I kind of have a problem with masturbating, I can go a day without it but i become very very manically depressed, and when Im of it I think about doing it but I honestly. I would do it even when my dick hurt and if I go days without it and do it, I would do it 4 times in under an hour with Porn. Always with porn... Idk When im at school I get random bonners and i have to avoid people n walk with my knapsack over myself, And I feel like such a fail when I masturbate at home after going days without it.
I dont want to live my life thinking its WRONG and ****, I used to do it so much and I went on my with my life but now Im just like if I do it, I feel mentally weak and I wont do anything that day, im worried about my health and i feel like im isolating when i ditch my friends and family to go relieve myself, i even sneak into the bathroom at my weekend job to jerk sometimes.
Any advice? I know everyone does it but they don't have the same after affect as me... It's just cause Im trying to beat an ADDICTION? God Im like confused.
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