My Horrible experiance at Mycotopia!!!

It bothers me as well. I hate to lose. I have to win. I feel an urge deep down inside that makes me want to retaliate when I feel I've been wronged. I have the "nobody walks all over me" attitude. If I try to ignore these feelings it simply enrages me further to the point that I feel like my head will explode so I usually retaliate to quench these feelings.

I believe what the both of us need is to find a different and healthier outlet for these feelings. We need to search inside of ourselves and find something other than vengeance that will make these feelings subside. And not because someone told us to, or because someone says it's the right thing to do but because we believe in our own minds that this change will make us better specimens of the human species.

Of course if you don't believe that then stay as you are. As for me... the jury is still out on this one. I don't know if this is a change I want in my life yet. I know it'd make me a happier person but at the same time I feel like the world needs people like us sometimes.
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Man thanks, I really enjoy reading your input on things like this. Very good points and obvious wisdom anyone could learn from. I agree too, my jury is also out on the subject because sometimes I wish to and want to be a more passive person.

But like you said maybe we needed people like us through history or who would have fought off the wild and other men in our early history.
But you said one thing that made my ears perk.

It was the Nobody is going to walk all over me attitude and you have to win thing. I am so exactly like that. I will never be the first to be rude or be an asshole to someone like Hippie3. But when I am the first one to be treated like that I get this thing in my head telling me to compete and thrive off the victory I get when I win the debate or even fight if it was down to a violent encounter.

Usually it is only against people who try to do me wrong or deny me rights I perceive that I have. Or in sports or something also, I have a major gotta win complex. But after reading your words they have given me food for thought. Is it really worth the energy and time to react at all?

Especially to someone and solely because of someone as useless and obviously known to be a bur as H3? I am beginning to think not because this person will never change no matter how much you prove them wrong or even if you really affected them they would eventually return to their old ways.

So why try to fix the world and change the way I feel with anger and Eviolence because I feel like I need retribution. I really dont. Nobody does, and I think by experiancing someone so unlikeable as H3 I have as you said become a NEW better person and learned something vital.

I am not the same as yesterday and do change dynamically every minute that I learn something and experiance new things. This is something I can use to learn from. Its like learning when and when not to retaliate on someone and I appreciate you going out of your way to help me see the big picture.

Its not that I have to change my personality and feelings as far as being passive or aggressive goes, it is just me being able to realize when it is the right time and proper to react at all and really worth my time. There is obviously a difference and maybe this is one of them when me not reacting is the best course of action because she isnt worth "Anyones" time or investment.

Thanks a lot 13eetleJuice you really have a good knack for opening someones mind to seeing there is more than one way to skin a hippy and win a battle. Maybe by continuing with it I would really just be giving more fuel to her fire anyway which in turn would cause me even more undue stress and anger. So forget Her/him and thanks for opening my eyes to how retarded going to their level is because I am above that.

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