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Re: Burned Out [Re: leery11]
#6970781 - 05/26/07 08:03 PM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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It happens
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Jackenobi
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Re: Burned Out [Re: leery11]
#6980350 - 05/28/07 11:49 PM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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I miss the ambience. I know the feeling, burned out on not being so burned out. And no way back. But i have hope for the way it stills the wind to blow.
There is a very sweet song being sung across this thread.
I was playing guitar the morning after I had taken LSD for the second time. The words 'how does it feel to be burned out?', with the question, floated up the stairs to my room.
I was burned out. That was my playing. That was the time. But i couldn't hear it for time immemorial, not for moments not yet born. There was a grey mantra sending golden sparks from the blue and the black from my strings. Tired, but happy in their absoluteness. Ghosts of my Christian past, played to. Smiling. I went and had a shower, it was a new day. I was burned out, sure. Who had asked and why? Well anyway we had all been on LSD.
If i don't want to be burned out i bring my self to the table.
Azrael. All.
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Re: Burned Out [Re: leery11]
#6981550 - 05/29/07 11:16 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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The only job I was ever fired from was a Zoo. I hated it and threatened to go to the newpapers about animal abuse. Of course I was fired.
Those bears are not only bored but have been driven insane. I have seen this dramatically. The same can happen to you.
I would say from many of your posts I read that you are depressed. It's up to you to change it. Everyone else (mostly) especially family will enable you in this state.
I suggest the outdoor thing and training in a good quality martial art with a good quality and aware instructor.
Once you get your energy up then set yourself the goal of leaving everyone you know and leaving your state for a new life you create yourself.
I did this myself with amazing results. I even ended up being a Martial Arts instructor in Seattle for some years.
Edited by Icelander (05/29/07 11:17 AM)
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I think I'm on the verge of leaving everyone I know as well. Nothing positive ever comes out of these people and they only try to thwart me by calling me "woman" or "alice" or "negative nancy". I can't beleve I've put up with it for so long. I used to think it was my fault and tried to change, but now I realize how wrong I was and how I just need to separate myself from these people.
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Jackenobi
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Man, everyone i know is in one of two cities here in the UK. Im leaving one for the other (hometown) but the plan is simply get a bit of cash in, take a course, go to Thailand. Teach English. Live, grow.
Its fucked but the thing i'll most miss is a girl i dont even know.
I think this might be the kicker, the reason. Time to spread those wings.
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I would love to find an aware and skilled martial arts instructor. There are many places in my area I could start.
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