Hello shroomers, glad the forum has recovered. I want to share my hardest (but still best) trip experience on acid. It happened a few years ago so part of the memory is vanishing, but i still keep in mind a vivid image of the crazy visuals and spiritual feeling of it.
Substance: LSD (Lab tested), (teacher gaze blotter from notorious source) Dosage: Supposed blotter dosage was 150ug but lab test shown a hot spot on tab from same sheet. A tab was tested at 168ug, but i suspect that the one that sent me in the caleidoscope was higher. Set: 2018 New Year illegal rave party in abandoned factory
Me and friend decided to travel half of our planet to join the new year rave party After a few months iatus due to have a broken foot i dropped a tab at about 1.30 am. The onset was quite usual, with giggling and butterflies in my stomach, until i felt the needing to lay down. Not that i felt bad, but this was quite strange for me as i always feel very stimulated when on acid. I went out from the building and lying down, maybe i closed my eyes but i'm not even sure, then the visuals started. They weren't usual visuals, where trails, fractals and morphing are enveloped in the shape of real things, possibly deformed; this time my whole vision was enclosed in a dome, whose surface was entirely covered of this kind of mandala fractal-like image, and i couldn't see anything else. I want to spend a few words on its design: the overall shape looked like a mandala, but this shape enveloped a swarming of fractal-like shapes that moved and flowed to the center of the mandala. the prevalent colour was a emerald green, but also other cool colours were present. At some point the 'dome' started to communicate with me. It didn't really talk but i perceived it as a conversation that could be translated in words like: - The Dome: <<hey, can you see all this?>> - me <<yeaahh>> - Dome <<And what about?do you like it?>> - me <<yeah, cool, very cool>> - Dome <<Well, THIS is the representation of the elegance of Cosmic Order*, and YOU are part of it. So MELT in it>> (not sure order is the correct word, maybe arrangement is more proper...it seemed to be related somehow with phisics)
when the Dome said 'MELT' i felt that i was 'fractally melting' in the fractal shapes enveloped in the big mandala. I know 'fractal melting' doesn't make sense, but i can't imagine a better expression for that: i phisically felt my body (starting from fingers) melt in the shape, and saw (though not looking) my body become a fractal. For a short (short? dont really know how long it lasted, seemed short) while also wasn't completely aware of my body...
During the melting a girl who was in our group (though i don't consider her a friend, quite a dumb girl i'd rather avoid) came to wake me honking that she was 'soooo high' (she had 1/4th of a tab from that batch) and the vision vanished. After that the trip become a standard strong trip, with visuals, head space, stimulation, empathy and euphoria lasting about 12 hours more, but didn't came back to the Cosmicaleidoscope, and never happened again since then.
What seem strange is also that i'm not the kind of 'new age guy' in awe with buddhist imagery and so on. I just had this vision, and it felt very spiritual, as the dome voice was some God tring to explain it in a scientific point of view, as if the beautiful shape was at same time a mapping of the deepest of laws of phisics and a representation of the Divine project underlying.
A few questions: have you ever had a similar experience on LSD? is this the ego death/dissolution? do you think it was due to a higer dosage than usual? what dosage range take you there? i usually take (reliable) 150ug as my honey dose, do you think there was a very strong hotspot or is it possible to experience such a different trip with comparable doses?
AND MOREOVER: I never went there before nor after, and start thinking it was a one time blessing. Do you think it's possible to end there in a future trip?
thanks for reading and for the answers greetings
iggyhiggy
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I see there are kind of Trip Level in the trip report page. I never heard of such a classification. Is it a 'shroomery standard' or is it more generally accepted (i mean in the psychedelic community)? reading their description, is the 'Cosmicaleidoscope' to be considered a level 5 Trip? It mostly fits in the 5 definition (loss of visual connection with reality, senses ceasing to function in the normal way, loss of ego, merging with universe, universe within which things are normally perceived, ceases to exist, difficulty to explain...), but lasted very short. Also, seem strange to me that it's possible to reach that with a relatively small amount of acid
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