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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: 4mati0n]
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4mati0n, interesting read. Thanks for sharing.

I can definitely relate to the mindset/abilities brought on in the psychedelic state as feeling normal. That was a really strong feeling for me when I first started smoking weed and I get the same feeling when on LSD too.


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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: KGB Is Go]
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thank you friends! the fact i wrote that the next morning, i later on was worried i was just on some kind of high, like a placebo, but after going to work the next few days, i can tell im just a lot more relaxed, social anxiety has been toned down significantly, one of my biggest problems was eye contact....now i feel like my eyes are one of my most powerfull tools, like im scanning peoples faces and i can read body language vs attitude and make much better social connections, less ackwardness, and piss off a lot less people (saying the wrong things and the wrong time)

ive been doing small doses at work, 1\4 to 1\2 a tab....not sure of the strength of my tabs, but just one (whole tab) has me trippin with almost visuals (see trip report for more details)

just that amount, i can tell its 'working' by my heightened sense of sound, i dont seem to have much pupil dilation, and i can just handle people well....like they normally would, not like my asshole self... feels good man.


im hoping to take two tabs soon to further experince what LSD has to offer. i also seem to not get as much visuals on shrooms too, as compaired to my girl on the same dose as me, i have a visual learning disorder, that have anything to do with it? seems like when i focus and WANT the visuals or a trippy time, it seems to take a little effect, but no kaleidoscope....

Edited by 4mati0n (10/21/13 09:57 AM)

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: 4mati0n]
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Don't go too fast on the eye contact. It takes time to get used to someone else staring deep into your own soul. :lol:

But yeah, eye contact is like a gateway into another plane of reality.


I used to be completely awful at eye contact, I'd never maintain for longer than an entire second. It's been a couple years since then, and I've come a long way even though I never thought it would be possible.



Take small steps and keep at it, but don't try too hard.


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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: 4mati0n]
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4mati0n said:
ive been doing small doses at work, 1\4 to 1\2 a tab....not sure of the strength of my tabs, but just one (whole tab) has me trippin with almost visuals (see trip report for more details)

just that amount, i can tell its 'working' by my heightened sense of sound, i dont seem to have much pupil dilation, and i can just handle people well....like they normally would, not like my asshole self... feels good man.

im hoping to take two tabs soon to further experince what LSD has to offer. i also seem to not get as much visuals on shrooms too, as compaired to my girl on the same dose as me, i have a visual learning disorder, that have anything to do with it? seems like when i focus and WANT the visuals or a trippy time, it seems to take a little effect, but no kaleidoscope....


Not sure how often you're doing it at work but I don't think tripping regularly is recommended (or any drug for that matter) - you don't want to be relying on the drug, or adversely affect your day-to-day consciousness. With LSD, I'm pretty sure tolerance only finally settles after almost a month. That's generally the highest frequency with which I would trip - monthly. A meditation exercise might be a better approach than LSD at work (just my opinion...). Perhaps someone else could comment on this.

I can relate to feeling better with the social connections (but only while under the influence). For me, I think it's the clarity of LSD which just reduces much of the apprehension, hesitation and resistance I usually have in speaking with people. I tend to feel a lot more certain and clear about what I'm feeling and in my ability to express it with someone else.

I'm very non-visual with my trips. Especially LSD - never had anything in my 3 trips so far (max dose = 2 tabs). I had a couple of really interesting - but very fleeting - visual experiences on my highest shroom dose (still not very high); I'd like to try to recreate that. I'm not sure what a visual learning disorder actually means but I guess you're less visually oriented, compared to the 'norm'. If that's the case, then yes I think that would come into play during a psychedelic experience. I think it's the same case for me.

I would actually like to attempt to activate visual centres more under the influence of psychedelics, in effort to make them more prone to use during ordinary states of consciousness.


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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Jamo] * 1
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I have been diagnosed with Asperger's and I took LSD for the first time last night. It has completely changed the way I view life.

