ice had many experiences that wee spirtitual as some one say off of a thumbprint of L, Verry large geometric patterns such as revolving fan blades, towering up 1000s of feeet. during that time i realised that sellling drugs had possessed me, and the acid had possessed me in a sense that, it took over my thoughts. and the thoughts i would normallly have about my personallity had been gone for years. and i had only thought of things relating to tripping, and i have been consiously awkened all mylife. and i thought is that normally, my brothers and parents are not 'conciously awakened' about anything they just eat, sleep, and live normal lives. i felt like i was a victim of the forces behind tripping. I saw the history of tripping, and the 'trip world'. u know the state of mind when you are indeed triping. the world that mushrooms, LSD, 2cB, 2cI, DMT, all the phenythalamines, and the trptamines take us too.
I felt like it was alien to humankind and was unfolding everywhere around the world. i saw that some people never trip there entire lives and will never see the things i have seen, or never be able to discover the amazing nature of reality, how WE CONTROL OUR LIVES AND CREATE OUR REALITY. but that astonished me, i thought WHY ME. why do i have to come to thisinformation. then i thought information is just information...it cant harm anybody, its the way u perceive that information that fear comes in. I thought of alot of things in a short period of time. but the point i want to get across is how i felt that people will never trip there entire lives. I felt that was the true natural state i was supposed to be in. not constantly tripping and being less intouch with my world that my parents gave to me, and the path my parents want me to follw(get a job, goto school, get a career, have a family, raise ur kids welll). I felt lie i disrespected them. and they lvoe me and i nevr disrepect anybody in my lives buthtose in my family, by disappearing for years off on tours and tripping at various locations, and flying through many realities and dimensions and meeting people and becoming friendsa with people that my parents would probably be shocked or afreaid of if they saw them in public. I felt being sober was natural. and tripping was alien. people would be there own unique self than once they tripped they were launched into the collective reality of tripping, whcih is basically the same for evryone. they were subjected to the same trips and thoughts that i have went through (u knowhte astonishing, aha nowive got it" moments of ur trip) well i felt sorry and felt like i was feeeding these people there tickets to lose sense with the reality that there parents had given them.. i felt lie i was the force behind 1000s of peole entrance into the trip world (where they can be subjected to manythings that would alter brain cheemistry forever). I realised that wasnt my true self doing that and it was a possesion of LSD. the MIND of LSd. It tells u to spread this throughout mankind to save them and deliver them from evil. but tha is not true. it brainwashing people trippp and they feel the cosmos and oneness. But in reality WE ARE ALWAYS ONE. we are never disconected. therefore dont need to trip to feel like you are connected back to the ocean , the one, where evrything exist and nothing exists.
In Reality this world is an illusion....the point of spreading the L, is to allow people to see the errors in there whole life over again and be reborn. but why, i didnt like that mindset on this. i felt it was forceful. there was ssomany thoughts going on and relaizations i cant describe ijsut wantto post this and elaborate later on. But basically the way you thought before u tried drugs, saying drugs are bad. dont do them they make u loose touch with reality....i lived my whole life thinking fuck that thats a lie. and i relaised i abused the gift of trippng, by doing it excessivley.
Now i was thinking, "drugs ARE bad. woww what do uknow i was wrong this wholetime!" nobody neeeds them, ONEness would neeed somthing that would make them higher because oneness is already higher, and lower. oneness is everything and everything is an illusion. so if human kind was in a plight and LSD woud savethem,THAT would be an illusion.
the reason i was spreading what i was spreading was because i felt that people needed to experience this EGO DEATH, these trrips gave u. but after thinking of how my parents have never tripped. i realizeed peoples lives are controlled by tripping andd are obscurred from there normla path they would bbe folllowing.. im sorrry if this is not making any sense, i will edit it later. i just want u guys to check outhtis thumbprints impression it left onme, and peolpe tke thumbprints alotmore than u realised, in a two week time frame...oh cmon thats like eating 10 hits everytime you dosed which was every couple hours. people live in these worlds for months and months and it doesnt seem toend to great.
at one point nobody has tripped, whether they are young.
all i thought of was how much money can i make if i spend this much money on them, wat type of experiences will i have if i eatthat and that together, who can igive these too that will open there mind to the infinite, so on and sofforth but basically evrything that i thought of sumhow was caused from or revolved around 2c's, lsd,acid, rtripping , mushrooms, dmt,
and thats wen i realized that so many people dont trip and never have and never will come across anything that will make them trip..yet they can stillll functuion perfectly. The thing is once u give sumone wh has never tripped, a trip!, they are changed forever due tothe experience they have on that trip, and once sumone has tripped they nolonger are the same person they were before. and i thought of the thousands of people that have only tripped bc of me, or have trippd constantly bc of me, or have trippd and now are lost ina diluted reality oof drugs and tripping nuts and all that was thought during this overdose on 2cb...which aalso had my heart racing,i was sweating and took off my sweater, and my breathing was difficult and i couldnt think of anything.....all i could see is how everything is connected.
how I control everything in my life. People would walk up to me and say something and what i would see is ME making that person walk up to me and say what they said. i fellt like i controlled evrything that was happning to me. Like, when you look around you and see people jus chatting and walking around.. what i saw was me projecting that and everything that happened would be a result of my decision to do so. people would be talking to eachother i would be making them say the things they said back. i cant explain it but thats how i felt. i was literally seeing the control i havee in my life. which was everythingfg. i knew that everyone else has the same potential and onthere higher leveels abosulutley control everythng in there lives
i was floored at this point. in the sense that i could not think. i couldnt talk. the people around me
were starting to freak out bc i was look up to so highly, and here i was tripping so hard i couldnt be there for all the other people tripping at this event (which i usually am). and by that i mean, everybody is tripping or rolling and im either blowing people up with light shows or i am talking to people and were blowing eachother lids off with groundbreaking disccussions about life and people are mentallly zoooming through the cosmos, and if they start to trip abdly usually someone will find me and direct me to tham. and i talk them down to a nice, free flowing, let go of evrything, dont need to be holding back state of mind. but i was unable to even act like a 10 year old, i was acting like an infant....i couldnt talk, just mummer. i wouldnt even say things i was just sitting there eyes wide and my mouth on my lips feeling them, all i could see was how everything was connected. I was the universe. i know longer thought int he terms of I am tripping, I am hre at this party, i am sitting on a bed. I would be thinking in terms of me being the universe, i would think, "im the universe, im infinite, everyone is the universe, we are everything that has ever existed, everything that will ever exist, everything that is. Im an illusion.. the universe is an illusion. So how ever that person may be they will take that current state of being, and the outter world would change to a reflection of the current state of being. soo people would see demons or have a badtrip, or freakout and have a mind fuck if they were in a bad state of being. on the other hand if u were in a good stae of being than the trip would create the best realitty u could ever inmagine.. L has the power to make things better than u can imagine. and if ur in a good stte than ur reality will click in ways it didnt beorfre (in comes the synchronsosity, the symmetry, coincidences, good place at the right time situations happen) anyways basically my innenr self which was the little child who has nevertripped and jus wanted toplay and not worry about anything and not be subject to control came out and was changing my persepective onthe whole game.
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