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 sirreal
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 Trip report.108 grams! 
#1348877 - 03/03/03 09:20 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yesterday I ate 108 fresh grams and had the most humbling experience of my life!
At one point it left me on the floor raving like a lunatic. During one point I found myself sitting in my computer room speaking complete nonsense to an empty chair.
Time would freeze and everything would become sheets of glass . Some layers of what I was seeing would move while others remained frozen. Every sound became an echo in my mind. Everthing pulsated. Everything bled. Spots of color would rupture from everything. The hallucinations were more intense than I thought possible! It was...to say the least.....overwhelming.
It was a good trip that went bad in a good way. Only those who have been there will know what that means. I experienced ego death, I believe.
I ate the shrooms (Thai lipa) at about 8:00 A.M. and was already feeling it at 8:15.
I started having serious hallucinations ( eyes open or closed) at about 8:30. After that I completely lost track of time.
The physical intensity during the first part of the trip would become unbearable at times. During these times is when I would find myself on the floor crying out to noone that I could not handle it. I felt like an organism overcome by a cold and dispassionate pleasure.
The best way that I can describe it is that I felt like I was trapped in pleasure. A cold , harsh, very non-human pleasure. During these times I would look at my hands and my fingers would look like short swollen stubs of flesh.Physically I felt crippled. I felt like I was being raped! Not sexually , mentally. Cold harsh pleasure. During this phase of the trip I felt like my humanness was being torn away from me. It was a struggle that, for awhile anyways, I lost.
I am not a weak person and am not used to feeling this way. It was a major blow to my ego. At the time I thought I was a goner.
I also became insane after a while. I could not put any complete thoughts together. I would talk to the air and experience realisations that were so real to me at the time. I remember feeling like I could never again not know what I knew at that moment.
I felt like I had come to an understanding and would never be able to come down. I thought it was the understanding making me high. The understanding had something to do with a different reality that made this one come to a halt and seem to be on the brink of shattering. I learned something but I am not sure what.
The second part of the trip was when I truly suffered. The hallucinations began to get creepy. My dog looked like he was made of amber colored glass. He is a poodle and very small. He had to go pee and was whining real loud to get outside. I was afraid to let him out. I was terrified that he would fall down the stairs and shatter into a million pieces. He also looked like he had many sets of eyes set deep in his furry little head and I could not bear to look at him. He finally urinated on the floor.
Things would sometimes blink in and out of existence. My dog would be sitting beside me one minute and then I would blink and he would be gone.
My skin had the texture of maggot flesh. My short stubby fingers would writhe and wriggle just like little maggots. I could not stomach to look at myself or anything around me anymore so I closed my eyes. with eyes closed I could see 3 dimensional patterns of grids that had what seemed to be a fungus growing through them. It seemed very real.
After about 8 hours I started coming down. During this time I experienced such profound confusion that I thought I had been left retarded. I felt overwhelming dispair. Then after about another hour or so I started to become capable of putting my thoughts together and started feeling pretty good.
What happened to me yesterday was so profound and so utterly meaningless at the same time that I don't know if I will ever understand it.
I know that after I have thought about this for awhile I will have to do it again one more time. I feel like I missed something that I should have gotten hold of.
Take my word for it. Don't think you can fuck around with real high doses without getting your ass whipped. I don't know if it would be like that everytime, But I was definately humbled yesterday.
I have a stronger respect for the mushroom now. It can be merciless.
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Edited by sirreal (03/03/03 09:45 PM)
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 Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1348942 - 03/03/03 09:58 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Holy shit that's a lot! Did you have any troubles ingesting 108 grams and it seems you avoided any nausea?
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sirreal
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: Sheepish]
#1348947 - 03/03/03 10:02 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Amazingly I had no nausea. And I don't really mind the taste. A little bitter. After about the third mouthful it did start to get a little strong though. But I was so geeked about eating that much I really didn't notice. If I ever do it again I will not be that anxious. I will be much more deliberate .
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1348988 - 03/03/03 10:43 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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You'll be trying to decypher all that information for awhile.
Good report!
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sirreal
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You'll be trying to decypher all that information for awhile.Good report!
I am sure of that. Thanks.
I want to add to this something my sister said to me when I told her about my trip.
She said that when I was feeling that "inhuman" pleasure during the most intense part of the trip, It was like the mushroom was trying to give me pleasure but what it gave me was its own version of pleasure. Pleasure not affected by my human conscience.
I am not saying that is what was happening, But it is a good way to describe it.
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Learyfan
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1349297 - 03/04/03 07:55 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wow. Cool trip report.
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: Learyfan]
#1349415 - 03/04/03 08:28 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Cool trip!
I have never tripped on a high dose because I'm scared i will do dangerous things etc. I will only trip on a high dose(for the first time) if i have a sitter so I'm safe and feel safe.
Were you alone while tripping? and how safe is it to trip alone on a high dose?
I have some experiences with a friend who tripped really hard(level5+) on only 2g dried cubensis. While peaking he threw a glass on the floor and me and a friend(also tripping) needed to clean all the broken glass parts. A few minutes later he started trowing an as-tray around the room. He was totally out of mind/body/whatever and he doesn't remember what he did while tripping..... This is the reason why I'm a bit scared for high doses because i never want to act like he did. Has anyone experienced the same on such a low dose? 
