Niffla said:

This is gonna sound like some first world problems bullshit, and it is, especially in light of droves of people actually dying due to a global pandemic that has the earth in virtual cuffs right now

But fuck, man. This staying at home shit is killing me. I honestly thought I'd do just fine with it -- being at home for 2 week stretches at a time (we're in a rotation currently at my job, so I work 2 wks and then I'm off for 2 wks with pay). I'm a homebody anyway. A good day to me these days is some beer in the fridge, some good food, maybe a little weed and then watch some stuff on Netflix or Hulu or whatever.

But the lack of a schedule, which kinda kept me in line, has just completely thrown me into a really bad spiral of depression, loneliness, and total and complete non-productivity. Not that I was a bastion of productivity before but at least I was going to work and not eating myself into oblivion. I was in relative decent shape before the lockdown. But since I've legit gained 10 pounds. All I do is lay around, fucking eat and watch TV, and most of the time I'm not even watching. The television is just on. More background noise than anything. My sleep schedule is completely fucked. I tried going to bed early last night and then found myself up at 1 am, eating of course, and awake until sunrise. Finally fell asleep shortly after sunrise and then I wake up and head straight to the fridge again.

I'm not far removed from a relationship -- a bad one with the living definition of an extreme narcissist of the highest order. Long story short we ended up parting ways (forever). At my request. I kicked her out. Which was great and I don't regret it (not her anyway) because she was about as shallow and empty of a human being that can exist, but now being at home alone during all this, I guess the loneliness has been...amplified? Again I wouldn't want to be with her if she was the last human on earth so it's not her that I miss but I guess just being in this apartment for long stretches with nothing but me now...idk the cabin fever is really starting to dominate and the prolonged stretches of just being face to face with myself and nothing but myself (and trust me I annoy myself more than I annoy you guys here and that's probably saying a lot lol) has been worse (way worse) than I thought it was going to be.

I gots to get outta this rut, man. I don't exercise anymore, I don't do shit, hell it feels like a workout and that it takes every bit of strength I can muster just dragging my pathetic self out of bed. It reminds me of my lowest point in life when I was back in my teens going into my 20's and I still lived at home with my parents and had no job and no girlfriend and all I did was stay up all night, get high, eat, and lay around all day like a fuckin bum





TLDR: Cabin fever has set in and being trapped at home with myself hasn't been...well let's just say it hasn't been the best

edit: God that was longer than I thought it was going to be, I would just read the TLDR, y'all have a swell day

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zZZz said:

Man I luv chicks

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The Chicken kind or the Human Kind

Sup y'all. On my work break, trying to conserve money by not going to 7-11 on every break. I'll save it just for lunch breaks. Im still pretty hungry thou. Hope y'all have a good nite tonight.

Got my vintage glass turkey baster in the mail yesturday. Its gonna be perfect for extracting DMT: Cant wait for the weekend.

R.I.P. Big Worm

tyrannicalrex said:

Just saw an owl in a tree in our back yard. Pretty good size one. Me and the mate are just having some drinks and chilling. Life is good. Hope you all are doing good too.

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Owls know what is going on
being awake at night and sleeping dreamless during the day is so much better

hope all you beautiful Shroomerites are having a good evening or a good day as applicable

Cosmic_Flame said:

You too Tantrika!

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LogicaL Chaos said:

zZZz said:

Man I luv chicks

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The Chicken kind or the Human Kind

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