I have had three kundalini experiences in the last 3 years. i never knew of the term kundalini until recently. i am currently reading two books:
spiritual emergency by grof and the kundalini experience by lee sannella
I find it very assuring that I had these experiences before I read about them, so as I wouldn't have been influenced by the accounts of it.
My first experience with a Kundalini experience was in high school, and this where I underwent my first and most expansive awakening. I was alone for the weekend cause my friends were out of town. In my boredom, I decided to try out yoga and meditation. And, during one of these meditations, i felt a pain/warmth/burning sensation at the base of my spine, right above the crack, and i felt this incredible rush of energy and ecstasy. I started experimenting with my body. I was able to bend and stretch like i never could before. I ejaculated while flacid... still don't understand that. I could control my body temperature.
This last all weekend, and I went hiking, and did these sheets of numerology where I was convinced I had discovered the numerical value for every letter in english by using all sorts of crazy math like the fibonocci sequence... i still have these papers, they are very confusing.
Well, Lol, I had school on Monday, I hadn't slept, and I was only eating carrots and drinking water, as during my experience, i could see all the toxins in my body, and i was expelling them out through different means.
I went to class, this is a small private top-of-the-notch academic school, and i was literally shaking in my chair, cause everything was so bright, and it was like seeing all my class maters for the first time, I raised my hand, and I asked if I could teach a lesson to the class, and this was a very open-minded teacher, the class was "humanities", and i began to explain the numerology on the white board, and i had titled my lesson, How to Be a Rockstar 101.
Well, everyone was very freaked out, no one recognized me. I had lost 10 pounds in a matter of days, and so they sent me to the nurse. The nurse took my temperature and it was 99.7. She said I couldn't stay at school cause I had fever, but I told her, you give me 15 minutes, and my temperature will be 98.6, she was weirded out, but I insisted, and believe or not, she took it again, and it was 98.7, I smiled at her, and she turned white as a ghost.
By this time, they thought I was absolutely nuts, so they called my dad, and he came to the school, and the dean, and principle were in the nurse's office with me, and i tried to explain what was happening, but they didn't understand.
so they decided to send me to the emergency room, I walked into the emergency room, and I began to feel panic, what was I going to say? how could I communicate to these doctors what was going on? well, i tried.... and suffice to say they injected me with stuff to put me to sleep, and they gave me a spinal tap, which I think killed the spiritual energy, and they gave me brain scan cause they though i was either schizophrenic or had menangitis
well, i remember, they had me all drugged up and i coudlnt move, but i was still aware of myself, and my thoughts, and i remember having visions that i didn't exist, and that my reflection could not be seen in the mirror, and i remember, i rose from this bed i was in, and I said, " I am a vampire " very softly to the nurse, and I laid back down.
well i was given more sedatives, and the next time I woke up was in the psych ward, and they put me on all sorts of crazy drugs... probably haldol or thorazine considering how awful i felt,
and I had no one in my life that could help me, or explain what had happened so, I believed I was crazy, and by believing I was crazy, I reinforced it in my mind, and that fucked up my life for a year and a half. i was on all sorts of drugs, and then i lashed out by using ecstasy, meth, coke, alcohol, ketamine, and during this time, i ended up in like 5 psych wards and 3 rehabs,
well it was in one of these rehabs, promises was the name, that this spiritual teacher came in to do yoga, and things started to make sense, and i started realizing what had happened was something spiritual, and that i wasn't crazy... cause I never felt crazy.. everyone just told me I was crazy.
and this teacher, a rabbi and spiritual guru, was talking about this places of bliss you can reach in meditation and whatnot, and there I was very interested in all this junk.
So ya, I was on medications/street drugs for a year and a half, and bounced around, and i did some really fucked up shit.
And I finally, after 6 or so months of being sober, and 3 months not on any meds, I had another Kundalini experience, but this time, although I didn't know the name of it, I knew it was something spiritual, so I stayed in doors, away from people, and did reading, writing, meditation... I actually wrote an 8 page poem on the future of the world... I think It's amazing, and everyone who has read it says its amazing, and I am hoping to publish it after my first book gets more success.... and again... I felt this pulsating warmth/burning in the base of my spine that went up to the top of my head, and i had visions while I wrote the poem, and the poem is my visions in poetic form.
The last one I had was like a week ago, again I felt the burning sensation at the base of my spine, and I did some writing of poems, not as prophetic as the other one, but I felt a lot of clarity in seeing certain things, and during this period, I also accurately guessed a stranger's birth date.
I have no fucking idea what triggers them. I think it is something emotional or something, I don't know, that's why I am reading those books right now cause the experiences were so powerful, and they have completely shaped my life, and these feeling were affirmed by how accurate everything is that i am reading.
so, i look forward to learning more about the kundalini, and i am hoping to have more in the future because my poems are much more inspired, an i learn a lot from them.
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