For 6 years my parents have supported me and paid for an education that I didn't bother with, the only thing I ever did was try to satisfy my short-term cravings (whether it was to play games, work out, sex, food) without ever thinking of my responsibility, how other people might possibly feel. I convinced a girl who wasn't right for me to stay here when she could have moved to her home country just so I could feel happy and personally and sexually validated. I escaped my OWN responsibility for my life, my education, a job, my parents and the care of people around me by having her move in with me. I convinced myself I was responsible and a good person but I was as always just using her to escape from what I needed to be working on, using her to feel validated myself. When she moved back to her home country to be with someone else I as always felt like the victim and felt abused after all the effort I had put into her, which was really for myself.

For 6 years I have lived like this without feeling guilty, feeling a victim of a society I never felt I belonged to and yesterday evening it ALL hit me at once. At first I was immensely scared and sad as all the responsibility of the past SIX years hit me in the space of fifteen minutes. I confessed everything to my parents and shattered this whole shitty construction I've built up for myself. I am a more than intelligent enough person and I am responsible for so much more than I've ever committed myself to, but now it seems laughably easy considering how lazy and cowardly I've been.

A full day for me used to be doing some cardio, going to the store and cleaning my home. Then I was impressed with myself. Good lord almighty those are like the BASICS.

Without LSD I would never have realised this and never have saved myself. When I go out into the market I look at people now and I can SEE them THINKING. I still have no idea what goes on in their heads but now they are actual people to me with their own worries, lives, thoughts, history. Everybody is a unique universe of their own and I've just considered them obstacles, objects, parts of a society I felt burdened by but that I am now happy to live a full life in.

Wow.

Edited by Ianneman (01/18/14 07:12 AM)

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Ianneman]
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I had a sense of autism... I felt this a limit sinse I was so leftminded and apathic at times.. shamansim ans psycadellica helped me come in touch with my rightbrain and femininity.. becoming in a sense, bipolar.. but capable of controlling my mindset as to the shamanism.. I need only focus myself to become creative or calculating..


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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Jamo] * 1
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I have asperger's and I can share a little bit about my experiences with a few different psychadelic substances:

1.)Weed- At first, weed seemed to negate all the effects of my asperger's. Either that, or it made the people who I was "partaking" with less aware of my condition. I felt more comfortable in social groups and less afraid to speak my mind. I do still "check out" often and bring the conversation back to my own topics (which is a common trait of aspies). After several years of use, I began having trouble with anxiety and panic attacks (another symptom common with aspies). This became more manageable by cutting down on my consumption and working with my therapist to learn coping skills with anxiety.

2.)Mushrooms- What a demon..... My first experience was lovely. Colors seemed brighter, everything seemeed strange and funny, and I could laugh non-stop for hours. Every experience after that was HELL. I became hyper-aware of my aspie traits. I became EXTREMELY paranoid and anxious to the point of making myself sick. Even on extremely low doses I found myself "traveling" and the trip was very uncomfortable. Aspies often get overwhelmed by too much stimulation and Mushrooms was WAAAAAAYYYYYY too much stimulation for me to handle. On a bad trip, I couldn't look anyone in the face. I couldn't put sentances together. I would see screaming faces coming at me that werent' there. Strange (seemingly random) patterns appreared to be engraved on every surface (even my skin!). Some trips hit me so hard that I would collapse (even though I was on a VERY low dose). I didn't want to be around anyone, and if I was around anyone, they had to speak slowly and softly to me otherwise I felt very afraid. I do not recommend mushrooms for Aspies unless you intend to tackle your darkest inner demons.

3.)MDMA- LOVE LOVE LOVE! MDMA stopped all the constant mental filtering I have to do on a minute-by-minute basis. I am able to connect with people on a deep and meaningful level without having to constantly self-monitor. I don't feel awkward in a room filled with strangers (this is almost UNHEARD of amongst aspies). The only negative effects I feel come in the 2-3 days after coming down. The depletion of serotonin after the come-down is rough.... If you struggle with depression, make sure your meds are well controlled. I highly recommend taking some 5HTP and B-12 vitamins when you feel yourself coming down. It will help cushion the fall. Continiue to take them for the next couple of days to help bring your brain chemistry back to normal. Watch your mood! I don't recommend doing MDMA more than once a month (even less if possible) simply because of the physical toll of the come-down.Oh! and don't forget to stay hydrated :wink:

I hope this helps! Be responsible, do your research, and have fun!

