Bleep said:

Now here I am, many years later, finding myself in the same state once again. I don't enjoy good tasting foods, I get only physical enjoyment out of sex and feel almost nothing but negative feelings and emotions most of the time.

I am out of touch with my spirit, I almost feel abandoned by it

This depressionary period has a direct effect on my physical health as well. I look very gaunt, pale and tired most of the time. I have not done any drugs in the last two months period and I do not consume alcohol and have made no diet changes.

I also believe this depression could be a direct effect of my stupidity of realizing such a thing and yet still consuming them as food.
Tommorow I am swearing off of red meat for good. I have too much in my life from these animals to continue the consumption of them.

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