So I've been going to school with this girl. I was very attracted to her the moment I met her, so I asked her out and found out she had a boyfriend. We continued to hang out nonetheless, and it rapidly became apparent that in spite of her having a boyfriend of several years she was quite taken with me as well.
I consider myself a decent, respectful person. I value my moral judgments. However, I'm also 21 years old and fighting back a raging libido every second of my waking and unconscious life. It got to the point where, as she was about to go down on me, she looked up and me and said, "Should I be doing this?" And I said "What do you think?" So we stopped. Makeout sessions have been aborted this way too. Amazingly, several months after this I still sense the sexual tension, we still sidle up to each other and touch, and it's still making me feel like an asshole. Then when I actually see her with her boyfriend (which is not common, but it has been a couple times), and he's all over her, I want to kill either him or myself.
I'm beginning to very plainly understand those people who say that monogamy is unnatural and awkward, however much I scoff at them.
That said, I'm wondering what you OTD rejects think: should I say fuck it? Should I throw my reservations out the window and stop torturing myself at the risk of creating drama? Should I just say "Yes" next time I get the chance?
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great advice!
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