gopher said:

tyrannicalrex said:

Is fasting worth that much trouble for you? Not to mention the stress on your homeostasis/system fluctuating so much.

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I think I have a underlying heart condition, when I used to smoke weed I got some scary symptoms, and I have also got some scary symptoms doing strenuous exercise in extreme conditions, both in the heat of summer and subzero tempetures in winter

I wanna pretend im just doing something wrong and it can be fixed, because the 300k people in the fasting subreddit, and the 10k people in the snakediet subreddit, dont have the problems I do

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tyrannicalrex said:

Yeah, those things come all at once!

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Mom was kind enough to take me to the vet and be really supportive through his assessment and having to put him down
and paying for the extra I totally could not handle

but she also constantly misgendered me to the vets whilst my standing behind her in full girl mode
and decided to let it slide, because she was all emotional over Toby too
and after her aneurysm years ago, have learned that she is slow to adapt to a lot of things

but then on the way out, we passed a pitbull and she called "pretty"
and upon the owner correcting her to his preference of handsome
she immediately sorted herself and joked about her mistake in going for pretty
and my mind went straight to a frequently reposted comic on my trans subbreddit of choice


and that was dumb but whatever
she also was kind enough to take me to Subway afterwards, because she knows that my preference when depressed to stressed is to stuff my face full of food
so I jammed a footlong in my mouth (you simply won't be able to resist )
and washed it down with a bunch of Pepsi

and Iris by Goo Goo Dolls was on the radio
and commented to her about not hearing it since like grade 7 when it was big
then made an awkward joke about my seeing and relating to "trans fat" on my bag of doritos
and it totally missed the mark, as she proceeded to tell me all about how such bags are a good firestarter if you get lost in the woods because they burn slow
while the song layered over it in the background with "I just want you to know who I am" in dramatic movie-like fashion

it's been a dumdum day is all