Asante said:
Bill_Oreilly said:
Asante said: It was enough.
It was worth a small fortune against today's rates - but I don't taint my hands with drug trades or illegal give-aways.
A few days ago, after a 2 month break, I had the perfect MXE experience.
I completed the cleanse which i started entheogens for, back in 1993, with that final session.
My Spirit Guide asked me to make the ultimate sacrifice and flush all my MXE, my O-TCE, 3-MeO-PCP and related analogues and to close that chapter of my life, and not give it away to anyone but God (so, sacrifice it, not pass it on to another user.)
I did.
Trigger warning: approximately 10 ounces of MXE, 1 ounce of O-TCE, half an ounce of 3-MeO-PCP and some bips and bobs.
I always knew that dissociatives weren't gona last forever, that it would be mushrooms before and after.
Today was the day to turn to that new chapter.
This conculudes the 8 year love story of Asante & Dissociatives.
Oh boy was it good, but better things await in sobriety.
While they have been an invaluable Teacher, I have outgrown their assistance and will no longer be calling on them in life. It is a happy parting.
The Medicine cured me - If you got the message, hang up the phone.
Wow this is shocking. Good for you for acting with your heart but I'm just saying I flushed 80 hits of acid, a gram of MXE, mescaline hcl, 4-aco-dmt, hash oil, and DMT. I regretted it later so I really hope you don't. I was in a psychosis when I did it. I hope you really know what you are doing.
I could of used a little mxe...it literally made me feel like a new man from just one line of it and it lasted 3 weeks. It's literally a depression killer.
Bill, as you know partying too hard around newyears ended me up on the psych ward for a week and a half. Your decision to flush was made when psychotic, and I recall I tried to stop you, to urge you to park it with a friend until you were dead sure. (I believe that was you, that time)
I had not used anything for 2 months, then used a low dosage regimen and the meditative force was such that it propelled me into an Enlightenment experience.
I have developed such meditative fortitude that combining my efforts with a dissociative can tear up my sanity.
It didnt this time, on the contrary. My decision to stop was taken in heightened sanity.
MXE has been Santa's little helper but Santa has developed such fortitude in his pace that the little helper is slowing him down
I'd take these 20-30 hour meditations twice a month and spent so much ime recovering and preparing for these ordeals, I got so battle hardened by 4 years of this that I can poke holes in my sanity with willpower alone. If I didnt go temporarily psychotic until the Elves pissed in my eyes it wasn't challenging enough If I didnt astral project out-of-body while wide awake with open eyes in a lit room, if fell short of the mark.
When you got the message, hang up the phone.
My sober meditations get me high enough and my high meditations get me, well too high.
At some point, bear in mind Bill, you're risking your sanity for real - actually might end up for weeks or months on a ward - and that just isn't worth it, especially if you have a life with attributes where you'd be missed and worried on for the duration, like you and I do.
For once I'm going to heed He-Man's advice and I'm gonna quit while I'm ahead.
For you and those mourning the loss of the epic stash, heed this:
There is a dissociative out there, that is very available even in kilo quantities, that is about 85% as good as MXE, comparable with O-PCE (its actually O-TCE) in neffects and duration, that DOES have the 3 week antidepressant effect, which is active in smaller doses than MXE (about 10x as potent as ketamine) and which is extremely researched by science in a staggering number of animal species. It is the veterinary drug Tiletamine, which is part of the veterinary anesthetic Telazol. Telazol has too much benzo additive, but Tiletamine can readily be had in legitimate international trade, all it needs is a diphenhydramine tablet to prevent nausea and smoothen the mindset, and with a 5-25mg dose you are rocking and/or rolling and you'll get the 3 week antidepressant effect to boot. Tiletamine has an incredibly shit reputation, but if properly used with pre-medication of diphenhydramine it is undeserved, and its literally up for grabs and not a RC but an actual pharmaceutical extensively used since the 70s or so, one of the BIG FOUR Parke-Davis Dissociatives (PCP, Ketamine, PCE and Tiletamine) and with K the only one still in practical use today.
I'm with you brother. You know what you have to do. Sobriety is the end goal and always should be for everyone. I hope to be totally off everything someday. Youre very inspiring, Asante. One love
-------------------- Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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