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DistortedEyes
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should i go to the docter or can someone help out please?
#3275324 - 10/25/04 01:04 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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For a while now i have been feeling "weird". i've been feeling depressed sometimes and ok a little later but most of the time i dont feel happy or sad , just feels like i'm in a dream and nothing realy matters or it isnt real.
sometimes i cant sleep at all and when i do get to sleep i wake up still feeling tired , no matter how long i sleep for.
I keep getting some kind of "thought loops" , i keep thinking of the same thing over and over again ,not a certain thing just anything i'm thinking of at the time.
It feels like a have no friends anymore and i dont go out much at all.
the thing that i dont like the most is i feel realy unmotivated and when i wake up ,for most of the day i dont do very much or even if i do it feels like i'm kinda in a dream,nothing seems clear , sometimes it even seems like someone is watching me or is standing behind me but this doesnt happen all the time.
I find it hard to tell people things like this and i'm shy most of the time. The reason i'm typing all this is because of another post i wrote about when i drank an energy drink earlier today and some weird shit happened and i'm getting worried that there might be something wrong.
I dont realy want to go to the doctors or anything , i realy dont think i will.
Does anyone else feel anything like this or is there anything i can do.I dont feel like myself at all anymore.i'm not looking for attention or anything i just dont know what to do at all.
thnax alot to anyone who replys , i DO appreciate it ALOT. and thanx to anyone who could be bothered to read this too.
scott
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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barfightlard
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3275446 - 10/25/04 01:37 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know what you mean. I've gone through that for over a year. And if I do feel happy or sad it doesn't seem real. My emotions are fake. I don't know what to tell you man, I'm stuck too.
-------------------- "What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I fuck, what I take into my body - as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet?" - Bill Hicks
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quarkyquasar
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3275482 - 10/25/04 01:48 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I did not like to go to the doctor for years. But then I found this doc who ran a small little setup with his wife as the nurse and a family friend as the secretary. It has changed my life. He is caring, understanding and does not judge me for my addictions and illness. He gives me the time I need and always listens to me bitch about my problems. See if you can locate a doctor like that...stay away from the clinics..they just treat you like a number and it leaves a bad taste in your mouth you know? An SSRI antidepressant or anti-anxiety med is probably going to help you more than you can imagine. Odds are he will have lots of free samples to give you as well if you lack insurance. Have hope, and remember things get better. It also sounds like you would benefit from meditation practice. Maybe yoga or even martial arts...they will help you focus in on the moment. If that's not your style then I REALLY get into UT2004 competitions. If you are any good at online play then that's almost a form of meditation since it takes so much concentration to kick but in tourney level play. If you have social anxiety I would also recommend Yahoo chat with a mic. It really is liberating to talk to people without having to be face to face and no worries of what they think of you because you know you will never have to see them in real life. Not that you should ONLY socialize on chat room...but try it if you have not. It helped me to be able to communicate to my family and friends better because, well....I don't feel like such a freak compared to some of the guys on yahoo chat...:) Keep posting your thoughts and fears. Even if people don't always respond...we are listening! Good luck bro. Peace
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DistortedEyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: quarkyquasar]
#3275549 - 10/25/04 02:08 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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thanx
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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Vvellum
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3275864 - 10/25/04 03:33 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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do you exercise?
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fungigal
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3275867 - 10/25/04 03:34 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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sounds like depression to me. you need to see someone. going to see someone isn't as bad as it seems
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Moxemerald
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: Vvellum]
#3275872 - 10/25/04 03:36 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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When did you start noticing the feelings?
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DistortedEyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: Moxemerald]
#3278376 - 10/26/04 05:16 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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yes i do exercise.
I've had most of the feelings for a long time now but i've never talked to anyone about it.
Just the last couple of months i've started getting the feeling the someone is watching or following me but i dont get it all the time , but evry single morning for a long time i've woke up and i've never realy felt like i had a good sleep or even if it does feel like i've had a good sleep it always feels like i'm in some kind of dream and nothing is realy clear,like i cant think very straight , it doesnt feel like i'm in reality , it feels like i'm in a different place from the rest of the world.
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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3eyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3278466 - 10/26/04 06:45 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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YOu just need a friend to talk to.
or the HAARP is getting better of you. DON"T LET THAT happen to ya.
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DistortedEyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: 3eyes]
#3278505 - 10/26/04 07:22 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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HAARP ?
