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emilbus
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I'm a loser (not a depressing story)
#7737052 - 12/09/07 03:08 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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i cant figure it out but in the past couple years Ive turned into a real loser. no one likes me, no one likes to work with me, and everyone gives me shit (not in a friendly way, more of a "your a loser so were gonna fuck with you", kind of way) i cant figure it out. when i was younger i always had friends. i wasn't popular or anything, i wasn't the main guy to call, but i always had some sort of friends. the shit is really starting to fuck with me. its on my mind constantly. the only thing i can think of is that i can be kind of annoying. i dunno..........
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737054 - 12/09/07 03:09 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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i'll be your friend, buddy.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737057 - 12/09/07 03:09 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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well at least you have your avatar.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737102 - 12/09/07 03:26 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Us losers have to stick together. Where abouts in texas are you?
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emilbus
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: Dreamer987]
#7737110 - 12/09/07 03:28 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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san antonio
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737196 - 12/09/07 03:54 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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whats up 210.
i'll be your friend i'm comin there in less than a week hopin to catch a spurs game..
get involved in some shit you like doin..
it's my understanding that when you get older you lose friends.. try to hang onto the ones you got now.. find a significant other ya know.. she should keep you occupied.
and also in the grander scheme..
are you successful?
people tend to want to hang out with successful people.
if you aren't successful in life, they will notice and not want to hang out with you. try to find a way to be successful.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: im_on_a_boat]
#7737236 - 12/09/07 04:04 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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my problem is i laugh at everyone thats in my life, coworkers and such. they are all fucking gay! they try too hard to be a south side thug that at one point in time sold coke. it seems like everyone i know are "gangsta's". they are all closed minded and kinda stupid. I'm a very dumb person, but i know what the fuck is going on and I'm not stupid. i think my anxiety gets in the way. I'm a real nervous person and i don't trust anyone. my face gets red and i sweat when all eyes are on me. when some one is talking to me my thoughts get all mixed up and i cant focus cause i get nervous. i start to think about all my flaws and i wonder if they are noticing my flaws while talking to me.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: trent]
#7737243 - 12/09/07 04:06 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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if everyone is giving you shit, and it really is bothering you, stand up for yourself... you can learn quite a bit about yourself during battle- its not all about winning, more about doing and all endurance.
guys tend to give people shit just to see how they take it. if you react in way that shows you hurt (even if you don't say anything your body language will give it away)- you'll get more shit, if you react in an aggressive way- you'll get shit only from people who like to fight (which actually isn't many (sober)people), if you just pay them no attention, ignore them- then who gives a shit what they think.
'shit' has never really bothered me so i really don't feel the need to do anything about it untill the shit turns to harassment; that tends to get me respect from the type of people i respect, for some reason i just don't really care how most people think of me, im definately an anti-social (or a loser in some eyes). Since your really not a 'winner' in the social game, and your lookin for a way to get respect from the type of people who like to give shit (do you really want aggressive/hurtful people to like you?) , then learn to fight- this may seem simple minded (it really is) but the typical man respects a man who doesn't take shit.
this is bothering you for a reason, in the long run you'll suffer more from letting shit bother you your whole life than losing a few fights (its better than bottleing up a bunch of aggression and turning into a serial killer )
also why do you think you get annoying?
