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 shroomstr
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 Bad trip......Meaningful but bad 
#693404 - 06/21/02 09:28 PM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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Before this I wrote an ausome trip report, but for some reason it got deleted(which really pisses me off cause i took so much time on it). I ingested maybe a little more than a half eighth of shrooms at 9 am. My visuals were incredibly cool, but I had maybe the worst feeling that exists. My body felt alien to me, and I couldnt remember my relationship with people. I didn't think I belonged on earth, and thought I deserved to live my life feeling like this. It felt so horrible I was ready to call my mom and tell her that I had ingested a drug and am afraid of what may come of me.
 Im incredibly glad I didnt, cause it got better of course like it always does. Anyway, at one point during my trip I scratched my legs out of just wanting to make sure I was still able to feel pain so hard they bled. While doing this I yelled "I am human, why arent I feeling like one?". Besides the bad part I had really cool visuals. I never get scared of visuals, I dont understand how u can, they're just another illusion. The trees were made of green emeralds and formed a face then grinned.
I tried talking to it, but it wouldnt answer. The trees just gave me a stupid look. The carpet was made up of 3D shapes poking out, as were the ceiling and walls.
I think the reason my trip was bad is because I wasnt prepared for the "loss of ego" I hear so much about. It scared me, I coulnt connect the real world into my trip, which made it impossible to comprehend most things. I couldnt understand why someone would eat, talk, or even move. The only reason I could understand sleep is because it makes time go by faster.
I also learned something on my trip: Life can be meaningless if u dont have a way through it. I dont know if this makes sense to u but, if u experienced what I did, u would know exactly.
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-and god said "let there be shrooms"
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 TM
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 Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: shroomstr]
#693457 - 06/21/02 11:13 PM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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As I told you privately, next time you trip, get into some good music. Music has a way of making everything joyful.
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"Have some congratulatory drugs." - C. Montgomery Burns
I'll probably always do drugs, so that just contributes to the addiction to The Shroomery... It's a vicious circle of bliss. 
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Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: shroomstr]
#693984 - 06/22/02 09:45 AM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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All of my bad trips are almost exactly like that, with the same thoughts ... everything seems so pointless that it makes you confused why somebody would do anything in the first place.
One of my worst trips, I spent the entire time thinking about happiness and not knowing what it was or how to find it. I was freaking out and mumbling to my friend how I was looking for something to induce happiness but how I couldn't find anything. It was frightening to not know what happiness is or even remember ever being happy ... I knew I would feel more comfortable to go home (since I was out with a friend in the middle of somewhere I've never been before) but home seemed impossible to get to, so I just sat through it and when the peak started dying down the trip suddenly turned beautiful and I tripped the rest of the comedown nicely.
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Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: HB]
#694083 - 06/22/02 10:45 AM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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Next time you trip, get into some good music. Music has a way of making everything joyful.
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"Have some congratulatory drugs." - C. Montgomery Burns
I'll probably always do drugs, so that just contributes to the addiction to The Shroomery... It's a vicious circle of bliss.
TM™
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shroomstr
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 Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: TM]
#694293 - 06/22/02 12:36 PM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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My trip got much better towards the last hour. I still had the same visuals, but connected more with reality. I still didn't remember much about my relations with people, but that was fine. Once my friend got to my house I also felt better. He assured me that I was still human by just talking to me. It made me feel more down to earth. Later he told me when I talked it made pretty much no sense.
Also, my friend online, Dan, was probably the most comforting thing on my trip. Instead of telling me not to freak out, you'll be ok, and all the stuff I already knew, he talked to me like a normal person. The best thing he said was "go with the flow". It's kinda ironic that he said that to me, cause im the one ussually saying this to people tripping balls.
The only thing that I must tell u people, is do not freak out about your friend freaking out. That'll just make the trip worse. I wasn't freaking out, I was just scared. I think there's a difference. And even if they are really freaking out, just talk to them like u normally would
dont say "calm down dude"...Just say something like "dont worry, just talk to me about what you're feeling"
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-and god said "let there be shrooms"
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Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: shroomstr]
#703367 - 06/26/02 04:51 PM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know what you mean-- I think people need to be re-educated about how to deal with a friend who is bad tripping. Rather than saying something like "calm down" and trying to fight it, they need to tell you to just go with it and let it play out. I've been thinking lately about how my last two bad salvia trips could have been avoided if my friend had just reacted to me a little differently.
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Re: Bad trip......Meaningful but bad [Re: Typingwords]
#703387 - 06/26/02 04:59 PM (22 years, 5 months ago) |
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oh yeah, and tripmeister-- unfortunately music has little effect on a person in this truly horrifying state. The last time I salvia tripped I knew I was going to have a bad trip so I turned on some relaxing boards of canada and as I was inhaling I kept saying "don't worry, you're not dead, you did not die in a bone crushing car accident, you're just tripping." But guess what? None of that preparation had any effect. YOu get to this point where almost nothing can shake you from your bad trip. I think the only answer is to just go with the flow because that's really all you can do. Once you stop resisting I think the bad tripness loosens it grip.
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everything everyone everywhere.
forever and ever
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