Auto-SummaryThe author, born in NYC, was orphaned at age 10 and ended up homeless before discovering a carnival where they decided to live. They were "adopted" by a carnie named Jim, who took them under his wing despite the carnival's involvement in illegal activities and drug distribution. The author spent 7 years touring with the carnival, experimenting with various drugs, including LSD and mushrooms, which led to a life-changing experience at age 16. After the carnival, the author moved back to NYC and is now a college student in Manhattan, occasionally indulging in LSD, which has become scarce.
Hey all I have been lurking around here for some time now and I figure it's time to register, so here I am. I figure some of you guys would like to hear about me so here comes my life story (I actually think it's a interesting read so hope you enjoy)
I was born in NYC 18 years ago. My parents died when I was 10 in a mugging.At that age I should of been put into a foster home or something but somehow I slipped through the cracks / I kinda ran away, and ended up a homeless 10 year old. Life wasn't really easy for a homeless 10 year old. After about a week of being homeless I stumbled upon a carnival. I decided at that young age that I would "Live" at the carnival. For the following week I wandered around the carnival not doing anything. I had no cash. I mostly would just look at the free shows/rides/ and I figured at the carnival no people would question what a 10 year old was doing there. They would just figure I was there with my parents. A few days at the carnival I had met some of the carnies kids. They ranged from all ages from 5-18.....A very "strange bunch of people"....They informed me that in about a week the carnival would be leaving and they told me stories about how they travel throughout the entire country. It seemed like a dream come true. I was a little kid and I figured "Damn you're at the carnival 24/7 and just play games/hang out/ ride the rides"...I can't really describe what happen as I'm not 100% sure but you could say I was "adopted" by 1 of the younger carnies. The man was named Jim and he kinda took me under his wing, gave me a job, took care of me. He was a nice guy never did anything to make me think otherwise but the events that followed as a result of joining the carnival could only be described as "evil". I imagine it's well known but carnies tend to be run away criminals or ex-cons. We all got payed under the counter and many illegal activity's were taking place on the road and during the carnivals. I spent 7 years touring around the USA with the carnival. I will not get into 2 much detail but the carnies or at least the ones i was touring with were like a rolling psychedelic factory. Mushrooms / LSD/ Mescaline/ Meth/ Cocaine/ Heroin/ and any other drug you could name were available 24/7 and you could think of the carnival as a huge distributor of drugs that would travel the US. I first smoked marijuana when I was 14 years old. Honestly I didn't find it that fun although I still do it daily to this day. I was always looking for a bit of a stronger drug but I wasn't interested in Coke/Heroin/Meth/etc. On my 16th birthday I was hanging out with this other kid who was 16 named Seth. Seth worked the fun house. He had been a pretty big distributor of LSD for as long as I knew him even in his younger years. I was helping him run the fun house that day since his dad was sick. We got to talking about LSD and he started telling me about "tripping"....I was always interested in it but never knew it was "harmless" (To your physical body)....I always heard your brain would bleed and all that other BS. But after he told me the facts I was much more interested in it and thought I would give it a try. At 2 AM the carnival was coming to a close and his Seth's Dad was taking over the fun house so me and Seth decided to go back to his trailer. Once I got in there I see sheets upon sheets upon sheets of Mad Hatter Blotters. He asks if i want some and I say yes. I pick up 1 of the tabs and say "Well here it goes"...Seth stopped me and said nah that is nothing were gonna do Thumbprints...I had no clue at the time what I was getting myself into. Seth went into another room where I heard they produced the shit. He comes out with the stuff layed out on this tile like surface. He said "Do as I do"....He licked his finger put his finger onto the substance and then licked it again. At the time I figured we were doing what everyone does just not on a blotter. I did it and as soon as It touched me I could feel it. Within 4-5 minutes I was on the floor tripping. I can't even describe the experience and even to this day I can feel it. I wish I could describe the experience but it was just color / designs followed by the sensation of melting into the universe and just not existing. Following that experience I tried mushrooms. The next year was filled with weekly trips of extremely high doses. I would go into more detail but for legal reasons I cannot. I will say the carnies on the most part were a bunch of scum bags and all there dirty deeds finally got back to them and after a "BIG PROBLEM" in the carnival the entire staff got fired. I do not keep in touch with any of them and I moved back to NYC. The money I got from working the carnival/my side business ^.^ earned me enough to live on my own. I am currently living in Manhattan in a 1 room apartment. Life is pretty good right now. Going to be going to college for Chemistry. Unfortunately I have completely lost contact with most my old carnie crew. I have not had the chance to indulge in the "sacrament" of LSD in over 3 months and honestly it's driving me a bit insane. After having it available 24/7 and then suddenly going to No access has made me very upset but I figure it will find me eventually. Well guys thats pretty much it. You can expect to see some crazy stories coming your way b/c when you're hanging with carnies crazy shit goes down. -Mad Hatter NYC
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