My first post here..
I know this forum is meant to be for the first trip.. but so far after 5 attempts it doesn't seem to have happened as expected, so I want to give a synopsis of the experience(s) and reach out to see if anyone can cast any light or assist.
Background. 68, don't feel old, don't feel young. Relatively fit/healthy, married, family. Spent the majority of my life and career in engineering, the sciences and disciplined, though exciting, recreation. It all felt right and controllable. Around 2016 after quite a life 'event' I realised that what I thought was the way of everything in the world clearly wasn't, and I found a deep need to find out more. I read plenty until one day I read Entangled Life which started the journey to opening the doors.
This year I successfully grew my first batch of GT's, then a second, then a third.. but I couldn't pluck up the courage to try them, so stocks were building.. all crispy dried and sealed. I knew no-one I could feel comfortable discussing it with.
A chance trip to France had me staying in a beautiful calm and serene setting and a chance comment confirmed the owner (a friend) was a regular and very level headed mushroom user. I explained my conundrum and he suggested that this would be a perfect location, environment and that he would happily oversee. He is 100% trustworthy
The first time I ate 2.5gm of 'partially dried' GT's which he said was a gentle dose that he took when he just needed a slight break from reality. It did nothing at all. After 2-3 hours visuals were no more than you get when scrunching your eyes with your knuckles. Completely coherent and in control. He was very surprised.
Some days later we had a second go, same dose. Same result. After 3 hours he said he was very puzzled and provided a full dose of synthetic Psy extract in a drink. He said it was what he used when he was out of stock of the real thing. Nothing. Not a single thing. So by now I had taken the equivalent of about 5mg. I was quite disillusioned.
On returning home I felt comfortable enough to try my own stock.
Same dose but ground fine and mixed with a fizzy lemon drink. Very mild visuals, only if I closed my eyes. Nothing more.
A month later a 4th attempt. 3gm ground fine in fresh lemon juice on an empty stomach. A degree of nausea, not bad, more intense visuals which were quite stressful, but these only manifested with my eyes closed. Slightly dream like state, a lot of deja vu. Not at all calm or peaceful.
5th attempt another month on (September). Same dose but ground into Diet Coke in an attempt to mask the taste. Very quick onset, about 15 minutes, very strong visuals, unpleasant hallucinations that I was negotiating (unsuccessfully) with someone. Lots of deja vu again. Quite nauseous, some mild rigors and a sensation that I was speaking constantly but nothing coming out.
So far, that's been my experience with MM's.. not at all pleasant, no feeling of oneness or separation from my conscious being, no overwhelming emotions, no feeling of connection, no feeling of clarity of the big picture.
I'm definitely not giving up as I am determined to see through the veil, one way or another, but can anyone give me any answers to what is happening and what, if anything, should I change or what am I doing wrong?
I'm dreading a reply that says 'some folk are immune to the effects' or 'some folks will always have an unpleasant trip' as that will leave me very little option but to find an alternative. And I don't want to go there.
Mushrooms seem to have played such an integral part in our evolution and maybe even the journey to becoming conscious, sentient beings that any other chemical method seems to me to be too clinical and synthetic.
Any help, advice, suggestions, warnings, encouragement etc. would be warmly appreciated.
Tim
UK
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