trendal said:

The question remains, at the edge of consciousness: is this real? 

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yeah, salvia is soooo intense, i could still be tripping right now and i wouldn't have a clue, and in addition to that, i now don't believe in reality either, so in my mind, it just doesn't matter...

we're all just dreaming 

infidelGOD said:

sounds a lot like my experiences with Salvia.
I especially like the "zipper" part. I have felt this before, I felt like I was being zippered open right down the middle and my two halves falling into different realities.

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trendal said:

It has been a little over a year now since my first encounter (and breakthrough) with Salvia D. The memory of my first breakthrough has not, will not, and doesn't seem likely, to fade away.

I present to you, for your dissection and review, an account of my first breakthrough experience. This experience has been on my mind quite a lot, lately, along with some of my interpretations of it. This being the case, I would like to see what all of you think about my experience.

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I exhaled the smoke from my second toke, and felt a curious pins-and-needles sensation on top of my head. I had only enough time to say, to my friend, "something's happening...".

Now I am in my room, alone. It is very bright, and something tugs at my mind with the comparison of a movie set and stage lighting. My mind reels for a moment in utter confusion. What am I doing in here? I can't seem to remember what was just happening. I glance at my wall, and notice three horizontal lines across it. That's odd...

As I watch, the lines grow in size and detail, forming what I can only describe as "zippers". As this happens, everything in my room "flattens" out into stand-up cardboard pictures of the object. Something isn't right...

I look down at the cutout of my bed, and I can see the corrugation in the cardboard. I run my finger along the edge...I can feel it, too. Something is very wrong!

Now three of my friends are suddenly in the room with me. Each of them is attatched somehow to one of the zippers on my wall. Oh, that's right...we're all zipper-heads. The thought seemes to come from nowhere and everywhere, as if inserted by some outside force into my consciousness. By this point, I am becoming very anxious and a tad bit scared. The situation is rapidly progressing beyond my comprehension. Finally, blessedly, the Knowledge comes back to me: Salvia. I immediately try to calm myself, mentally, by saying out loud "Calm down...this isn't real. You smoked Salvia, it will be over soon."

I blink and my three friends are surrounding me, no longer attatched to the zippers on my wall. The friend standing in front of me says, with a confused voice and expression, "What do you mean this isn't real? Of course this is real! It has always been like this...you fooled yourself into believing in reality. Now come on and help us."

Again my mind reels. That's right... A flood of information, all directly related to the present situation. I can remember, now. Things have always been like this...I really DID fool myself...

Now my friends are unzipping again. Inky blackness appears as the zippers come apart. My room begins to dissapear piece by piece. As each object dissapears, any light or sound it was emitting goes with it. Now things are becoming very quiet and dim.

For what seemed like an eternity, I waited. Thoughts were streaming into my head, from a presence I had not noticed before. She is behind me, up to the right. I can feel her there, watching. She gives me all the information I need to understand what is going on...then seems to say "Come on...you'll like it! Don't be scared!"

My friends surround me again, and now I see Her behind their eyes. They are not my friends, just representations of Her. They begin to push me, begging me to help them take everything apart. Now I realize: this is "IT", the End. Terror and panic overwhelm me. This is the appointed time! How could I have forgotten? I realize that it is not Death I am to meet, but unexistence. The time for all existence to end has come. This was planned, all along. How could I forget THIS?

I run from my room, seeking escape. My feet are not moving like they are supposed to. They feel attatched to the floor, somehow. I look down and see another zipper. My feet are attatched to it, and it is unzipping behind me as I move. Now I am helping, too.

Once in the kitchen, I immediately feel a sense of calm. Turning back around, I am again gripped with pure terror: half of my room is gone. The floor, walls, and ceiling end in a jagged edge beyond which is nothingness itself - or almost. She is in there, and I know that if the blackness catches me I am done for.

Again I run, this time to get out of the house. One of my friends is following me. He's chasing me! The hallway leading out back is full of cardboard cutouts as I run through it.

I get outside and run another ten yards or so before stopping. Everything looks normal, out here. I turn to look at my house, and it is sitting there as normal. Finally...it's over.

Then my house dissapears, all at once. I look down and there are five zippers leading to a point at my feet. Things around me are dissapearing, in a steadily closing circle. I crack, and tears slip from my eyes. I can't fight it anymore...it's time. I gently lower myself to the ground, and curl up into a ball.

Now everything dissapears. I know only one thing: existence. No thoughts exist, only existence itself. I am envelloped in Her, now, and she says to me "Now, isn't this cool? I told you not to be afraid..." She has a smug confidence now, whereas before She was becoming frustrated with my resistance. If she had a body, she would be nodding at me with arms crossed in satisfaction.

A point of light appears, and widens into my friends face (the one who "chased" me outside). "Dude...what are we doing outside?" he says. His face zoomes towards me, and everything is as it was. I am standing in my back yard, and I can't remember how I got there.   

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Swami said:

Some seem to mean "breakthrough" as merely entering salvia space, but was there an actual "breakthrough" in knowledge or consciousness that you could use in consensus reality? If not, it is just another useless mind tweak and a way to have your own multi-dimensional scary movie.
 

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As if one couldn't have a "breakthrough" about oneself while tripping and then apply it in one's real life.