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Anonymous #2]
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I have undiagnosed aspergers and I've found that ecstasy has tremendous benefits for my aspergers and lsd makes it even worse. When I'm on ecstasy, all my social barriers are lifted, I make friends, al my OCD goes away, and all my stress goes away. When I'm on LSD, I have even more social barriers than before, I cannot even think straight should I be given the chance to socialize, I feel fear, I go even deeper into my obsessive activities, and I don't make friends - sometimes I even lose them. It is said that lsd brings out latent mental disorders, so this probably isn't the one for me - I might be going back to ecstasy.

Edited by PsychoKinesiS (05/28/14 06:29 AM)

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: PsychoKinesiS]
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I have yet to be professionally diagnosed, but I feel like I have done enough research to at least have a reasonable suspicion that I may have aspergers/autism.
I am 21 years old. I had my first psychedelic experience with psilocybin when I was 17. I found it to be a remarkable tool for self-discovery, in the sense that it gave me this ability to understand pure objective truth about myself. I have never been harsher on myself as a person than in the midst of a psychedelic experience.
From age 17 until now I have experimented with all manner of psychedelic tryptamines and phenethylamines. I found the phenethylamines were not nearly as therapeutic as the more classic tryptamines.

It wasn't until just very recently, however, that I had discovered an absolute miracle treatment. I think that there is something very special about 4-aco-dmt. After my first experiment with this substance (7/10/14), I knew that I needed to chase this phenomenon that I had experienced. For the next 3 days after that I had kept a consistent regiment of 4-aco-dmt, and I felt like it was really doing some amazing things upstairs. I found myself in a sort of state where I was rethinking my entire life. Now of course I am sure this is how a lot of people have felt on psychedelics. But because I had been taking it daily (sometimes twice daily), the more typical psychedelic effects had mostly gone and it felt like I had broken through to some other spectrum of effects. Rather than sitting and gazing at amazing geometric patterns, I was harnessing the vibrational energy that I was feeling. Pacing my house, keeping a train of productive thought, writing down ideas and plans. Cleaning/reorganizing the house. Talking to god and thanking the universe for everything there is. I have been more productive in the past 4 days than I have in the past 4 YEARS. I found myself communicating with elegance, where for as long as I can remember I have struggled tremendously with communicating on a very basic level.

I hope to further study the effects of consistent ingestion of such substances (4-aco-dmt in particular though).
I believe that quite possibly the effects we associate with ingestion of psychedelics is a sort of transitional phase between normal-state consciousness and this amazing state that I had been in for the past 4 days. I really can't describe it well enough. It felt absolutely magical. Like I could accomplish absolutely anything. And not in an egotistical sense, but in that I felt like I had the ambition and drive and love and forethought to really organize everything around me better than I ever have been able to.
That's something I have always really struggled with in the past. Being motivated to even do anything. The problems I encounter whilst sober are really hard to deal with as far as maintaining focus and motivation toward a given goal. Interacting with people, comprehending social situations, having the will to do anything are all things I really struggle with in my sober state.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: ThorAxe1]
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I have an understanding that the (in my expereance) autism I have got manifests as a selfdefensive mechanism when I am not completly open with the self.

Psychedellics made me open myself to myself, and all my burried emotions, in this process making me able to emphazise and feel the feelings of others.. making me a rather good communicator at times..

Due to this, any 'symptoms' of that autism is no longer present, even though I am rather a weird person, one simply cant put their finger on what that is..


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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Icyus]
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Icyus said:
I have an understanding that the (in my expereance) autism I have got manifests as a selfdefensive mechanism when I am not completly open with the self.

Psychedellics made me open myself to myself, and all my burried emotions, in this process making me able to emphazise and feel the feelings of others.. making me a rather good communicator at times..

Due to this, any 'symptoms' of that autism is no longer present, even though I am rather a weird person, one simply cant put their finger on what that is..


I have similar sentiments. Though for me with most other psychedelics the grasp on empathy, connection to other people and overall sense of well-being never really stuck past the initial psychedelic effects. This is my second day off of the 4-day daily 4-aco-dmt regiment and I have definitely maintained most of the well-being aspect. I am still able to communicate 1000% better than normally. The only thing that has changed really is the energy and motivation thing. That's what I struggle with the most, really. Both because of motivation, but also because of self-doubt and the lack of the feeling that I can tackle anything that I want to do given the right internal/external organization.

