So, i just wrote out some of my experiences and opinions on salvia - and dont know where to put them or what to do with them, so here, for you, right here - right now - some stuff:
My last experience only a week ago, i was on the verge of breakthrough and it felt as if my body was subjected to centrifical force inside a giant wheel ... and i just had to go along with it.
On new years i broke through hard on my 3rd inhale of 17x apperently i tried to make words and put on my slippers, then apperently i stood up, and was gently pushed down at which point my friend recalls me pushing down on his seated knee's so hard it felt like i was pushing his feet into the floor.
What did i see?
the world completely flattened - 2d. Then it was as if a tornado or giant vacuum was sucking everything up in tiles ... like shingles. The bottomside of a reality pannel was black and empty ready to be created anew at random when it landed (a recurring theme.) ... I too was flattened and scared for my goddamned subconscious life, and when the sucking got to me ... WOW. My physical - unaware body grabbed onto the first thing infront of me - his knee's and i grabbed on for dear life ... apperently fear triggered supernatural strength ... Anyways .. then things slowly came to normal and my friend who i was holding on to was now a blob instead of a 2d plane - he slowly esplained to me some of the situation and i made some noises .. and slowly gained coherency.
I also did it after drinking 3 caps of GHB ... I was immediately hurrled into absolutely oblivion, a swirling crazy fierce tunnel of sucking matter that didnt make any sense, and i close my eyes and rolled into a ball and tried to unzip my hoody, and then my socks .. and passed out for several hours after that. Bad combo .. i was almost G holing, so the pass out was nice.
My first experience is the big one. I was on 4 hits of acid and 2 hits of speedy e. We'd just tried smoking some unmeasured and apperently bunk salvinorin A .. and managed to find some 10x .. I could never ever have been prepared for what i experienced and i remember every detail absolutely perfectly - its fucked with my perception of things, the real "how things are". I was thrust into an intense body high, and then a giant wall of red sequenced tiles covered everything, then a giant hole ripped (a hole in reality) and my friend leaned in ... the hole sealed itself and his head stretched and came off ... then a processing machine began emerging out of the red space and came off ... attaching to the end of the machine, turning green and growing a beak. It began releasing blocks of something pez style. Everytime it would drop one of these blocks it would say something horrible about how i was just plugged in and completely fucked ... i got to peak behind the literal "system" into the programming of society ... and my friend the machine would tell me every horrible thing about it every time he spit out a block. I came to discover that the blocks were memories and images randomly pulled from my memory - reality blocks ... they were being processed on conveyour belt like machines. Oh, i forgot to mention the original machine had turned into millions as far the eye could see ... the more i stood there - Oh Yeah! i was completely lucid, completely immersed in the experience, i had a physical body and mind in the realm i was in and was free to explore COMPLETELY in my visual, I also viewed myself and my body - not only through my eyes, but from various vantage points around my body, and even around the realm. Anyways... Everytime these machines would process one of these blocks and drop it on the red ground, it would melt through into a predetermined human being ... fate, life, every decision, every action,every movement, emotion, suceess and failure, all programmed and just pumped out of a machine off to melt into reality as someone who thinks they have a life filled with free will and independence, Completely ignorant.
As the experience went on, the shock level lowered, and i regained curiosity as i came to some understanding of my situation, my curiosity led me to explore ... and it was quite disturbing the more i observed ... there were constant flashings of corporate symbols i couldnt recognize ... and everytime the pez face would mock me for knowing it all and being completley helpless it would wink at me. I got to ask someone questions, and the answers were grim. After i figured out my experience and came down, i felt like i was "brainwashed by a corporation" i said at the time. The experience would lead me to bleieve that all of reality is false .. just made up in some program and that we are all just put out by some company as consumers to keep the "programmers" in control and wealthy through their corporations placed in their reality game. I know i am completely helpless, and that there is nothing i can do ... its just the way things are - ive seen it, and i know it. THe only difference between me and most people, is that i came back with the knowledge. - scary stuff
NOW - very matrix huh? Well ... Id never seen the movie, nor did i know what it was about (yes, i shut myself off from the world, and didnt watch movies or have interest in anything.) Weird huh? When i did see the movie .. it shocked me, i was shaking and skipping breaths. Absolutely terrifying - it confused me so much that the movie was basically my trip.
A few weeks later i had a completely lucid dream where i was also plunged into something matrix like, and i had thought that i had worked myself into a DMT realm in my sleep. I had the bodily symptoms, and all the lucidity and dream-trip characteristics.
Anyways - im not sure what i believe, but i do believe that the salvia realm is much like many people speak of the dmt realm - Continuous. It is another dimension independant of ours, it occupies the same space, and our unconscious actions may even affect it, we just cant realize consciously. In this realm there are independant entities are existing and have their own form of what constitutes living in a much more advanced system than we do. Anyways, yeah .. after a fair try, i think salvia may be a continuous realm aswell.
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