Edited by Annom (03/04/03 08:29 AM)
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motaman
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1349452 - 03/04/03 08:40 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wow thats one hell of a dose... and very good description......
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sirreal
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: Annom]
#1349474 - 03/04/03 08:48 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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yes annom, I was alone.
I never fully lost conciousness, Although I came close a few times. The only damage I did was to my self. I clawed my face at one point when the trip was at its most intense and I felt I could no longer take the pleasure/pain. Minor scratches but kind of scary none the less.
When I became detached from myself and would talk to the air I had no control over what I was saying . During these moments I felt close to unconciousness.
At times I would laugh so hard that I would salivate all over the place without caring. During these moments I would come close to losing conciousness.
I think that when I do it again I will plan it a little better. Looking back I see that there were times when I could have lost it completely. I really do not know what could have happened .
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At last you know what the ineffable is and what ecstasy means. Ecstasy! The mind harks back to the origin of that word. For the Greeks ekstasis meant the flight of the soul from the body. Can you find a better word than that to describe the bemushroomed state? In common parlance, among the many who have not experienced ecstasy, ecstasy is fun, and I am frequently asked why I do not reach for mushrooms every night. But ecstasy is not fun. Your very soul is seized and shaken until it tingles. After all, who will chose to feel undiluted awe, or to float through that door yonder into the Divine presence?
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1352739 - 03/05/03 01:06 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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holy shit, 108 grams, thats a fuckin lot. Reading level 5 reports makes me not want to get up that high. You get too fucked up for your own good. Shrooms arent ment to be abused, they can really kick your ass severely. The highest i ever got was like a level 4 trip and it was really intense, i could feel my ego starting to go. I dont care to get any higher then that. good report thou dude!
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1352887 - 03/05/03 02:07 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Interesting Report.
I will never understand why people want to push the limit on these things, but to each his own.
Best of luck in your future experiments.
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: OKKuato]  1
#1354034 - 03/06/03 05:22 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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I will never understand why people want to push the limit on these things, but to each his own.
There are no limits.
I know that may sound a bit trite, but it is true.
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I may not always tell the truth, but atleast I'm honest
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I see what everyone is saying. It is so hard to form an opinion when you see both sides so clearly!
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1354160 - 03/06/03 06:20 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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thats right there are no limits. if youre inexperienced then i wouldnt recommend attempting a level 4+ trip without a sitter.
NOTHING compares to level 5 mushrooms trips, nothing i, or anyone else says will prepare you for it. only you will know if you want to venture that far.
-mike
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: mikey_]
#1354539 - 03/06/03 08:35 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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WAS THAT A WET OR DRY DOSE .
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Annom
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: growmore]
#1354550 - 03/06/03 08:39 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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fresh = wet
so he ate wet shrooms....
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1354632 - 03/06/03 09:11 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wow!! Thats real crazy man! Pretty brave to eat that much mush, I think I would be too scared for that much! Someday I want to eat alot(not that much though), but that wont happen untill I think im ready for it.
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Swami (I think) posted a great thread a while back that was a bunch of quotes from various trip reports. They all started out pretty much like 'Last night I ate an insane amount of shrooms' and they all ended pretty much like 'I will never eat another shroom again'. Be sure you are ready to pay the price for your experience, be it good or bad.
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Are There Limits? [Re: sirreal]
#1354973 - 03/06/03 11:46 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Maybe I'm a cynic, but I think there are limits.
Level 5 trip = all loss or recognition of reality. How you go beyond all loss or recognition of reality is something I don't understand. Yes, it is true that there is no limit to the number of shrooms you can eat, I'm sure someone could eat 108g DRY if they wanted, but once reality is bye bye, where else can you go? Of course, the more you eat, the longer the level 5 will last, but it is still a level 5.
However, what I meant by "the limits" had more to do with safety then how much someone was fucked up. Anyone can get ripped by eating a lot of drugs, but only people who use their heads stay safe. When I was younger, I used to have the "fuck safety" attitude, and would eat MAD drugs to see how fucked up I could get. But now, having a bit more experience, I've learned that the best psychedelic adventures for me are when I'm someplace very comfortable and with people I respect and trust. The amount of the drugs is secondary to these other factors.
This is not a disrespect to sirreal, as he seemed to be using his head, but things just got a bit out of control at times . . . it happens.
I'm all for people trying different things and pushing the limits on their own experiences, I just would only do it in a VERY controlled environment. As soon as I have to worry about things like taking the dog out for a piss, the environment is beyond my control, and when I'm really fucked up, any little issues like that, no matter how trivial they seem when sober, can lead me down the road of anxiety and in my opinion, anxiety is one of the precursors of being out of the safe zone.
Keep on partying brothers and sisters.
Peace
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1355585 - 03/06/03 06:10 PM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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Edited by TheHateCamel (12/05/07 09:34 PM)
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Re: Trip report.108 grams! [Re: sirreal]
#1356086 - 03/07/03 02:41 AM (22 years, 2 months ago) |
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What gave you the idea to eat so many shrooms???
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