me saying sorry was in a smart ass tone or something, despite it being a fucking text message.. I was honestly apologizing to her.. "I'm so sick of this, You said you were going to change and ughh I guess that was bullshit, Whatever, I'm calling my mom to come pick me up" After politely responding to her texts and trying to whip my "Go fuck your self" nature into submission as best as I could.. Which I was quite successful in doing to be completely honest. And she still trips on me.
So what do I do... I cut my trip short and head home as fast as possible, to the point of speeding at times with 2 beers on my breath riding kinda dirty (2 adderall on me) Doesn't really count cuz I'd eat them, But it's the fact... I DONT WANT TO WASTE EM FOR A TRAFFIC TICKET AND POSSIBLE SEARCH WHILE SPEEDING HOME TO CATER TO YOUR EMOTIONS!! Stop at the store to buy her a mountain dew and me some budweiser..
Then I get home to a fucking bitchy ass attitude and a "are you going to stop being a dick" comment.. Then I sit next to her for like 20min straight fuckin around on my phone while she ignores me and bitches about any tiny comment I make to her DESPITE THE FACT THAT SHE STARTED TALKING TO ME FIRST!! So in basic human nature, I RESPOND.
Goddamit man, I could go on and fuckin on about this girl.. It's honestly pushing me to the point of not finding her attractive anymore, Feeling like it's an incompatible combination.. And to be completely honest, An overall waste of time in my life as far as moving forward confidently, positively, and productively. Every single time I finally break into a good mood she crashes it down, Even if my good mood consists of doing something for HER.
Oh and EVEN MORE ANNOYING.. WHILE I'M FLOWING AND VENTING ON HERE, I Get called out of my concentration and my zen meditation to "Someone calling me" my sister says.. "Yeah??".. My Girlfriend says "Come here please" I go out there oblivious to anything around me.. And she's like.. "Ughh.. What exactly is going on in there?" I'm like.. "Ummm nothing, I'm working on those ringtones babe" LMAO, While in reality I'm in the FUCK YOU mood and exercising my shroomery skillz ignoring the fuck out of her for the first time in weeks. She says "Umm, I heard arguing in there, If we're not staying in your Sisters room while your parents are on vaycay.." I cut her off, I'm like, Oh no we're not arguing, Just kinda bitchin at each other about something small, She starts back in "Well umm, If we're not staying in her room you can go get all my cleaning stuff out of that room cause I'm done with this bullshit, I'm not gonna take it anymore"... Talking about my 12 year old sister that I love more than consciousness it's self.. More than I'll EVER love her bitch fucking ass.. Simply because my sister has been slightly annoyed with us using her room at times and to be quite honest, She's simply a high class, Good Kid.. With an EGO.. She wants her own room and doesn't want to have it invaded by foreigners.. She doesn't realize what she's doing talking shit about my baby sister.. My 12 year old and 5 year old Sisters are all I have left after having my 14 year old sister fall into the hands of a pedafile, that fed her xanax and roxies in order to take advantage of her.. Which ultimately resulted in her untimely, shocking death. Then after she pisses me off being a cunt about my sister, She tells me... Well you better hurry up and BE DONE IN FIFTEEN MINUTES... "Umm why?" I ask.. Cause I'm going to be off.. Oh yeah, that makes sense, I gotta be ready to cater to your needs and emotions, I forgot about that..
I'm close to the point of SNAPPING on this bitch and she has NEVER seen that side of me, Jekyl and Fucking Hyde, The only thing scary about that thought is the fact that I'll absolutely enjoy berating the fuck out of this chick verbally, based on the bullshit she has bombarded me with on a daily basis, Combined with her talking shit about my baby sister and acting like a fucking cunt in regards to her.. And no worries shroomery, I'd never touch a women, I grew up with women being the majority in my family and like I said, nothing is more important to me in life than my sisters and my mother. But no joke, I'll enjoy the fuck out of verbally berating this fucking cunt if she gives me enough reason to snap like a pencil.
I was going to try and keep this rant at a minimum but as usual I failed.. Once my thoughts and feelings start to flow and vent on here I can't stop my self till I feel like I've accurately depicted what's going on in my life.. I really appreciate being able to make posts like this, And appreciate any replies, comments or suggestions even more.
I LOVE YOU SHROOMERY!!! YOUR THE ONLY BITCH THAT WILL WHIP ME INTO SUBMISSION!! I PROMISE I'LL NEVER BE UNFAITHFUL BABY!!!!
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