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Anonymous #1
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self injury
#7802571 - 12/27/07 12:06 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I have a problem with cutting that i've been dealing with for 8 years or so, that only really comes on when im going through something tough. Times have been really rough lately, and it's been happening more often. Before I've cut myself in places that I knew no one would see and it was a more meticulous thing, almost a ritual. And for a while I even justified it by telling myself that it was a valid coping mechanism since it did me no long term harm (flawed logic I know)
Anyways, what I was getting to. Last night I had a really panicky episode, and cut myself in a place that I can't really cover up at work, and the cuts are deeper and more numerous than before. The worst part is that I didn't even feel the calming effect that I usually associate with cutting (though maybe that's a good thing, I would definitely like to stop)
All this worries me a lot, but what really worries me is having to go into work tomorrow and not knowing how or what to tell people when they ask what happened. I can't use the old cat excuse, the best I can even really think of is saying that I fell out of a tree. (I'm thinking of just jokingly telling people that I was abducted by aliens, and laugh it off) But what it comes down to is I don't want to have to lie to these people I see everyday, but I fear how they will look at me for this.
I dont even have any friends that I can talk to about this with, for fear of judgement.
that's why i'm glad there's a place like this.
any advice?
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im_on_a_boat
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Registered: 04/06/06
Posts: 3,950
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quit doing it..
go to a doctor or something.
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MushmanTheManic
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Registered: 04/21/05
Posts: 4,587
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Anonymous #1
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nice advice, why don't you tell a drunk to stop drinking, or a cokehead to go see a doctor.
there's not much a doctor can do, and who can afford a fucking therapist? not me.
sorry to be a dick, but your response was belittling and shallow.
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im_on_a_boat
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Registered: 04/06/06
Posts: 3,950
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sounds like you just got a bad attitude and ya dont really want to quit.
fuck it i mean i dont give a shit really..
i cant help you you gotta help yourself im some remote person on the internet..
i'm just trying to be the voice of reason. you said that what you are doing is a problem. i told you to stop. i cant help you on how you are going to accomplish that because i dont know anything about you, much less your handle on the internet.
and i offered up to go see a doctor. at least that would raise your accountability and it wouldn't be a personal thing that you would have to hide. it would be a legitimate thing once a doctor recognizes your problem.
sorry im not as eloquent about it as it was early in the morning but at least i gave a shit enough to reply, but obviously you dont want help.
they can medicate you for being panicky which is the reason you cut yourself which can eliminate the problem...
like when you feel like that pop a xanax or something shit i dont know i'm no doctor.. that's why you should go see one.
dont flame me for trying to help you.
..i gave a shit enough to come back and reply.
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Ahab McBathsalts
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Registered: 11/25/02
Posts: 35,107
Loc: Wind Turbine, AB
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i liked to cut. Then i started burning myself with matches and lighters, which was kinda cool, until my blood got infected and my leg got real swollen.n So I had to see a doc, who refered me to a councillor. I started seeing the councilor and she really helped me reflect on what i need to work on in my life, and what makes me happy. Also i started taking SSRIs and benzos.
Self injury isn't healthy and it isn't a proper coping mechanism. Try to get some exercise and try getting some shit off your chest to who ever you feel comfortable with.
-------------------- "Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody's going to die."
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