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: im_on_a_boat]
#7737245 - 12/09/07 04:06 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Find a new niche. I bet you're surrounded by people that you really don't like in the first place. If the only people that you're dealing with in your daily routine are asswhipes, then you're probably not going to have much fun.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737254 - 12/09/07 04:08 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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That's probably because you're trying to make friends with tards and you don't associate well with tards. That and a combination of getting older makes you have less friends. Also, friends aren't as easy to make like they were in school, because you're not always around a massive crowd of people your age group. Get a hobbie that you can share with someone, that's probably your best bet in developing a friendship.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: SurReality]
#7737266 - 12/09/07 04:12 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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ya alot of my friends are into the gangsta thing... i still want to hang on to them, and hope to meet more interesting people when i go off to college... in the mean time, i just relate to people through smoking weed, and try to listen more than talk, since people tend to not get the things that interest me.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: SurReality]
#7737392 - 12/09/07 05:02 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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i know how to fight, Ive been fighting since the early years. after fighting so much i was interested in the actual art and started learning the art of Jiu-Jitsu, but this ended real quick cause this was about the time i found the love of drug's, i was only training for about a year. yeah, my life does consist of tards. my chick has 7 brothers which are all "gangstas" and all their friends are "gangstas", everyone at my work are "gangstas", everyone in my apartment complex are "gangstas". me, I'm just a goofy mother fucker that doesn't give a fuck and has probably done more and been through more then any of these gay mother fuckers. as far as my work goes i just try to keep my mouth shut cause i don't want it to escalate into something more and then me possibly losing my job. also, I'm not dumb but i am kinda stupid and i think my main prob is if i get into it, not physicaly, I'm going to come out even dumber then what i appear to be. also everyone knows I'm into acid and shrooms and they all consider me as a "druggie". they are closed mined when it comes to this subject. half of them don't even know what shrooms or acid really do.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737406 - 12/09/07 05:07 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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sounds like you need to get out of your current environment ,and start kickin it with people that like the same shit you do.
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emilbus
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: Jive turkey]
#7737412 - 12/09/07 05:10 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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yeah, im trying this and it doesnt seem to be working. people just really dont get off to me. i think im a dork that has done a lot of fucked up shit and gets fucked up.
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: emilbus]
#7737432 - 12/09/07 05:17 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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nah I think you'll find cats of the same element and be alright. I'd stay away from the cats that give you shit and put you down all the time no one needs to be in a negative environment ,just start going to festivals with a large sign that says; " I'm weird and I do drugs, who wants to hangout?"
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: Jive turkey]
#7737517 - 12/09/07 05:42 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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well first of all man i think alot of what your thinking is just in your head.
life treats you the way you feel about it. depending on your perception of yourself and life, life will treat you accordingly.
obviously you dont have much self-esteem and too much self worth or value, and that is sad man.
you need to change the way you think. calling your self a loser and dumb and shit can only lead to negative things man think about it. the universe always gives you what you want. you want to be happy? the universe will give you what you want. you want to be mad, go ahead, because the universe will give you what you want.
you need to value yourself. do you have ne hobbies? or do yuo just sit around and watch tv and/or sit on the computer ALL THE TIME? if so then your not doing much with your life, your not progressing as a person, you are not trying to be the best you can be.
so many people fail to see that their view of the world is a confession of charachter. change your perception on life and about yourself. dont beat yourself up all the time with negativity because what do you think you will get in return? a bunch of positive experiences and shit, fuck no man.
your life is in your hands. you make the choices. the way you make the choice to veiw yourself as worthless, a loser, dumb or whatever, creates conditioning for yourself. you are conditioning yourself to think your a loser by the way you think, and the more you do this, the more downhill you will go man, life is all about your perception. and the more you condition yourself this way the harder it will be to break out of this when your completely fed up, and onto contemplating suicide.
you are blessed man, believe it or not. you have gifts just like me, and everyone else on this earth, you just ahve to search for them and genuinly try to discover them.
iguess what im trying to say in a nutshell is, IT IS ALL IN YOUR HEAD. change the way you think about yourself and your life and just watch how your life will begin to lighten up and blossom....
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Re: I'm a loser (not a depressing story) [Re: hoopershroomer]
#7738825 - 12/09/07 11:33 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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listen to hoopershroomer, he knows his shit
just outa curiousity, What do you think of the people you get your acid and shrooms from? if you relate to them try getting to know them better...
cuz i get shrooms from some tweaker, and only know him for the business- i'd never go boomin with him (every time i walk in that damn tweaker den, i think fuck this is the last place im eating these) but kids i gotten cid from i can relate to and trip with them- one time i took 2 blotters and distributwar took 1 (the person he got em from said they were very strong - they were to) after laying by a creek for a few hours and we decided to walk back to the truck i had the end of the peak in sight i remember him sayin "wow you really know how to get the most out of tripping, and im just like your 'peon'" i replied "naw man your nothing of a 'peon,' id say your my hallucinogenic... ummm 'interin'" and the name 'hallucinogenic interin' actually stuck 
lol so we may have been ditching school but he still learned some things...
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