So last night I decided to eat some Penis Envy shrooms that I had. I took a relatively small dose compared to what I am used to. I took 2.6 grams dry. I broke them up into small pieces and then powdered the best I could. I then poured some cranberry juice into the glass, let it sit, then drank. I refilled the glass to retrieve all the remaining powder and drank that.
Now last week (actually 6 days ago) I did kind of the same thing, but only put 2 grams in the glass. I then ate an additional 2 grams. Total of 4 grams. My biggest dose of shrooms ever. That night was amazing. Probably the best experience I ever had on mushrooms. Everything was right. We had some Floyd and Doors playing with G-Force visualizer going on the computer and tv, lit some candles, had some very deep conversation, played my guitar, and generally had a great night. My girlfriend who is new to taking shrooms had an intense but pleasurable experience. She kept saying things like "everything makes sense now", I wasn't sure what she was referring to, but she later explained that she had some very deep thoughts about her entire life up until now. She took a trip down the timeline of her life from being a child up until now. She says that she learned a lot that night about her life and what her purpose is here on Earth. I was thrilled that she had such a good experience. She felt the mushrooms were teaching her things and showing her things. She wasn't just looking at the pretty colors and trails, which there were plenty of. I believe those things are just a nice side effect of the true mushroom experience.
Anyway back to last night.
The night started off good. I started to feel effects about an hour to hour-and-a-half after consuming. The initial feelings were completely normal and expected. I was energetic, happy, very talkative. I wanted to listen to some music and play my guitar, so I did that. Me and my girlfriend then decided to smoke a small bowl and sit down on the couch and talk. She took 2 grams dry BTW. She wasn't quite at the level I was. My dose contained a few aborts which may have been pretty strong, I dunno. The trip wasn't as visual as last weeks. Instead I noticed much more of a mind-fuck. Thoughts were streaming in and out of my head so fast that I didn't have enough time to process them and get them out. I felt like I had to talk about what I was feeling but I just couldn't make sense of it all.
Now I noticed this time that my girl was being pretty quiet and a little withdrawn. I kept asking her if she felt OK and she kept telling me that she was fine, that she just wasn't feeling very talkative, just felt like thinking quietly to herself. I started to feel upset now. I don't know why. I think it was that I was on one level and she was on another. I began to get quiet too. This is not good for me. I had way too many thoughts going on. None of which I could make sense of. After sitting there on my couch feeling depressed for a while I had enough. It was time to get out of my head and into something else. Lord of The Rings: The Two Towers happened to be on TV so I thought we could watch that and hopefully get sucked in so I wouldn't be in my head so much.
Well that worked a little. Then I began to get emotional. I was feeling sad for the characters in the movie. I have seen this movie several times but this time it really sucked me in. I could sense the despair and it was getting to me, almost to the point where I wanted to cry, even though I knew it's just a movie, Frodo doesn't exist etc.
Well I stopped watching the movie and put on some stand-up comedy. Nice. I was starting to feel a lot better now. Laughter really is the best medicine. So I decided now that I was feeling better and it was time to get stoned and relax. BAD IDEA.
I packed a normal size bowl and topped it with a good amount of kief (spelling) I had sitting around. Fast forward to after the bowl was finished. I was laying on the couch and my heart started to go crazy, beating fast and erratic. I got nervous and called out to my girlfriend. She was on the kitchen floor basically unable to move. She told me that she all of a sudden felt weak in the legs and her stomach started turning so she just laid on the floor.
I felt the same way. I helped her up and she made it to the bathroom where she thought she might puke. I couldn't stand anymore so I just laid on the living room floor thinking bad thoughts in a cold sweat. I was thinking about going to the hospital, getting arrested, death and many more bad things. This is about 6 hours after eating the mushrooms. I think if we hadn't smoked the bowl with the kief then we would have just gone to sleep. After ten minutes of helping her to the bathroom she got up and I asked if she just wanted to go lay down in the bed. She did but she needed me to guide her, saying that everything was coming at her, visually, and she could barely see right in front of her eyes. Her trip was light up until now, according to her.
We both started to feel better after laying in the bed for a little. I expressed to her some of the feelings I had while I was unable to move. I was contemplating getting rid of anything illegal in my possession and stop doing drugs all together. I was feeling very paranoid and unsure about where my life was going. Now mind you that I believe I am pretty successful. I have a nice place, nice car, good family, get paid good money at my job, have an awesome dog that I love to death, overall I am satisfied with my life.
Question: Does it sound like I had a bad trip? Or were the negative, sickly feelings and thoughts caused by the bowl. I think that the kief was a little too much. Weed tends to cause anxiety for me sometimes, but never too bad. Not like this.
Question: Should I go with my gut instinct and remove all illegals in my possession? I was thinking yes.
Question: Has anyone else experienced something similar while taking shrooms and smoking?
I think if I take mushrooms again that I most likely won't smoke any bud or very little. I never thought that six hours after consuming that one bowl would do this to us. I think I had some kind of awakening or something about the power of some good bud and kief. Scary. I been smoking for about 13yrs and have eaten shrooms a dozen or more times. Never was anything like this. BTW Penis Envy are pretty potent compared to what I had before.
Well I have to go. I hope at least one person reads this and has something to say. Any feedback is appreciated. If you can help me make sense of last night that would be great. I am feeling pretty lost and confused right now. I never had a bad trip before. Not even sure if I had one last night. It was just way different than all my previous trips. Thanks for reading.
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