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Almost at the end of my trip. Hard to type right now.
Everything just makes sense for some reason. Everything feels great.
Feels like I just took a month long vacation in the span of 4 hours. Kind of sad that it's over but I've learned a great deal from this experience.
Method,
- Roughly 3.5g dehydrator dried B+ that I grew myself.
- Made tea with it. Grounded using Mortar & Pestle, placed into water that had just been boiled (let it sit for 15-20 minutes), and then strained through coffee filter. Added in Bigelow's Lemon and Ginger Tea.
Here is a timeline of my experience,
12:00 PM - Drank ~3.5g B+ Tea and started watching Interstellar.
12:30 PM - Feeling heavy and disoriented. Trying my best to concentrate on Interstellar and at the same time decided to just let go. I found Cooper's father-in-law, Donald, to be rather hilarious.
1:00 PM - Not as heavy as before but more disoriented. Visuals started to kick in. At this point, I'm lying in my bed with my cats going back and forth between my ceiling, Interstellar, window, etc. Started to look at my hand and arm, noticing that I've aged and the wrinkles are more so visible now than ever. Started touching my face with my fingers, everything felt fairly foreign.
1:30 PM - Watching a movie was a no go at this point. My ceiling was emitting some heavy visuals. Colors, sound, light, etc everything felt magnified. I managed to pause the movie but the silence made me feel uneasy, therefore I decided that something has to play in the background. Went to the bathroom to take a piss. Looked in the mirror and saw myself but not myself? I looked ugly and worn out. Didn't like what I saw and asked myself, is this what I've been going out in? Wasn't angry or sad but more of a realization.
2:00 PM - Letting my mind do whatever the hell it wants at this point. I felt that everything was right and wrong at the same time. Pondering on the duality of it all. Everything is flowing and that this flow is all that matters. It felt powerful. Like, I could do anything.
2:30 PM - Noticing the warmth from the light coming in from the hallway outside my room. Looking back towards my window and noticing the cold and cloudy weather. I kept looking back and forth between the warmth and the cold. Thought to myself, this is what warmth feels like. Everything started to feel extremely cozy, as if I was experiencing Christmas for the first time. Talked to my sleeping cats but they paid no mind to me.
3:00 PM - Feeling really really relaxed. Everything is flowing and making sense. Felt like I could take on the world. Changed the movie to Fantastic Beasts, which was great but I also didn't want it to end. Decided to play it from the beginning. Looking at my clock thinking that this trip feels like it's been going on for days.
3:30 PM - Feeling Euphoric and in a dream world. Went to go take a piss again. Looked in the mirror for the second time. Still didn't like what I saw. Need to change this. Waving my hand and arm while walking back to my bed to lie down. Thinking that this flow is the answer to everything. I suddenly understood "something."
4:00 PM - At this point, I'm looking at my clock and wishing time would go slower. I don't want it to end. I want this feeling forever. Thought about some of my problems or issues in life but all of that felt pale and distant compared to everything in this world and universe. All my problems are in my head.
4:30 PM - Starting to feel somewhat normal and sad that I'm being thrown back into reality. Doing my best to remember everything that I've experienced but that would be madness. It's like there were answers everywhere and trying to stuff them into a little bag is futile. Looking forward to going outside and taking a trip to a restaurant for some food. It feels like experiencing everything for the first time.
5:00 PM - Almost back to normal. Got into my car and started driving. Road seems a lot longer than usual. The euphoric feeling is starting to fade piece by piece.
This whole experience felt like a dream. It's tough trying to remember everything but I think that I got a jist of it.
What I got out of this? I felt like the mushroom/dream state is how I should be feeling daily. Euphoric, happy, and warmth everywhere. Everything felt interesting and I was looking forward to doing everything. How do I go about incorporating this feeling into the real world? That I'm not sure of. The mirror (my reflection) told me that I've been neglecting myself. I've known this for a while but not to this extent. Overall, the experience was very very positive albeit feeling a bit sad that it is over.
Edited by Subshroom (11/13/18 06:43 PM)
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