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malarki
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Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole.
#5889131 - 07/22/06 10:13 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Why is it that the airport is a black hole to me? Constantly sucking me in. I cannot leave for good... ever.
So I was sick of my last job, I was the EVERYTHING girl at a parts store for an old friend. I wanted a simple easy brainless job that paid nothing but was me functioning in society instead of at home.... making ridiculous amounts of money doing nothing... So I turned into the Girl that did everything and couldn't just work part time and go home.. SO I said fuck you...Peace I am out.. You make me work to much for shit $
SO once again, Number 4, I wake up on Thursday to my old boss... Will you please come back to work for me? I say what the hell sure why not? I don't have anything better to do. (I have been in aviation security since 1999, up till this last year and a half which I decided to do nothing until about 4 months ago) So I am back at work last Friday... I have lost 75 lbs since April of last year so I look A LOT different.. . And I find myself walking about in this hole.... AND NO ONE RECOGNIZES ME?? It's like the twilight Zone... Wandering around and people I have known for years don't even see me.. They say hi to my boss (who tells me they always ask about me) and I am not even there. I guess it's a compliment... She says to me... You are so much prettier now... I cant believe that's even you... What a fucked up day... Bad enough I find myself going back to a boring job, but now I am in a familiar place with familiar people that didn't even know who I am???? WTF????
-------------------- ~*~I'm also an educated guesser, and knowledge seeker If I haven't done it, I know someone who has. IF I don't know, I know someone who does! I am a realist so deal with it, if you don't like it you can choose to not read it!
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lemon_lw
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889143 - 07/22/06 10:16 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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i got what you were saying but the way you present it is very confusing to me, does anyone else agree?
-------------------- In the belly of the Leviathan, one can either despair and perish, or be cheerful and persevere.-Dean Koontz
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malarki
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: lemon_lw]
#5889196 - 07/22/06 10:29 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah sorry sleep deprivation. It doesn't make much sense in my head right now.. the fact it came out like that is amazing. I spent my entire night and into today philosophizing with a Man that has no hope in life... all my energy was spent to try and help him think positive.. People tend to always expect the worst in people.. I do sometimes, I try not to judge and just look at the more solid ideas.. I dunno.. my brain is spent.. at least for today I think. I just don't want to deal with the reality, I will always go back there. I cant escape... comfortability is hard to deny.
I need to get stoned and try to stop thinking tonight...
-------------------- ~*~I'm also an educated guesser, and knowledge seeker If I haven't done it, I know someone who has. IF I don't know, I know someone who does! I am a realist so deal with it, if you don't like it you can choose to not read it!
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lemon_lw
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889206 - 07/22/06 10:32 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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that time was better but way to much ... if you dont like th ejob then quit. i thnk you said you had quit it before so why go back? but whatever go smoke a bowl and relax
-------------------- In the belly of the Leviathan, one can either despair and perish, or be cheerful and persevere.-Dean Koontz
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splifner180
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889222 - 07/22/06 10:39 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Well ...good luck with the new/old job.
That's all. I got nuthin'. =)
splif
-------------------- First Grow: Ecuador -> LC -> HPoo/Straw -> Monotub Build a Do-It-Yourself Magnetic Stirrer in thirty minutes with no money.
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wrestler_az
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889232 - 07/22/06 10:44 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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i thought it was fairly easy to understand. and let me be the first to welcome you to the caucus race. we just keep running around in circles, with no real point. but its fun. better than sitting around all day anyway.
you will cheer up, because you want to. it aint no big thing.
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Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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malarki
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: lemon_lw]
#5889233 - 07/22/06 10:44 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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I like the job... I just don't like some of the people.. yep... time to change to phil forum... see you there?
-------------------- ~*~I'm also an educated guesser, and knowledge seeker If I haven't done it, I know someone who has. IF I don't know, I know someone who does! I am a realist so deal with it, if you don't like it you can choose to not read it!
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wrestler_az
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: wrestler_az]
#5889240 - 07/22/06 10:47 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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not sure its relevance, but heres an interesting read.
http://www.sabian.org/alice3mj.htm
-------------------- how's your WOW?
Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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malarki
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: wrestler_az]
#5889274 - 07/22/06 11:10 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Actually my reasoning behind the job thing isn't money, It's functioning in society. I don't have to work. I enjoy being around people and feel incomplete if I am not able to go out and be in society every once in a while. This has the benefit of pay included I remember the look on my old boss's face when I said that... something along the lines of "I work at this job because I enjoy it, I am not here for money. I don't need to work. I chose to work." hahahaha that was a fuck you, you have no control... hey... guess what??? you have officially been mind fucked you selfish prick... You have no control... now you know.. one time I said this to him too hahaha "Hey I just wanted to let you know my dates for my vacation. Here." Gave him paper. His reply, "Well I have to check and see if anyone else has vacation.... I will let you know." My reply, "I am sorry I think you miss understood me. These are the dates I will be out of town." his "well you are... " mine "I am sorry, but if you schedule me I will not be in." he laughed... I was never scheduled and someone else had vacation... Weird huh???
But the barter syst is great. I did enjoy the link interesting.. a def bookmark for me... That's how our drug culture works here... it's all about barter:)
-------------------- ~*~I'm also an educated guesser, and knowledge seeker If I haven't done it, I know someone who has. IF I don't know, I know someone who does! I am a realist so deal with it, if you don't like it you can choose to not read it!
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wrestler_az
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889342 - 07/22/06 11:50 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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you must teach me this trick of not having to work....
-------------------- how's your WOW?
Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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malarki
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: wrestler_az]
#5889364 - 07/22/06 11:59 PM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Lol It's a simple concept... You have a few friends u trust.. Find good honest people that are like you and you can help. You teach them how to be good at selling something (in most cases they usually sell themselves) You give them products to market and let them sell your products. And then you teach them what to look for in people. And then they find people to market and sell their products... Pyramid scheme in all reality. Yes this is applied to the "DRUG WORLD" but also works for legitimate business the key is to find things to sell with a large profit margin.. things that everyone needs/ can use. And Knowing you can sell anything to anyone... "I can sell a blind man reading glasses" Yes I can. I CAN convince almost anyone to buy anything. If you act like you own the place people will think you do. What you think/ act is what you become. It's just not usually worth the effort.. Why is that? Because I can find someone to do if for me... Laziness... Yes I am lazy sometimes. But this is using my knowledge to my advantage. I am lazy and I make money doing it. But I am not only helping myself. I am helping others to.. Justifying my laziness. How's that for a "mind fuck"?
-------------------- ~*~I'm also an educated guesser, and knowledge seeker If I haven't done it, I know someone who has. IF I don't know, I know someone who does! I am a realist so deal with it, if you don't like it you can choose to not read it!
Edited by malarki (07/23/06 12:01 AM)
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KaptKid
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889433 - 07/23/06 12:27 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
malarki said: Lol It's a simple concept... You have a few friends u trust.. Find good honest people that are like you and you can help. You teach them how to be good at selling something (in most cases they usually sell themselves) You give them products to market and let them sell your products. And then you teach them what to look for in people. And then they find people to market and sell their products... Pyramid scheme in all reality. Yes this is applied to the "DRUG WORLD" but also works for legitimate business the key is to find things to sell with a large profit margin.. things that everyone needs/ can use. And Knowing you can sell anything to anyone... "I can sell a blind man reading glasses" Yes I can. I CAN convince almost anyone to buy anything. If you act like you own the place people will think you do. What you think/ act is what you become. It's just not usually worth the effort.. Why is that? Because I can find someone to do if for me... Laziness... Yes I am lazy sometimes. But this is using my knowledge to my advantage. I am lazy and I make money doing it. But I am not only helping myself. I am helping others to.. Justifying my laziness. How's that for a "mind fuck"?
How deep is that rabbit hole????????????????????????????
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wrestler_az
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Re: Life going in circle, its a black fucking hole. [Re: malarki]
#5889474 - 07/23/06 12:48 AM (17 years, 6 months ago) |
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doesnt that take some of the fun out of it though?
-------------------- how's your WOW?
Edited by yageman (04/20/06 4:20 PM)
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