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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Anonymous #1
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3278512 - 10/26/04 07:32 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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there is a change going on within all living things....take a look around...things are changing....your adapting...it will pass, and come and pass again...until the shift is complete. turn to god man, seek your trueself.(NOT religion, just look within on some shrooms, that works as long as u truly seek truth) and you know what they say about the truth....it shall set you free
waste money on doc if you want...but your thinking everything isnt real is you starting to see through this illusion. things are not what they seem man...i say your on the verge of awakening...and once u awaken, you will know what im sayin when i say that everything in this physical plane is an illusion(not what it seems). Only love is real. and thats what your looking for here. the love is within. it IS you. let it consume you. once you find it you will realize it is within all living things.
your higherself is knockin, wont you open the door?
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DistortedEyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: ]
#3278663 - 10/26/04 08:45 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah i know what you mean , thanx alot.
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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annielicious
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3279479 - 10/26/04 12:52 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Scott, sounds like depression to me (clinical symptoms). But I have to agree to a point with Kottonmouth. I think there are many many many people like you, so don't feel alone. Pretty much alot of shroomerites I know (irl) and online feel like you.
Anti-depressants can be good to get you over the hump, but also lifestyle can be the biggest contributor. Start something new, like going for walks outside, breath the air, look UP into the sky, watch the birds, squirrels and even better go out into a forest and experience the beauty of this earth. Start a workout class, or join some group of people with similar interests to you.
Going to the Dr, isn't a bad idea, because you may have a medical condition and ignoring it won't make it go away. I would suggest doing both, start something new AND get checked out by a physician. Don't waste more time of your life wondering WTF, get some answers.
-------------------- "Everything that limits us, we have to put aside." Jonathan Livingston Seagull
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3eyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3283021 - 10/27/04 04:23 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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do a search on the internet. Youll find out more
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DistortedEyes
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: 3eyes]
#3284447 - 10/27/04 01:14 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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wow i was doing some research and i have symtons of a certain stage of Schizophrenia ,wtf, i'm sure it could be something else. i'm going to do more searching
-------------------- Sometimes when I read threads visions of men sword fighting with their genitalia run through my head. - sadspacemonkey
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3284531 - 10/27/04 01:37 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I felt similarly like you described only a few months ago. You say that you don't get out much, I'd bet that's a major part of it, go out and socialise, meet people , find companionship, most humans wither without a certain level of satisfactory interaction. The internet alone is not enough. If you're not happy, change your life, it's difficult gathering the motivation to do so, but once you've made the leap you'll feel a lot better for it. There's no need for a doctor. I decided to change my lifestyle - I was tired of feeling lonely, fed up, depressed, I needed change, it was a spontaneous decision yet it has worked wonders for my mental well being. If people don't keep their minds stimulated, we'll often end up dwelling on negative things that we have very little control over as individuals.
-------------------- "Whatever you do, you need to keep moving. Because when you stop moving you die (physically and emotionally). Good luck and blessings of happiness and fortune." ~ RandalFlagg RIP
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Fractals
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3284878 - 10/27/04 02:52 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hmm interesting.. I am experiencing a similar situation almost exactly.. I have suffered from depression before, and what I'm going through isn't the same as that.. Everything just sort lost it's luster. I had shall we say, a 'religious experience' that topped even my best Mescaline or extasy experience a couple months ago..(this happened without the assistance of any chems or plants) and was totally full of bliss.. and when that went away..(slowly) i was sorta left feeling like everything is only a distraction from reality.. yes the dream feeling is understandable I get that..I can't really explain much more than that.. but I know what your going through, for what it's worth.. im just sorta waiting it out to see what happens.. hell the only thing that helps me pass the time besides work is reading...
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TheDude
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Re: should i go to the docter or can someone help out please? [Re: DistortedEyes]
#3284970 - 10/27/04 03:09 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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HAARP though i doubt this is your problem. i like conspiracies but this one is stretching it....
However i think you really should take a look at this link on Depression and Dreaming . The fact that you're so tired when you wake up from sleeping, no matter how long, tells me this is something you should read. It might take you an hour to get through but the site is very informative, just follow the Depression Learning Path link that is at the bottom of that page. Best of luck.
-------------------- "this lebowski he called himself 'the dude'. now, 'dude', that's a name no one would self-apply where i come from but there was a lot about the dude that didn't make sense to me...."--the Stranger
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