Darwin23 said:

I'll tell you this: I have the word WEAK carved into my leg. I was totally isolated and felt completely rejected by society. I was so shy and socially anxious that I would spend over an hour responding to a text saying "How have you been?" I was a 25 year-old kissless virgin. I believed I would die from suicide and it's amazing that I didn't. I couldn't see a future for myself.

In 2018, I turned 26. I decided to let go. I traveled through 13 countries that year. I saved many lives in Venezuela by illegally shipping in medicine and food. I was banned from Venezuela. I snuck into Venezuela. Women seemed to be drawn to me and I became social, which I never thought possible. I fell in love and finally understood why everyone loves sex and relationships so much. I traveled solo through the Colombian Andes and through the Amazon rain forest. I've experienced things that seem so unreal, you'd think that I'm crazy. I took a flight to Guyana and then took a private plan to the Brazilian border and caught a ride into town. I met one of those third-world camgirls on MyFreeCams and we ended hanging out in Colombia. I traveled through regions that the US State Department labels as "DO NOT TRAVEL". I feel 50% reckless and 50% like some kind of spy or some shit.

Now, why I'm telling you all of this is because I felt a lot like you do, right now. I felt futureless, destined for loneliness, too broken to function in society, doomed to a life of failure and suicidal every single day. I didn't see ANY future for myself, let alone, a future that sounds like my unrealistic childhood fantasies. I have not thought of suicide in a very long time. I promise you, you will have a change happen. It might sound impossible, but it will happen.

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sui said:

Come hang with us at the gathering in Humboldt cheeze!

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OMGitsBigCheeze said:

I get no joy out of life, I have no friends and it feels like everyone in the world wants to attack me and watch me suffer and die.  Why shouldn't I kill myself?

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