My experience of this past week has lead me to develop a theory that the psychedelic effects of such substances are symptoms of the crossing of a threshold. Kind of like a mid-state between normal consciousness and this enhanced consciousness I have experienced. I have read a lot about Terence McKenna's ideas about the stoned ape theory involving the evolution of visual acuity and critical thinking with the introduction of psilocybin mushrooms into the diet. I definitely think that long-term built-up doses of psychedelics accumulated in the blood does some really amazing things.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Icyus]
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Hi guys,

I really enjoyed reading this and wanted to make an account to throw my thoughts onto the chain, just in case someone else Googles their way to this post.

I'm 32 years old, I have some kind of autism spectrum disorder. I was diagnosed in my 20s after fucking up my (rather cushy and easy) life yet again due to anxiety, emotional instability, lack of agency and poor executive function.

At this time, it's been two or three years since I've been in the care of a psychologist. I self-medicate like a fiend. I smoke pot compulsively, I eat (supposed) MDMA, I snort coke and I have been getting compulsively shitty drunk, too. The more anxious, isolated or doomed I am feeling on any given day, the more likely I am to raid my little inventory of drugs for something. I also use really good moods as another excuse to turn up.

I've mostly sworn off pharmaceuticals. My experiments with Adderall were a complete fucking disaster, making me twice as arrogant and obsessive, not to mention paranoid, with an even more fucked up sleep cycle. Even moderate doses of benzos get me disinhibited enough to be more likely to say or do something that generates negative attention. Not conducive to my mission of stealth. SSRIs made me not recognize myself (did break me out of the brief period of punching myself in the face during anxious fits, though) and I think I only took them for a month. Bupropion dulled my anxiety a bit, but I stopped taking it after I broke down crying and told my roommate that I wanted to kill myself.

Those of you who are referring to Aspergers as an advantage, you could be correct in a manner of speaking, but you would have to be really lucky in terms of your environment in order for it to manifest as an overall advantage. Many times, I've allowed myself the hubris of thinking that I've finally turned a corner and can let my guard down, express myself and relax around people. That's never going to be the case. "Compensating" for autism involves hiding the nervousness and alienness of my facial expressions, the tension in my body and the abstractness of my mind when I am around people.

I've been to lots of high points in terms of interpersonal comfort over the years, but I'm always just a few mood swings, anxious episodes or bad decisions away from being cast back out into solitary, tortured reflection. I don't mean to be the bearer of bad news, it's just that the only productive way to think about coping with autism is existential. One doesn't triumph over the symptoms and then walk away from the scene.

That massive disclaimer was necessary because I've been lonely, anxious and depressed lately. However, I had lived in that state of mind uninterrupted until I first tripped on LSD about 10 years ago. I found myself following a blueprint to reconstruct love for myself. I was able to almost literally "zoom out" of the first person experiences of trauma and frustration that I was obsessing over and start thinking about my limitless, effortless talents. The therapeutic effects lasted for weeks, possibly months, after that first trip. I've taken acid dozens of times since then, and on a much smaller scale I almost always have similar experiences. The dominant attribute of the trip is wonder at the spectacular complexities of human life.

Another thing that worked wonders was homemade ayahuasca. One time, a DMT trip that involved the strongest batch I ever brewed of the potion took me to a completely internal place (after projectile vomiting all over someone's living room and "passing out" face down on their couch) where I had an hours-long discussion with a hyper-rational, authoritative voice that encouraged me to solve my problems and believe in myself. I remembered almost everything when I sobered up, and to this day I still live by some of the insights I gained from that.

To be honest, shrooms have been really euphoric and helpful at times but have also caused me to turn into a frightening psychotic mess more than once. I blame the events of the trip more than the drug itself, but it's really not in the same category in terms of theraputic value.

I've avoided most of the more serious consequences of drug experimentation/addiction, but this most recent bout with apathy and heedlessness might be leading me into my Infinite Jest moment after all. I might still get out of my head and stay out long enough to make a lasting impact somewhere.

