I need to get this out, and if you’re a caring individual knowledgeable about such things im begging you to help me.
I officially called it quits with the girl I have been involved with for 6 years. Three years ago I moved to a new city and I haven’t made many new friends.
I feel like I used my long distance relationship with me ex to exhaust all of the social interaction I required. Now im in this city, and though I have been here for years I feel like I just moved in a week ago. I don’t know anyone.
I have been hooking up with this chick that I met here but she’s just soooo not my type. I’m attracted to her, but she just isn’t open minded about who I am, she’s uncomfortable when I talk about psychedelics, and she doesn’t like the music im into. (Maybe those are petty things for a 23yr old man to be concerned about but I am). She also won’t ever stay the night because she still lives at home with her parents, so I always have to sober up and take her home. I’m basically seeing a 22yr old woman with a godamn curfew.
Onto my major problem, I live in a neighborhood that would probably make some of the people here jealous. (I’m not tooting my own horn, instead im using this to show how pathetic I am.)
I’m right across the street from a university with 35000 enrolled students. I’m with in walking distance to more than a dozen bars, my neighborhood is an old run down historical district that is described as the most “liberal” area in my entire state. I just took a walk, and literally walking down the street on a Saturday night I saw at least four houses playing cool music reeking of weed. That’s just how it is down here, it’s a hippie culture. Lots of educated folk, professors, Artists, writers, hippie college students ect…
I walk around my neighborhood and I see all of these people, (friends) walking house to house and enjoying themselves. And they all look so godamn cool. Yet they are so out of reach.
Now, I do have friends, but they are nearly an hour drive away on the other side of the city. I never get to see them.
I need to get into my neighborhoods crowd, and I need this desperately, so desperately that I am getting very depressed and discouraged about it. I need this, I need friends, I can’t just stay on my fucking computer on the fucking shroomery all godamn night anymore. I need a woman, a real woman that understands me, and not just a fuck like I have now. I need this people.
So look at my situation, I have no one but myself to get myself out there. What do I do? How do I make friends with these people? Sounds easy right? Bunch of drunks roaming the streets, smoking weed in the alleys having fun. It’s not easy. It’s really not easy.
And so you know, these aren’t like major parties; these are a chain of small “get-togethers”. Way smaller than just walking up and saying hey.
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