I had been lookin forward to this day for a throughout my whole work week. I was gonna trip with one of my firends that i usually trip with on my day off. So the day came around and that morning i saw my step dad and one of the worst things that could of happend , happend - he said "hey your done with all the shrooms and stuff now huh, ur clean?" i said yea "he said yea thats good cuz if ur mom were to find out about that shed prably kik u out, so thats good".
I went and picked up my friend he lives a city over. one the way back to my area, we picked up a sack and started eating the shrooms (3.5 grams each) while we were driving, its about a 10 min drive from when i started eating them until we would reach our destination. i knew this. i also knew that it was 1:30 in the afternoon and i hadent eatin all day so it would hit me quikly and i also knew that by chewing on and rolling them around under my toungue would make them hit even faster but i was like fuk it hell yea. by the time we got to the tripping spot, i was trippin.
my friend wasent feeling it yet, we usually hella chop it up to when we trip but this time we were silent. I couldent get wat my step dad said off my mind. Even though im 18 , im livin in my moms house still and she really dosent want all the drugs comin in an out. we started walkin around this lagoon on a trail. and iw as havin a bad trip i jus wanted it to end . i was seein hella colorful visuals but i was jus havin a very bad time and i began to get the feeling that if we kept walkin around like that, wed get caught up. So i was trippin hella hard and i had 2 decisions i could make : - continue trippin outside and prably get caught up. -take ur friend home and go to one of ur good folks houses to chill in saftey
so i said "hey sry man is it cool if i take u home , im jus really havin a bad trip" he said "yea sure its all good" we got into my car and i began the struglle to drive while trippin. it took a lot of concentration . i jus flat out told my friend the situation :
"im trippin hella hard right now. No, im not alright to drive, who the fuck do u think i am -are u crazy? I just dont have a choice. Just keep an eye out and make sure i dont hit nuthin, and if u see five O dont make a big deal about it NEVER do that to someone while theyre trippin - emotions intesify ; just say the direction they are in calmly and casually."
once i told him the situation, he understood a lil better wat was goin on, at this point he was trippin and hes not very experienced with hallucinagins. I tried to get him to tell me some off the hook funny stories which lasted a lil bit. and it worked.
I made it; i dropped him off. On the way back i was laughing at the lack of control i felt over the situation, it was all i could do. Maybe it was the shrooms makin me crazy.
The house i went to was were some of my smoker friends live who are former shroomers, i figured theyd b jus like yea sit down smoke and chill, but instead they were wierded out by me. i Came in talkin and moving hella fast, i was hella red, and i was lookin crazy. I still smoked and then took 20 mgs of valium which really calmed me down too. However ill never go to ne one when im having a bad trip again, ill jus go somewhere to be alone and wait it out.
The insight i felt i gained from the trip was that i was thinkin i spend too much of my money/do too many drugs. that was about 3 days ago, today im still smokin weed, but the insight is still with me, im slowing down i think. But when i have bad trips , like this - i dont consider them bad when its over, its a lesson learned.
i was jus hi ,bored ,and thinkin about my trip so i wrote about it.
-------------------- "So take my advice and dont quit. Cuz if u do, you wont get shit - bitch! "
-Too Short
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