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SayWhat
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Guess what I just did
#11198525 - 10/07/09 02:56 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I just had a good talk.
Then I punched my car like 10 times.
Then I took my shirt off and stood in the rain.
Then I took my keyboard and guitar and amp and keyboard bench and office chair and threw them in the rain and chopped them all up with an axe.
Then I shaved half of my head and my electric razor died.
Fueled by nothing but alcohol and emotions.
I can't stop shaking.
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Original
God, I lovethis...
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198537 - 10/07/09 03:01 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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iv meth?
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SayWhat
Native Shaman
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: Original]
#11198544 - 10/07/09 03:05 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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no sir, would never do meth.
My sadness is stronger than any drug that any man could ever possibly imagine conceiving.
Fuck you because no, you wont ever understand.
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SayWhat
Native Shaman
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198564 - 10/07/09 03:18 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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God damn it.
Now I am starting to sober up and I am going to have to go clean that shit up before my roommates wake up and I am going to have to explain my shaved head in the morning.
I am a fucking idiot.
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twighead
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198567 - 10/07/09 03:19 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Edited by twighead (10/07/09 03:26 AM)
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nowwhoutthink
maybe im dreaming
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: twighead]
#11198568 - 10/07/09 03:20 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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benzo?
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nickc
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: twighead]
#11198572 - 10/07/09 03:24 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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What's fucked you up so bad bro?
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lost in Ummagumma
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: nickc]
#11198585 - 10/07/09 03:31 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah, for realz, whats up
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SayWhat
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Nothing worth the 800 some dollars of damage I just did to myself.
Just cleaned up the yard.
No drugs were involved except alcohol.
All that is left is to try and save face in the morning.
I am so fucked.
I regret every second of the last 3 hours of my life.
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Chespirito
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198598 - 10/07/09 03:39 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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HaRo On KoRn
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198599 - 10/07/09 03:40 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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can we get pics of the damage
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batheinthefountain
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i still don't get why the fuck you did that
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Dug a Sprogie
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I laugh a little inside whenever someone uses the word face like that
i just cant help it
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SayWhat
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No pics.
Everything is in the dumpster now. Don't have a camera anyway.
Almost done shaving my head. Fucking electric razors take forever to get a full charge.
All over a woman. I know I know. Don't even fucking say it.
Fuck you for thinking it.
Whatever. I don't handle my emotions well.
At least I take it out on inanimate objects.
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Dug a Sprogie
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198643 - 10/07/09 04:07 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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hey, a woman is an okay reason to be upset but never an excuse for violence unless youre defending her from someone.
my mom fucked with my head ever since i was a kid to keep me from my dad. Maybe you should see a psychiatrist or something
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SayWhat
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Nah I'm ok. I would never hurt anyone and it wasn't just her.
It was a combination of things and alcohol is the fucking shit ruining my shit.
I need to stop drinking til I get my head right.
Whatever. I didn't really care about any of that shit anyway.
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nickc
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198646 - 10/07/09 04:10 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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That sucks man, we've all been there before.
As cheesy as it sounds, there's a quote off a South Park episode that I heard when in the throes of a violent depression stint from my first love that I always look back to and it helps.
It's said in the context of one of the boys getting dumped and does he want to go and write poems about death and sadness, his reply is:
"Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad.
It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before.
So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid."
Things suck now and you've obviously made it worse, but life goes and and time does heal. Just look forward to the times the you will feel so on top of the world and that life is so beautiful, but in order to feel that elated you need to understand the opposite end of the spectrum.
Cheer up bro! Possessions are replaceable.
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HaRo On KoRn
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: SayWhat]
#11198647 - 10/07/09 04:14 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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hey i didnt think nothing but im down for a 40 you need another one?
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SayWhat
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Ha nothing but coffee for me for the rest of the night.
I wish I could just finish shaving my head and go to sleep.
Fuck.
I can't wait to start growing some mushrooms so I can just love everything and everyone.
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lost in Ummagumma
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Re: Guess what I just did [Re: nickc]
#11198651 - 10/07/09 04:17 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I remember completely trashing my living room in my apartment on a drunken tantrum once, it was fucking retarted and did i ever feel like a dumb fuck in the morning, been there dude!
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