If I had some LSD, I would listen to some music, feel all of this fear and tension slowly dissolve out of my body, and later shake my head ruefully about how depressed I had been a few days prior.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: KGB Is Go]
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SOO.
Since i wasn't sure how to post i just replied to a comment.
i was diagnosed aspie when i was 14 (i'm nearly 21 now) and i fucking loved finding this thread. this is amazing. and i'm happy to see i'm not the first, nor the only one curious about this and others experiences. so. while i've never done LSD, i have done a great deal of pharmaceuticals and shrooms. the pharmaceutical experiences varied drastically. very drastically lol. i live in wa and am an MMJ patient and i find cannabis to be the best daily treatment with psilocybin as a bi-yearly treatment.

pharms - klonopin, dextromethorphan, adderall, vyvanse, ritalin, percocet

klonopin - i took this one before school. i believe it was a 5/10mg. i do not recall the first four hours of the school day, the remainder is a black fuzzy splotch in my memory.

dextromethorphan - about 40mg? dont recall. this made me very anxious in a familiar way. smoked lots of cigs, no noted paranoia, i did lots of talking to myself in my head.

adderall - 28mg i became an info sponge like another member noted on cannabis, i used this regularly. i became a cleaning/organizational machine, i get a lot of things done, i tend to color-code things etc. i rearranged my entire room, closet, and did eighteen billion loads of laundry  folding them. normal person behavior maybe? hahhaha

vyvanse - 30mg (not sure of exactness, was the mid dosage pill) a lot like adderall, less tweaky feeling and more mild/calming/soothing. i had ultimate clarity, and i was a lot more collected than on adderall.

ritalin/methylin - 100-120mg - this was an interesting one. i cocooned up on the couch with a few ages of paper, about eight pens and a movie playing. i drew for about 8 hours. the first hour and a half was the movie and then the remaining 6 and a half hours were the movie beginning song looped on the play screen. i drew three pictures in incredible detail that i'd never been able to accomplish, i used all of the pens, and each stroke felt like it was perfectly calculated.

percocet - 30mg - i used this frequently, for recreation. it often made me creative, highly empathetic, and very very loving. things i dont typically feel on a day to day basis with the exception of creativity. i suffered no withdrawals or withdrawal like symptoms after stopping use abruptly after four months of abusing it regularly.

psilocybin(1st trip out of many), i felt was an incredible experience each time i dabbled into that other world where i was finally an unflawed human. everything felt 3-d, and the colors were absolutely brilliant. i smiled the whole time, had a deep mind-talk with the face that fell out of my ceiling, saw my fingers stretch to 8in long to grasp the bowl piece, and as another comment-er stated I also suffered virtually no depression or anxiety for about a month or so afterwards. i try and do them every so often for this very reason. :smile:

my first sativa experience was terrible though. i was so stoned out of my gourd i got lost in costco, my very first time i ever being in costco. i was 13 or 14 at this time, and i kept smoking bowl after bowl because i wasn't feeling stoned and then before you know it i'm going to get deodorant in costco and all the lights are getting intensely bright and all the sounds are bouncing around in my head. cacophony is very suiting in regards as to how it all sounded. it was a very uncomfortable experience and at this time i didn't know there was a difference between sativa and indica, nor had i realized that what i smoked was sativa, i thought it had been laced weed for years until someone pointed out that smokers with low tolerances who smoke a lot of sativa at once will suffer symptoms that mirrored mine to a T. lol that got long.

also
i'd love to hear others correspondences (or just from other people who were "diagnosed" with aspergers) via e-mail at skeetskeetmofukka@yahoo.com please title it "shroomery" so i can search infrequently and find it since i get a lot of junk emails. thanks!

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Jamo]
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I have a friend who is fairly high on the autism spectrum. They were using meth and heroin regularly (though not addicted) to cope with various things. Anyway due to legal issues they had to stop using. Turns out however that shrooms don't show up on the drug tests. So I gave them some to experiment with.

Anyway they had previously taken various psychedelics, including shrooms, but never had any kind of hallucinations or visuals. Apparently not hallucinating is common in autistic people.

So my friend basically took very large amounts of the ones I gave them. First time 2 full handfuls and after that 2 or 3 handfuls at a time. This resulted in them having their first closed-eye visuals ever. It also resulted in their autism traits deepening in a way they found pleasant. They also at one stage purged for the first time.

