i have tripped 4 times now and all but one of my experiences has sucked. the first time i tripped i took some mushrooms that might have been liverty caps but i'm not sure. i ate the 5 grams gradually and was catapulted into a very pleasant but intense trip... after a couple hours the trip's intensity became overwhelming and i felt i needed to "go home." the second time i dosed with what i KNOW was cubensis. i initially ingested 3.5 grams as i had learned that 5 was a little too much for me. i waited for about 20 mins and nothing happened, i became overeager and frustrated deciding that my shrooms were "bunk" or that i had stored them poorly and their hallucinigenic properties had deteriorated. anyway by the time an hour had passed i had injested by entire sack which was a wopping 10 grams. there was no "come up" for the the trip it hit me all of a sudden and when i started hallucinating i knew right away that i had overdone it. the same sensation to "go home" kept eating at me and when i finally got picked up by my mom i felt much better. my third experience i munched the same cubensis shrooms and ate an eighth of an ounce along with a tablet of ecstacy, the brand: triple-stacked yellow dolphin. anyone who knows anything knows that the brand name is nothing and you never know what you're getting, but this tab was giant and i had high expectations. i ate the fungus and then went to see scoobie doo. i ate it on an empty stomach but the naseau got to me right away for some reason. unlike my first experience, these latter experiences with the cubesis mushrooms started off very uncomfortably and i was quite anxious. after sitting in the theatre for about 45 mins i was scared shitless, i wanted to go home- but i knew better this time. instead, i ate the tab and upon leaving the theatre i immedietly felt relief. we went to some forest where after calming another friend who was having a bad trip, we actually enjoyed ourselves and talked about old times and friends. i think the tab had made me feel much better. but after about an hour and a half of good trippin' things went wrong AGAIN. i wanted to "go home." i begged my friends to let me call my parents and endure the humiliation, but they urged me not to. finally we got a friend to drop by with his truck and take me home. as soon as i got in that truck i decided not to go home and i decided what caused these bad trips. BOREDOM. the feeling of utter uselessness. i didn't need to go home. sure i had problems with my parents but i'm a strong person when it comes to my emotions and i definetely had them in check during all the experiences. the simplicity of the problem and it's answer was mind boggling. whenever i got in a car or walked from one place to another i felt better. ANYWAY once i got in the truck the E took full swing and i realized that my tablet had some meth on it. i was charged and everything was surging. i was gritting my teethe and shaking my hands and looking completely fucking amped. the mushrooms were lingering and i watched the EXTREMELY vibrant floor breathing. things were beautiful and i loved life. i loved my friends and i was truly greatful that they had helped me. my last expereience was more of a buzz type thing. and it occured just yesterday. i was scared of the mushrooms now, and so i took .75 grams and i felt threshold effects (if any at all.) i felt no anxiety, my pupils became slightly dialted, my eyes became slightly bloodshot, and i was cheerful and enjoyed laying my head against the table and staring at details (although they were in no way morphing or doing anything out of the ordinary.) anyway, here comes the QUESTION part: HOW DO I GET THINGS TO MORPH!?! i want to see little elves and purple hippos but i have failed-even with the humongous dose of 10 grams dried. is this something that is only achievable in the realms of LSD. GOD! I FEEL LIKE I'M TAKING CRAZY PILLS!
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