I don't even want to fucking know what I've done to myself. I still have side effects from it (example: night sweats, that ONLY started after I started using it heavily). I didn't just take them on their own though, because on their own they didn't do much to me.. I chased them with a 12 pack of beer to 'kick them in'.
Sadly, I still want that shit. There is no 'high' like it. I reached a point where I was taking 32 every other day (because the high lasted well from one day into the middle of the next) but I spent countless months whacked out of my head on that shit.
One of the worst experiences I had, was after I was an hour or two into the peak and then total black out. I was sitting on my computer talking to a few people through AIM (yeah that long ago lol) and the next thing I know I'm 'coming to' like I had just got knocked the fuck out (groggy/drowsy, highly confused and have no idea what's going on) I look around and there is vomit EVERYWHERE. It literally looked like the exorcist.. It was on practically every square inch of couch I was sitting on, all down my shirt, in my lap, on the floor, covering the keyboard, on my computer screen.. Just everywhere. I don't know where it all came from because that much food cannot fit in a stomach and when I was on those I wasn't doing much eating anyways. The timestamp on the IM told me I had been blacked out for 2-3 hours, with everyone I was talking to freaking the fuck out (because they all knew what I was doing and that it was dangerous and that I suddenly just stopped talking which was unlike me.. I always let people know when I was going afk or away for the night).
You'd think that would be my line, that then I would go "Holy shit, it's time to quit this stuff".. But nope.. That was one of my first 10 trips or so. I wasn't at all phased by the fact that I very likely nearly died (ever try to sleep on the shit? It's impossible. So how did I just flat out pass out unless I was close to death).
CCC's are poison, teenager's crack. People really should be aware of the dangers. CCC's are a whole new level. It does NOT compare to DXM alone, but people (including me at one point) treat it as such.
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