A few weeks on and they seem to have decided not to go back to other drugs. They are also becoming more autistic, but this I suspect is related to a lot of current life factors and possibly age.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Jamo]
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This is interesting. I have started to doubt I might have some level of Asperger syndrome. Especially it has been difficult to start working like grown ups and focus and some social situations are difficult like eye contact. Im also really passionate of things that Im interested in. Anyway.. I took mushrooms when I was in Indonesia surfing a few years ago. I was laying at a beach with my friends and had a nice trip after all (the beginning was a bit.. i had to just let go and then it was allright). After the trip I felt really connected to everybody and had no trouble at all meeting all kinds of people, it was great. I really enjoyed the connected feeling. I think that the effect lasted for afew months. I have also tried to find other ways like meditating to feel good. But I believe that mushrooms really can help Aspergers syndrome. Although I dont have any diagnose so basically Im just guessing and talking about my own assumptions.. I havent took any psychedelics since but I would like to. Also Im interested if there are more and more studies about it.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Chesire-C]
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I've been diagnosed with Asperger's. Use of psychedelics in heroic doses (Terence's phrase for stupendously large amounts) has enlightened me. I used to live in a shell reality, now I see the divine truth of life and the universe. I don't think I ever would have gotten there without starting from the Asperger's reality, which taught me logic and reason as it is similar to thinking like a computer.

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Alyssa]
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Very interesting read, thanks to all for sharing. Fascinating how perception and terminology have changed within 10 years.

Self diagnosed ASD, 41 yo. Funny reading about weed = heroin, hits a little close to home. I think I use it to dampen the anxiety, currently every day, and when I decided to try one day without it I quickly ended up crying because something in my kitchen was smelling bad.

Before my diagnosis I just thought of myself as weird. Depression and anxiety almost made me kill myself during my teen years, luckily drugs were there and made me curious enough to want to try them all before I die. (I never tried them all, but also I stayed alive and learned to cope with my weirdness in creative ways)

Shrooms were a life saver - first experience with 16. They were mean as heck, in a pranky sort of way, forcing me to face my fears, and then sorted my brain so well. No more anxiety, no more depression.

I settled, stopped taking drugs, had a child, fast forward: my relationship to child's father is not really what it should be - us ASD'ers are prone to ending up in abusive relationships. Depression and anxiety creep back and I am having a hard time remaining functional. Teenage child does some interwebz research and suggests microdosing mushrooms.

Guess what, they do the trick - at first I just become more relaxed and functional. And then, they are mean as heck yet again, in a subversive and well-meaning kind of way, initiating a process that eventually gets me out of the relationship and back to who I used to be: open-minded, curious, enjoying the experience of my life. And realizing it was ASD all along: the problems with eye contact, social anxiety, odd movement, executive dysfunction, hyperlexia ... list goes on.

It's a lot of mind-blowing stuff to realize, and the last years have been quite the trip.

Any fellow neurodivergent folk in here who would like to exchange experiences?

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Re: Psychedelic drugs and Asperger's Autism [Re: Crashexx]
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First of all bless you and your trip thru life I'm so glad you found this place, and have found stability thru conscientious research and use of mushrooms to re center yourself and your mind.

My wife is jusy high anxiety w panic attacks, mostly from trauma but i think she is jus high strung kinda gal anyway.
Quite different from your lifelong issue but the same in many ways I'm sure. We have began over the past year to treat her anxiety with psyches. She had a terrible car accident about 3 months ago and before that we had gone MONTHS without a panic attack, still anxiety but no attack. Now since the wreck they have came about again, esp during her time of month.
Anyway the accident was in the rain, so now when she has to drive to work in the rain it's a guaranteed panic attack.
I'm hoping to pick up some micro dosing soon to start her back. Hopefully onto more recovery as we had gotten up to stronger doses particularly of lsd, that she could handle and use to both enjoy herself and at times be brutalized by the things it unlocks.
Not sure why I shared all this but it feels good always hearing others who have learned to maintain and recover from emotional and physical damage incurred from any and all the things humans get beaten down by before they can find the power they had in themselves all along.
Cheers
Ps anybody who knows of other at home help for someone with anxiety driving in the rain lemme know


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