Another time I went in bummed basically about the same stuff, and I peaked hard without any interest in thinking about other things, and it sucked. I just sort of had to lay there on the carpet until they wore off and the floor tiles weren't so mushy.

So anyhow, its about as much not freaking out when you're low, and not letting yourself get in a mental rut in the first place. Have lots of music, candles, flashing lights to play with to relax your thoughts if you're worried about getting stressed.

If you're seriously depressed, if you don't think there is a light at the end of the tunnel, don't do them. But its normal to be down sometimes.

I can fake happiness with the rest of the world, but why? I guess this probably isn't the right place to seek advice, because no one knows me better than me, but that isn't a very promising thought. Maybe I will just go smoke a bowl and pretend I am happy some more...

The trip definetly helped me work a few things out. It gave me a very objective look at my thought process and what I needed to do to next in my life. This wasn't a huge reality bending trip, it was actually only about a level 2-3 and my first psychadelic experience, but it was very positive overall. However, it could have been dangerous in that when you're on shrooms, your emotions kind of perpetuate. If you're an emotionally chaotic person, I don't recommend trying this while you're depressed overall. However, if you're like me and you were "stuck" on something, or you just felt like you're missing something and don't know what to do, a medium trip in a very comfortable environment might be just what you need. I think it's also important to feel honestly hopeful, that things can really get better and that the shrooms are only going to be a tool for you to make things right. Don't try and use them as an escape or something.

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this time, the revolution will NOT be televised.

I even used to do the AOL chatroom thing a few years ago, and my name had the word "optimist" in it. So the whole idea of depression is very new to me. I think it is some sort of whacked self fulfilling prophecy, because knowing that I am "bummed" does nothing but cause me to feel worse. But I am still searching for the way out, so that must be good for something, I hope. Thanks.

-Primate

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~~"Oh, welcome to this world of fools, of pink champagne and swimming pools, where all you have to lose is your virginity. Perhaps you'll have some fun tonight, so stick around and take a bite...of life. We don't need feebleness in this proximity"~~

The only thing holding me back right now is that I don't have an experienced guide. From my pool of friends right now, I am the only one with experience with any drugs other than pot. And the ones that tried pot used it as an alternative to beer...

Do you think it would be okay for me to have a helper that has never done drugs? Or is that just asking for double trouble? Any experienced guides passing through MN in the next few weeks? j/k

Damn, I gotta get me some new friends...

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We were all delighted, we all just realized, we were leaving confusion and nonsense behind and performing our one and noble function of the time. Move.

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One of us equals many of us,
Disrespect one of us, and youll see plenty of us.

Anyway...The tripp grabbed me by my balls and just threw thoughts in my face, like i had to think about my problem in school and problems with my stepdad..
I really coudnt have avoided those thought even if id wanted to..they just came to me...
Now afterwards i must say that it was a really therapuitical(spelling?) tripp, and i feel alot better about the situation with the school..(i came up with pretty scary thoughts about my stepdad so that still worries me.. but he has always been a real DICK)

Overall i must say that i had a deep spiritual tripp that helped me to straighten out some Q's and worries that i had stuck in my head..

Dont go on a major tripp though...because i felt that i was right on the line of leaving my body in a couple of instances i i really wouldnt have wanted to feel that confused when i was still thinking about these issues..

Man i still cant believe my shrooms where that potent..

Still dont do the shrooms if your deeply depressed..cuzz i was feeling quite down and scared some time into the tripp..cuzz of the probs that needed to be straigtened out..

BTW, if you take antideps. it (for many people at least, inc. myself) prevents many drugs from affecting you as strongly. you might feel little effects from what normally would provide you with a full-blown trip.

peace,

xys